luv starved
GAYLE Lyrics

I was never shown how to love, so I did my best to guess
Growing up, I never had an example of love to follow, so I tried my best to figure out what it should look like.

Everything a man ever wants, a tiny girl in a dress
I thought that the most important thing I could do was please men by being cute and submissive.

A trophy for his friends
I felt like I was just a decoration to show off to others, rather than an actual person with my own thoughts and feelings.

That I didn't even like, so
I realized that I was putting on a performance for someone I didn't even really care about.

Try to learn from mistakes, I haven't made one in months
I've been trying to grow and learn from my past mistakes, but lately I haven't even had the opportunity to make any new ones.

But it's gettin' harder to take pushin' away everyone
Despite my efforts, it's becoming more difficult to keep people at arm's length and avoid getting close to anyone.

You just had to show up
Then you came into my life and messed everything up (in a good way).

And yeah, I'm not mad about it
Even though it's confusing and scary, I'm not upset that you've come into my life.

Swear to God I'ma change, but I'm agnostic
I promise that I'll try to be better, but I'm not sure I believe in God or higher powers that could help me achieve that.

All this loneliness is gettin' so exhaustin'
I'm tired of feeling so alone all the time, and it's starting to wear me down.

Sick to my stomach, yeah, I'm feelin' kinda nauseous
The uncertainty and anxiety around my feelings for you are making me physically ill.

And I can't tell if it's you
I don't know if it's because of you specifically, or just the general situation.

I'm so love starved
I'm desperately craving love and affection, but I'm not sure how to go about finding it in a healthy way.

Knowin' if I'm ready to trust you is goddamn hard
Given my history and past traumas, it's incredibly difficult for me to trust anyone, including you.

You're pickin' at skin and bones
I feel like you're trying to get to know the real me, but all you're seeing is my vulnerable and fragile side.

I feel my lips, they're turnin' blue
I'm so starved for human connection that I'm starting to feel physically unwell.

Are you great or somethin' new?
I can't tell if you're genuinely a good person, or if I'm just attracted to the novelty of having someone show interest in me.

Sick of being taken advantage by shitty guys
I'm really tired of being manipulated and mistreated by men who don't really care about me.

Tell me if you're one of them, I'm losin' my mind
I'm so scared that you might end up hurting me like so many others have, that it's starting to affect my mental health.

Are you feedin' me affection or just a bunch of lies?
I'm not sure if your attention and affection for me is genuine, or if you're just using me for your own purposes.

Is it me? Is it you? I don't really got a clue
I don't know if the confusion and uncertainty I'm feeling is because of something I'm doing wrong, or if it's just a natural part of getting to know someone.

I don't got much love but I might give it all to you
Even though I'm feeling depleted and starved for love, I'm starting to think that maybe I could trust you enough to give you what I do have.