Getting Older
Billie Eilish Lyrics

I'm gettin' older, I think I'm agin' well
As I grow older, I feel that I am maturing gracefully.

I wish someone had told me, I'd be doin' this by myself
I regret not being warned about facing this journey alone.

There's reasons that I'm thankful, there's a lot I'm grateful for
I can recognize and appreciate the things that bring me joy and fulfillment.

But it's different when a stranger's always waitin' at your door
Dealing with constant attention and unwanted admiration from strangers takes a toll on me.

Which is ironic 'cause the strangers seem to want me
It's paradoxical that strangers desire me more than anyone else in my life.

More than anyone before (anyone before) Too bad they're usually deranged
Unfortunately, these strangers are often mentally unstable and pose a threat to my safety.

Last week, I realized I crave pity
I recently discovered that I have a desire for sympathy and attention.

When I retell a story, I make everything sound worse
I tend to exaggerate my experiences in order to gain empathy from others.

Can't shake the feeling that I'm just bad at healing And maybe that's the reason every sentence sounds rehearsed
I feel incapable of recovering from my emotional wounds, leading to my repetitive and artificial expressions.

Which is ironic, because when I wasn't honest I was still bein' ignored (lyin' for attention just to get neglection)
Interestingly, even when I lied for attention, I was still being overlooked by others.

Now we're estranged
As a result, my relationships with others have become distant and disconnected.

Things I once enjoyed Just keep me employed now
The activities I used to find pleasure in have now become my source of income.

Things I'm longing for Someday, I'll be bored of
The things I am currently desiring will eventually lose their appeal as time goes on.

It's so weird That we care so much until we don't
It's strange how we can be invested in something one moment and then indifferent to it the next.

I'm gettin' older, I've got more on my shoulders But I'm gettin' better at admitting when I'm wrong
As I age, I am faced with more responsibilities and burdens, but I am improving in taking accountability for my mistakes.

I'm happier than ever, at least that's my endeavor To keep myself together and prioritize my pleasure
Currently, I am striving to maintain my happiness and wellbeing by keeping myself composed and fulfilling my own desires.

'Cause to be honest, I just wish that what I promise Would depend on what I'm given (not on his permission, wasn't my decision) To be abused, mm
Honestly, I want my commitments to be based on what I receive, rather than being controlled by someone else's authority. I did not choose to be mistreated.

Next week, I hope I'm somewhere laughing For anybody asking, I promise I'll be fine
I hope to be in a better state of mind next week, and I want to assure others that I am okay.

I've had some trauma, did things I didn't wanna Was too afraid to tell ya, but now I think it's time
I have gone through some traumatic experiences and made choices I didn't want to. I was scared to share this information with you, but now I believe it's necessary.