Every single day it breaks me to pieces
I've tasted defeat of defeat of my demons
I'm such a fucking waste of achievement
I should put this trigger to my brain and just squeeze it
'Cause Lord I know I ain't been no saint
But tell me what I did to deserve this pain
Tell me what I did to deserve this hurt
When all I ever did was put everybody first
(And how does that make you feel?)
These days I just don't feel shit
I don't feel a thing at all
I don't feel like I exist
That's why I need my fix
So I can just feel something
How do you describe the word empty
Try to describe the word nothing
Wait, fuck that
Use my name as a definition
Write it on my forehead
Defective out of commission
I'm sick of it, losing my self
I'm sick of it
Take my fingerprints
You'll see that I did all of the percentages
I've given it my all
I've given it my all and so much more
But everybody still walking out that door
I've given it my all
It's getting to the point where it's sad as fuck
I've given it my all but it's not enough, it's not enough
The sleeping pills don't work
The healing pills don't work
I still feel pain with pain pills
And now those same pills don't work
If I don't get a couple perks
I'm about to go berzerk
I swear to god nobody can fix this shit
Not even the church
Now tell me what good would a pastor do
Except be mad at you
And tell you that you sinned a bunch of times
But I've forgiven you
You know they won't admit it
And god himself is forbidden
But it's probably still just half of all the shit the priest committed
(And how does that make you feel?)
Ask me one more time how the fuck I feel
I'm gonna fucking lose my mind
Step aside I need the pills
Step aside I need the Xanays
Step aside I need the Vicodin
And I'll be on my way
So I can just get back to my life again
You do not give a shit
Stop pretending, stop lying
'Cause to you I'm just a check, bitch
Just a dollar sign
Another vaycay with the kids
Oh hubby couldn't be prouder
All you had to do was ask me how I feel for an hour
See that's the problem with pretentious technicalities
You preach insanity
And then expect my weekly salary
So tell me whose the crazy person now bitch
And yet you think your qualified to treat me
I've given it my all
I've given it my all and so much more
But everybody still walking out that door
I've given it my all
It's getting to the point where it's sad as fuck
I've given it my all but it's not enough, it's not enough
Man I came up a young way
Just a young jersey nigga
Pullin' in my timber
Afraid I might pull this trigger
It's fucking anxiety
Fucking anxiety
My demons are calling and sayin' they want whatever's inside of me
I'ma give it to 'em
I'ma give them all of it
Used to be a small operetta
Now it's the opposite
Anxiety
All big-time anxiety
I feel it's runnin' through my veins
I'm afraid I might get the blade
And make a slit and let the blood spill out
Anxiety
All big-time anxiety
Anxiety

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BMIKEMUSIC

4y↑11.4K

YO WTF! I did not expect this at all...90k views in 2 days! Thank you so much! Let's spread the movement and keep sharing it EVERYWHERE!! Make sure to follow me on Instagram @itsbmike... HERE ARE THE LYRICS FOR EVERYONE ASKING...
(Verse 1)
Every single day it breaks me to pieces
I tasted defeat at the feet of my demons
I’m such a fucking waste of achievement
I should put this trigger to my brain and just squeeze it
Cause Lord I know I aint been no saint
But tell me what I did to deserve this pain
Tell me what I did to deserve this hurt
When all I ever did was put everybody first

And how does that make you feel?

These days I Just don’t feel shit
I don’t feel a thing at all, I don’t feel like I exist
Thats why I need my fix, so I can just feel something
How do you describe the word empty?
Try describe the word nothing
Wait, fuck that use my face as the definition
Write it on my forehead, defective out of commission
I’m sick of it, losing myself I’m sick of it
Check my fingerprints, you’ll see how little the percentage is

(Chorus)
I’ve given it my all
I’ve given it my all and so much more
But everybody’s still walking out that door
I’ve given it my all
It’s getting to the point where it’s sad as fuck
I’ve given it my all but it’s not enough...
It’s not enough

(Verse 2)
The sleeping pills don’t work, the healing pills don’t work
I still feel pain with the pain pills now those same pills don’t work
If I don’t get a couple percs im bout to go berserk
I swear to god nobody can fix this shit not even the church
now tell me what good would a pastor do? Except be mad at you
Then tell you that “you’ve sinned a bunch of times but I’ve forgiven you”
You know they won’t admit it and god himself has forbid it but it’s probably still just half of all the shit the priest committed

And how does that mak-

Ask me one more fucking time how the fuck I feel
Imma fucking lose my mind, step aside I need the pills
Step aside I need the xannies
Step aside I need the vicodin
And I’ll be on my way so I can just get back my life again
You do not give a shit...stop pretending stop lying
Cause to you I’m just a check, bitch just a dollar sign...
Another vacay with the kids, hubby couldn’t be prouder...
And all you had to was ask me how I feel for an hour
See that’s the problem with pretentious technicalities
Your preach insanity and then expect my weekly salary?
So tell me who’s the crazy person now bitch...
And yet you think you’re qualified to treat me? Shit

(Chorus)
I’ve given it my all
I’ve given it my all and so much more
But everybody’s still walking out that door
I’ve given it my all
It’s getting to the point where it’s sad as fuck
I’ve given it my all but it’s not enough...
It’s not enough

Outro

Man I came up a long way
Just a young Jozi nigga
Bullet at my temple
Afraid I might pull this trigger

This fucking anxiety
Fucking anxiety
My demons are calling and saying that they want whatever's inside of me...

Imma give it to em, (Hell yeah) Imma give em’ all of it
Use to be a smooth operator...
Now it's the opposite

Anxiety...
Oh big time
Anxiety yeah
I feel it swimming thru my veins, I’m afraid I might get the blade, make a slit and let the blood spill out
Anxiety...
Oh big time
Anxiety

Bertiebeetle Art

49w↑3

@bmike Your song has got me through tough times with my anxiety.
Keep writing pls.
This song allows me to get out my frustration and anger about therapy just not working.
Ultimately healing comes from looking inward.
Im trying. Thats all I got right now.
Your music helps ❣
Ps.i have poetry about my struggles.
Id love some of them to be used as lyrics one day.
Youre the artist if youre interested.

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BMIKEMUSIC

4y↑11.4K

Surely

Wow this hits

reid lilleston

O lol ih

Mary Jane Bumbalough

12w

Thanks for bringing much needed attention to this disease. It has almost done in my son. He doing much better! I pray everyone else with this disease gets the help they need!

Mike Carmon

19w

Wtf u mean bro. Your literally describing my life the last 2 years

Joanna Winsett

27w

After loosing my son 3 years ago, I never felt anxiety fill my body, enough to make you want to he numb. . And how life makes us humble.

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Maureen Njoki

49w↑3.5K

We are NOT addicted to drugs....We are addicted to the NEED to escape reality

Juggalo Violent

That is very true you have the Demons in your head and the path of this world. We just can’t deal with it the best it’s either give up or find something to make you push on no matter what that is for you everyone in the world Is the same about that we all have a sort of escape.

- Freqsheux -

Well..our brains are addicted to the drug though. Lol. That may be the reason some begin the road to addiction. But the need to escape reality doesn't cause the mind ripping hell that is withdrawal.

Psycho Delic

My demons play with me regardless sober high so if I'm gonna be alive I'm gonna be fucked up its the deal I made with myself

N H

12 steps program is a cure, na program saves life’s every day

Kris chaddock

100%%%%%

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Gamers Nation

1y↑1.9K

When you watch this at your lowest 2 years ago and here you are back to it right now..

Dakota Picotte

It is crazy how far we come but how fast it can get bad again

Chris Bell

@jamie m hey still up to talk 😞

Tara Cross

13w

Shiiitt.... I feel you on that one. 💔

Britt Sparks

20w

No shit right. Cause it legit says I taste my defeat at the feet of my demons which is so fucking true

Janely Cosme

23w

Felt this 😴💔

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dustin sears

24w↑464

Holy shit man. How did it take me this long to find this song. Crushed it and I felt the lyrics the moment you started rhyming. Great work Mike!

Seth Ozera

Same man. A friend of mine just showed me this track and I’m in awe I didn’t hear about this man sooner

Matt Quist

This comment hits it right on the spot✊

Liroy Barzillai

19w↑2

Same!!!!

Bruce Miles

22w

On this shit

Britt Sparks

22w↑3

Yeah no shit those first 2 lines hit so damn hard

Ashley

1y↑322

When your an over thinker, mixed w depression and anxiety. This song makes you think and I can totally relate and not wanting to open up about how I feel.

Andrew Taylor

100%

Guadalupe Rodriguez

10w↑2

Same

Ashley

12w↑2

@c e c e $ ' . I hope it gets better, those moments are the worse.

c e c e $ ' .

12w↑5

OML ME ASF. i overthink everything and i sit in the bathroom at night w the lights off, music in my ears, door locked. seriously im scared of myself sometimes. i feel like im gonna disappear from my own self.

Midnight Skye

13w↑3

Agreed

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Andi Vasquez

1y↑2.2K

This song hits diff when you have anxiety and are depressed

Jamie Allison-Lucas

100% true

Roxasheartless

Facts

Snake Eyes

Depression isnt real

GLITCH

Especially that moment 2:37
THAT HITS REALLY HARD

GLITCH

Yes

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Savannah Huizar

20w↑99

I know you probably won't see this but I just wanted to let you know that this was one of the last songs my brother showed me. He lost his battle with depression and severe anxiety last night, and I still don't want to believe it's real. He said that this was exactly how he felt, he appreciated how real you are and thanked you for helping me and others understand. Even though I suffer from depression and anxiety; it wasn't the same, more people need to understand that people who go through this don't all think the same. Same war, different battles. I hope I can meet you in person one day to say thank you 😔❤

Josh Matheson

EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON, but you have to pay close attention to EVERYTHING that happens because of THE EVENT that brought all the pain & anxiety!!! 'Examine everything with a microscope" or "a fine tooth comb"!!!

Jaboa Hines

I see u... understood

εmιrα

12w

Awful to hear what happened i can imagine the hurt youre going through ☹ my condolences :(

TheOutsider Jess

15w

@Paranormal Soul Circle I'm sorry for your loss

TheOutsider Jess

15w

I'm sorry for your loss

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Sage

38w↑391

It's crazy how many people come back to this everyday. This song is legendary.

Lisa McDevitt

38w↑1

They need more!

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Lex_XX

30w↑56

I’ve had generalized anxiety disorder for about all my life as I know it. I’ve always refused meds that were given to me because I’m scared to fall into that path just as a teen. But a lot of days I would wake up in cold sweat and panic because my anxiety kicks without no trigger. I would sit on the edge of my bed, unable to move, just sitting there shaking and screaming. For literal fucking hours, I wouldn’t even be able to take care of myself because of how much pain I was in. But no matter how much I screamed it was like no one heard me. People have asked me what anxiety is like and it’s literally something I can not explain. I can’t put it in words, it’s a type of state of mind that affects a person dramatically. And I’m so fucking sick of it, everyday of my life I experience some form of anxiety. Some days the anxiety would be so much I’d hyperventilate and pass the hell out. I’m so tired of this, every single day I shake inside my skin and scream to myself. But no, I’m to stupid to fall into the meds. Maybe I just don’t want to be seen as weak for taking the meds. Maybe I don’t want to satisfy those around me cause I’m stubborn. Maybe I’m scared. Maybe I’m just fucking nothing.

If you’re still reading this, just know it’ll be okay. And if you struggle with some form of anxiety, any form of anxiety; you’re still a person. And it will be okay, and there are others out there who hear you. Even if it seems like nobody does. Even if no matter how loud you scream it can seem like nobody hears you: we do. You are not alone, and we will get through this. We will. together.

-some stranger on YT

Chrissie Pacheco

7w↑2

I try everyday to convince myself I'm not depressed I don't have anxiety it's not a panic attack I just had it's all just me over thinking like everyone says I am I'm just seeking attention I listen to songs like this to keep my myself at a calm no one will feel like another person does but they will understand the hurt the pain and emotions that come with these sickness's the only time I feel calm is when I leave my body and sit looking at myself seeing nothing but a weak person... Depersonalization disorder a depression that can turn into a mental health disorder when do we know that we have finally went from feeling down sad lost to just plain crazy?? And when it gets to that point am I even me anymore are just a zombie in this skin walking around till this body is no longer available to use?? Sry guess just need to vent for a min but back to my silence.. I hope everyone dealing with any kind of head illness can get some kind of help and comfort in there life's..

CarZIYAH💜🦁

@WicKid what are some things that you do to manage it

WicKid

8w↑1

i have it Too for So Long Just Learned how to Manage it
so i Dont have to ignore it anymore.

CarZIYAH💜🦁

9w↑1

Thanks so much just had real bad anxiety yesterday

_mummysaurus_

9w↑1

I could have written this myself 😭

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Krispy_Ratt

1w↑2

We are not addicted to the drugs, we are addicted to the place they take you, more beautiful than you could ever imagine

Ashtyn&Jon

3y↑389

This shit gave me chills 5 seconds into him singing....WTF! amazing!

Dexter Cox

37w

Isn't he rapping?

Briana Badillo

1y↑2

Same 100% Some people just understand. We've all been on the same journey, just a different path.

MJUnknown

Same

Chris Myers

Same aha

Bella Luna Gaming

Same

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N H

7d↑3

Literally amazing
U help so many ppl,
Instead of taking the drug this song is my new drug I listen to this song and I feel so validated and powerful, this is literally the best song I heard in years, a song with a meaning,

kyle strickland

1w↑1

This one rings loud and clear here. I expect even more with combat vets with PTSD. Coming from a man with a family full of vets, i assure you that this one hits home.
Keep it coming. Great song.

Turtle Turtle

29w↑26

I’m at the lowest point I’ve been in in 6 years. Never wanted to seek help cause I didn’t deserve it. Now I’m trying and it’s hard to do that alone. Music is a solid point that makes everything better. You’ve helped more people than you could ever even imagine. Thank you. As a wounded healer you save lives.

Liz DeStefano

10w

Love this song first time hearing it and i love it! I keep going back to the website for the therapist near me but I don't trust anyone, I want help but then again I don't! What am I afraid of a better me? But I'm stuck and for some sick reason I love being down here!! It's hard!

Charday Ellena

22w

Your in my prayers 🙏 you deserve help 💯 believe me once you start getting help it does get easier although everyday will still remain a struggle but with help your not alone/all the time 💯

Casey Mo

28w↑2

I encourage you to look up Blue October (Justin Fursenfeld). It’s not the same genre of music, but it’s so healing. From “hate me” to “Fear” his raw emotion sharing what he’s gone through can’t be put into words. I wish you all the best, just keep going. When you don’t feel like you can take another step-just shuffle. You got this!!

Christina Cole

7d↑2

bruuuuh. you did the damn thing! 100% felt every word.

BMIKEMUSIC

4y↑7.7K

2 years ago I announced I was writing a song called Anxiety. I rewrote this over and over and over again. I didn't wanna put it out until I was certain about it cause of how much raw emotion I wanted in it. Mental illness is a real thing, and some people still fail to treat it like its real. Lets move forward and make the world a better place by treating it with the respect it deserves and giving credit to those who battle with it every day. In saying that, hope everybody enjoys the song! - Mike

Daniel Finger

We're not broken! We are the only answer

littlejezzey

Bro I love this song listen to it at least 10 times while I'm playing online poker b
UT don't really agree with your comment last thing we all need with mental illness is more and more pills like your line goes sleeping pill don't work pain pills stop working but yet your asking for more but also last thing I wanted to do at my lowest points in life were to share all my shit and listing to a group is even worse your story might not be my story but it will always spark a memory that's very simular if not dead on argggggg

Jessica Harris

12w

Love your songs bmike anxiety not a joke

shizok

17w

@Nevaeh Johnson this song helped me as well. we got ur back. if u ever need to talk please hit me up!

Nevaeh Johnson

17w↑2

I feel this so damn hard... I have anxiety and depression and more...

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b0red

49w↑34

It's actually my first time listening to this song and I cried I finally found the song that says what I actually feel

melissalemoine

12w

@Clariza Ortiz ,.

Clariza Ortiz

27w

Yess

Michael Williamson

49w

Hope you're ok. Hang in there please

Kai Sawyer

26w↑22

To me this song both represents my anxiety and depression to a tee, and I am extremely thankful that I have a place where I can go when I am feeling extremely low and am off my meds so thank you bmike thank you.

Super Tuna

@Caleb Hawkins im sorry :( sending hugs 💖

Paulette Hinesley Roman

17w

@Caleb Hawkins Holy shit friend Im so sorry 😞 We all have been through some major shit in our lives!! It does just make us stronger

Caleb Hawkins

18w

No one knows the shit I've gone through. My Dad killed himself when I was 6. I have a nice step dad but his daughter is a psychopath and threatened to kill me, my mom, and my lil sister. My grandpa just died in his sleep. Life sucks

only_up_the_movement

6w↑4

This is one of the songs I would allways come to when I was dealing with my addiction 💯 proud to say I’ve been clean for about two years now never went to any kind of rehab(don’t recommend it) but something I had to do myself and prove to myself. I came from gangbanging lost my father infront of me young and been in shootouts almost stabbed and moor and this song with its uniq sound and lyrics caught me and helped walk me threw the process 💪🏻 respect for taking the path less walked and helping ppl instead of chasing the easy bag with less depth in your music

Mary Hayzari

11w↑8

I love this man. He is a real one💙

Bambi Cline

3y↑4.4K

Anxiety is no joke. I hate having anxiety and depression. I hate feeling like I'm never good enough and feeling like a failure all the time. Feeling like I can't breathe most days.

Plaksha Kaushik

Ull pass it its not permanent .At the end we all get to know how to control it bc we r too timid to die and of the after effects

Bath&Body works

26w

That's exactly how I feel.... no one understands and they just tell me how much I'm lying or whatever. I hate it.

Violet32makingit

27w

Same here... prayers to ALL OF YOU ON HERE!!! We ARE good enough! Everything will be ok!

Mike Hunt

29w

So many of us are not alone and it blows me away, I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy ,…and yet, here we are…I’m sorry…. You ARE WORTH IT!!!

Mandy Roeder

29w

I know how u feel I have ptst, depression, anxity n panic attack some of my family thinks its in my head n I have irrgular heart beat

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MinutesToDaze

34w↑124

Just found this song.
Hmm... 45 seconds Into it, and I already.feel like it's words from my own mind.
I fucks with this

MinutesToDaze

@Kristin Woodward you could take benzos but only if they are prescription, and don't ever believe that recommended dose is what you actually should take, you should take a lot lower than that and have a less frequent rate then what they tell you, because when you prescribe you that s*** they want you to get hooked on it or to become partially dependent hopefully dependent on it, don't ever let them do that to you. But taking small amounts of benzos when the anxiety is overwhelming is a very helpful tool, just to be honest. But you have to sit down with yourself and make the ground rules that these are for anxiety emergencies situations only, never share them with friends because they go from tools to party favors in an instant, to be honest if I were in that situation where I needed something to help but was afraid of what benzo addiction could do. Remember something very important, in order for them to become an addiction, you first have to have them become a habit, for them to become a habit, they start out as a routine. And the routine is the instructions written on the bottom, take one by mouth every 3 hours blah blah blah. Never listen to that when it comes to benzos or pain pills. Only take them when you absolutely need them.
And they will possibly have the best chance of being helpful if you only take them when you need them but you don't want to take them at all if you don't have to, that creates a good model of self control, and I promise you won't get like the person you saw on them. You just need to keep that person that you saw in the back of your head and be like "I never want that for my life'

Kristin Woodward

I never knew it was anxiety I was dealing with til it got so bad the last 5 years that I can't function anymore. I'll never take benzos because I seen it make someone I love way worse but this video shows exactly the experience I've had trying to get help, it's almost worse for my anxiety to try to get the help then just dealing with it.

TheOutsider Jess

15w↑1

@Hoai Dang I would say dax, vin jay, nf, crypt, and sik world

Hoai Dang

16w

do u guys have any artist to recommend related to his vibes?

Clinton Mcghee

28w

Like wise!!!

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Alwayshated96

39w↑19

Man I’m so f*** in the head and this song just reminds me I’m not alone. The people who don’t under how music can save you, obviously haven’t been through it.

Lisa McDevitt

38w

Never alone!

Jason Langford

Depression and anxiety can be such a constant battle. A smile on your face can cover up so much but nobody really sees what's going on inside the mind

Beverly Crosby

23w↑8

This song still speaks to me so much. As a previous addict I have to disagree with those that say that drugs don't control you. Because they do. I self medicated with many illegal drugs because of the shit life I had and refusing to seek help. It was 3 years later I was diagnosed with PTSD, depression, anxiety, stress and bipolar. It was a way for me to ignore my mind racing and just be able to get through the days as a normal person... get help while you can.

James Borg

2y↑1.8K

People saying their worst year is 2020 have no idea what it means to deal with depression and anxiety for years

Law Dawg

32w

I been in 16 psych wards In a decade...lockdown ain't shit lol.

pandawrites

37w

With anxiety and depression, every year is the worst year.

Kezia Morris

44w

I know what it’s like, I’ve been dealing with it for years

Hasty-carnaage

45w

Lost my mother in 2020. Lost my lifelong dog I grew up with. Lost a few other animals as well. Got let go from my first job for something dumb. Got into my first car accident while I was driving. Found my alcoholism. Lost the relationship with my sister and am not in my nephews life.

Still not sure I wanna say 2020 was the worst year of my life. Had alot of good happen as well. Saying it was the worst is just putting it out there that the world could hit me worse.

Sanjeeb Bhandari

45w

That’s what’s in all of ours mind who are dealing with it

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VAIBHAV Y

1y↑49

Came back again after an year
Anxiety dragged me here
And tbh
It's stuck to me
It'll never leave me

Lester Lyrics

25w↑1

@Katarina Marjanovic help

Savannah Sage

4w↑1

Omg this is absolutely amazing! What incredible talent! Thank you light!

Stephanie Jensen

15w↑3

No it’s our need to escape those that don’t love us and will never love us back it’s because they’re not capable of loving. They are evil basically

FrankTheFrog

14w

love your songs man keep up the good work

Alejandro nogueerol

1y↑1.1K

"Tell me what i did to derseve this pain if everything i did was put people first" EXACTLYYY EXACTLYYY

Nate Oehring

6w↑1

Took a complete breakdown before I started to try and only focus on myself and surviving.

Noe Marrero

10w

BEEN saying that since I WAS DIAGNOSED W MULTIPLE SCLEROSIS LIKE WHY WHY ME WHY?!?!?

εmιrα

12w↑1

Foreal foreal!

Deathberry Jam

14w↑6

@Nukri Samyurashvili So what are we supposed to do? We get told from the day were born, "put others before yourself, make sure everyones happy by sacrificing yourself". Then when we finally have enough and do something for US, we get shit on so fucking hard for it.

"Oh your selfish! You dont care about me!" People like us have no place in this world. We give up everything like were told, then get nothing back. Then we get told to focus on us, but how? After YEARS of waiting, putting everyone first, how are we supposed to put ourselves first?

Nukri Samyurashvili

27w↑3

maybe you deserved it because you put other people first and not yourself?
have you thought about that.

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Shantelle Hanchard

2022 and I still run to this song when I'm at my lowest😩🙏♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

Benanarama

43w↑16

Pure fire! Lyrics from the heart that speak to alot of us!

Kayden Napier

16w↑3

3 years and I still listen to this song daily ❤️

Ilove Lilpeep

31w↑2

I lost the love of my life bc I was addicted to Xanax back in 2019 she showed me bmike she showed me baby don’t cut back when I used to self harm I think of her when I listen to that song I miss her so much😞🥺

DiAcHiCkEn

16w↑7

Anxiety. depression. I feel its very underestimated. I was never taught that this thoughts were bad when i was a kid. Now its become a part of me. I hate the feeling when i take meds. All it does is make my head hurt. Music like this is what keeps me sane. Maybe if i learnt about depression when i was a kid then things would be different

Terry Walker

Man! Thank you for this song it hits home brother keep doing you

Claudetta Shirley

16w↑3

This song literally gives me chills. I sing it from soul 😩

tyler burton

1y↑61

They say all these things about counting back from 10 word puzzles, take breaths, but your hands in cold water, it doesn’t work. All these thoughts in your head and you get drowned in them and you get stuck alone, anxiety ruined my relationship. Anxiety ruined my friends ruined my life I can’t even concentrate

The Code Breaker

44w

I got add to so it makes it like ten times worst shits rough

Jaydon Darlin

1y↑1

Fr fr same

BunnyGirlErika

1y↑6

Mental health services in America suck because it's still treated like a stigma. I have had so many bad experiences with psychiatrists that I stopped going because they were just making worse.

Dt0x75

2y↑1.2K

This is exactly how anxiety feels like, people think of anxiety as being overly excited, but it aint. You think everyone is mad at you for how you are, you think everyone who cares is lying to you. They get mad at me for not getting help, they dont know how hard it to do that! The entire world is against me, and you want to hide, then when that doesnt work, you are ready to die! I suffer with this EVERY single day!

WicKid

This to be Talked wbout More.

Sky Zarr

@Trey Jones ditto man. I feel you so hard.

Silvia Brüstle

OMG I feel exactly the same way as you describe

THE OLD SOUL☯️

I also suffer with this daily and a substance addiction. I am at my witts end it's so hard to carry on just when all I want to do is end it all. FUCK YOU ANXIETY WHY DID YOU HAVE TO EXIST 😭😭😔

Jennifer Rees

I am here if you want help

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IAmJust Amanda

18w↑2

It's crazy how many people come back to this everyday. This song is legendary 💕

2022 Anyone???

Andrew Mogg

31w↑4

Man this shit hits hard..... been struggling with ptsd amongst other things. Thank you for this.

Kittie Meow Alvarado

1y↑10

First time hearing him. And I’m in love. I love this. Is tells exactly how I have been feeling. Straight on. I’m sorry others have to feel this. It’s no joke. 🥺

Yalitza Aviles

Ran across this ✅👌definitely hits home such an amazing song definitely my favorite singer now 🥰🙌 all day every day

Yada Yada

3y↑2.6K

Living with Anxiety and depression is hard

"I wanna die but what happens when I do"

EDIT

15w

Like will we go to heaven or hell

Jaydon Darlin

Same

Angel Mojica

@6SUGARZ - definition of hell!

Zombieslayer

People will miss you ❤

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Philip Landers

20w↑2

One of the best artist portrayals of their emotions in a song I've still to this day have ever heard. Great work

Dublupz

28w↑3

This has and always will be such a great song. 💯

Bertiebeetle Art

49w↑3

Oprah's Gran

1y↑8

These lyrics hit so hard I'm literally sitting here with goosebumps

Sky S

1y↑3

He is amazing!!
I feel some NF vibes here.
It would be good if they made a collab.

Mike Trimble

42w↑2

Bmike..... Bro I just came across this video and you hit everything on the money, sent chills down my spine and tears in my eyes. You got a fan for life that's for sure my guy. Stay safe and always keep your head up. Best foot forward.... Much love homie

Low Budget Advice

30w↑7

Everything he says is how the patients see us and it's hard to argue cause how do you convince someone they are wrong when they are technically right but not fully right? You can be a therapist if you dont care, but you need to care to be a successful one. It's can even be unethical not to. It can be unethical at times to avoid your own destruction and unethical to be destroyed. Burnout is most of their way out. If you are having a hard time, you go to someone who has a hard time every day. Especially someone who's dedicated their life to it. I hope this made sense. This song may be singing from the view of the patient but it is truly universal.

Robert Hill

18w↑2

Thank you Bmike for the great song. Most people can really relate to it

Dictator 4 Life

3y↑1K

Dude, this song speaks to me in ways only those who have anxiety could understand. You have a new fan. Thank you for blessing me with this song

Glendy Ochada

Aaahhhh

Sarah Limb

I totally agree

Joker Dalton

fr bro

Dictator 4 Life

3y↑6

@xxxsugoitacion it's true, today it's almost impossible to become famous or even just generally well known in the music industry without selling yourself to an industry. However, those who make music (especially this kind, where it's very personal) hate to use the industry but don't have a choice. If they want to make a living they must do it the industry way. So that fact that this guy was willing to to compromise what he originally had in mind in order to pursue his passion, giv9ng up a lot of the rights and money he could make for security in his job.... I can respect that. No-one likes selling their dream to a company, but to those who do, they either become the industry, and make generic music, or they fight for what they want to make, a song that only a minority of people will relate to. I can still appreciate this song.

xxxsugoitacion

3y↑1

You are still going to have anxiety, get yourself checked out. I wish you well. This song is just a song created to sell to people who actually have anxiety... it's industry plays to make money out of the sick.

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Shelby Miller

11w↑2

Ong this song hits different when you need that lil kick in life…

Jennah Watkins

14w

i feel this everyday i life and it hit so hard hearing someone sing it. i love it

Kaidyn 385

34w↑7

People say that they need medication to help them but we know all they need is someone to love them and to show them what love is

Derek Smith

22w

Wow, I feel it. Great work.

vicente navarrete

2y↑2.1K

“Tell me what i did to deserve this pain, tell me what i did to deserve this hurt when all i ever did was put everyone first”. 😓😔

SolTier

That hit me hard tbh

hw3646

Same my ex and fam is wrong

official_ mono

This is what got me too; since losing my son in May.

Jeremiah Pierce

IM PRAYING FOR YOU

Jaleel White

I feel u all the way

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motasem jafari

24w↑3

That's the first time I see it in a clip all the time I listen to it on Spotify and I loved it
Well done 👏🏼 ✔ 👍🏻 👌🏻 😀 🙌

👑QUEEN SAVAGE👑

41w

I have this on repeat its real about real life and feelings I just lost my mom in April I have falling into a darkness 💔 😔

Chris Rockwell

48w↑3

Ty bro!!! Had an anxiety attack from hell at work earlier.Good to hear it from someone else’s view but FR keep ya head up bro! Don’t let this shit take you 💯❤️

Michael Cavanagh

such beautiful singing and love the realness from your lyrics the demons we face are not nice at all God is there at the end of the tunnel even though it doesn't feel like it sometimes, we just want to escape from this fucked up life and messed up world, we must be strong kia kaha we will get through these challenges depression and anxiety, ptsd, are all nasty to have to live with we don't feel like anyone cares about us what we are going through but people care your family your friends God cares even more about you guys.

Blank

3y↑1.8K

"But tell me what I did to deserve this pain
Tell me what I did to deserve this hurt
When all I ever did was put everybody first"
...

Tone-deaf Bard

Same mate

Beautifano Lovely

This got me!!! I can so relate

Kaiden

Blank I’m using this comment for a school presentation

Southern Pride

That hit home

TheBoss 071203

Thats how i am...

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Benjamin

45w↑4

This is a song that matches exactly what I have to go through

David Barney

16w↑1

Bro this song is so genuine and raw... Fucking amazingly well written.... Thanks for these bar's man, I literally ball my eyes out Everytime the 2nd verse comes... Any song that connects that deeply is rare... Well done man, can't wait to see what you have coming in the future!

wesley boswell

1y↑6

Dealt with these feelings since I was 6. Thank God for people like you and many other artists that help us all through it. Its like music is the key to peace for me.

Crystal Ratliff

30w↑4

I was hooked with just a few cords!! I know I’m not the only one that can definitely relate to this. The only word I can even think to try describe this is just POWERFUL!!! Thank you so much

LISTEN UP

2y↑1.6K

Song is literally lyrical reality about true anxiety

Roxasheartless

40w↑2

Amen 🙏 ✊

George Meyers

40w

Hence the title

Lazy Kierx🌻✨

42w↑1

That's damn right😩🖐️

Okama Anthem

43w

Detoxin right fuckin now and i can relate to these words. Truth

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Nicole Fugere

39w↑3

Found this in 2021, this day I am suffering depression and anxiety. Thank you, you bring the voice to explain I'm feeling right now, bless you

shorty MC

18w↑2

This touched me deeply. My best friend sent this to me and it specks loudly to my heart right.

Ping !

Ive never found a song that relates to me, BMIKE you're legend 👍

Beautifully maintaine SUCCESSFULLY IN PROGRESS

17w↑2

This really hit home for me I have anxiety and PTSD I know what it is to carry around pain and emotional emptiness it's hard to swallow 😔 from no one could ever imagine my pain 💔 I love this one!!

PremiumWater 35

3y↑1.2K

Having anxiety is like, living in hell, because you cant control it, it controls you. Belive me when I say this its come to the point where, dont love anyone, cant talk to anyone because of anxiety, and pushed me to the edge of suffering

Cunkel Rak

26w

@Mike Dismuke good luck friend hope you got better

Austin Nardone

26w

You ain't kidding best explanation of anxiety well said.

Mike Dismuke

35w

@Cunkel Rak The mornings are the worst for me, I wake up if I'm lucky enough to sleep and my stomach goes crazy I start throwing up even though I have nothing in my stomach and soon after that comes the headaches I can't focus on anything and I can't drive. I need this to go away so I can focus on taking care of my son.

Cunkel Rak

35w

@Mike Dismuke I hope it helps I really do good luck out there brother I hope you learn to control it better I really do.

Mike Dismuke

35w

@Cunkel Rak Thank you for the advice and I hope everyone who is speaking on this has a good day and a better one tomorrow.

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Mc HolyLight

22w↑2

Still an amazing songs bmike this is a great right here. Found it at my low point and still stay humble and listen every few months

Lilith Bloom

Still listening in 2022 and still hits hard af 🔥🔥

krystal brennan

This song couldn't be closer to how I feel every day

Virgo Love

30w↑2

DAMN….this hit home! I feel this shit to the soul for real I’m someone that has ptsd, depression & anxiety…just numb!

Dr Flamingo

1y↑498

Anxiety is a disorder that is not taken to seriously and this song sums up my life I wake up in the morning with it I go to bed with it I battle depression with it it's only a matter of time before it wins and I'm gone

ሜሮን

I think anxiety is a symptom of a disorder or trauma etc.. so please do some research maybe it can help you cure, or control your anxiety more.. I love you all

Melisa Kelly

Can't let it win I go through this to u have to stay strong cause there is more to life my not look like it right now but there is happiness out there for u much love

Rico Rosales

I completely feel this

Connor Murphy

same

Haiden Geary

@Abigail O Of course you're not a quitter, so long as you keep pushing forward. Nicely done.

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yiting cai

1y↑3

Thank you for making this song for ppl who suffering anxiety. I have been taken pill since September but not working. Now, again ppl in where I lived started rumor again. “putting other people first” but stillng be tragedy badly. This song give me power,bless you

KrackerJack Bliss

12w

I have had addiction issues since my early teens. I just turned 43 im just 2 years free of opioids.after all this time i have learned acceptance is my magic. Im still addicted........but more to living this insane gift i was given. Love your struggle.

Aiden Taps ASMR

28w↑3

I get so much anxiety when I watch this video because the scenery is absolutely terrifying; but I love this song and I've loved your music all the way from 'Baby don't cut' to '2 faces' and 'Life in my stomach'

Lester Lyrics

25w

First time listening to this song ,it’s amazing. I have been suffering from anxiety and depression . I’m tired living this way , there’s not a single day I think don’t of suicide

Daniel H.

41w↑9

way to keep it 100 bmike, much love brother. wish you the best in life and for your music career; dont ever give up and keep on pushin man..you have great things in store for you. not alot of MCs keepin it real and spitting from the depths of their very soul anymore like you are. much love from Missouri bmike, as long as you keep being you your bound to always win..i honestly believe that. 100 for real, peace.

C C

42w↑5

Literally feeling this right now, is it ever enough! We give so much of ourselves to others who would never do the same for us in return!

Wayne Schuler

21w↑2

You nailed it!!! I agree 110%

Caused OG

35w↑2

3 years later and 27million views! I’m 1% that keeps this song on a replay list 🤭

kerzm

2y↑1K

“The worst part about hell is not the flames it’s the hopelessness”

Jordan Townley

Said by a patient of depression from the 1959 psychiatric interview. I just can't express what I felt when I he articulated that line.

Sean Harwood

Aesthetic Alien It’s plausible

Aleida Santos

2y↑1

Thats so true

Billie Nations

Agreed

Tiffany Miller

@kerZm Yes it is

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Merli Echevarria

5w↑1

thank you for this song, i can’t appreciate you enough for this. hard to keep going every day of life and this is shouts things i can’t bring myself to say

Cruz Leal

15w↑2

I relate to this song so much I’m 13 and going through so much pain right now and I don’t know hot let it out I just keep it inside me and don’t know hot to deal with it and I feel like I have nobody to talk to. My dad is in prison for 15 years and my mom just got out of jail 2 years ago and she still can’t get her life together and my brother is doing drugs, and I feel like my dad choose the drugs over his 2 daughters and his 2 son’s I’ve felt so much pain seeing everything going on in my life. And my girlfriend is broke up with me today I feel like everyone that I need in my life I need most leaves me and that nobody really loves me anymore and that the only person I can really depend on is god. And is it because I’m a screw up is that everyone leaves me?

William Preston

5w↑1

Facts bro I'm tryna get off of drugs but its like everything is my fault I felt everything u said bro I'm fina drop a ablum

Liz Duggan

19w

I love this song cuz i have counseling therapy too and take pills. Makes sence how i feel is real. Good hit.

Love hiphop

12w↑1

I dont take drugs. I put the pain down,i suffer from anxiety. I love songs like this. It explains how i feel. I just want it to drift. But there is no escape so im turning to the music.This song is awesome. Thank u. Glad i found your music

Chris Moss

17w↑1

<3 these lyrics are so powerful, I can relate so well to the tasting defeatat the feet of my demons

KyleTheGamer 1

This song hurts so much... every word is a perfect representation of my life.. I cry damn near every single time I hear it.. :'(

Allison Costello

1y↑7

Hes speaking to my soul with this song!! Thanks for singing what alot of us go through in silence 🤐 ❤️❤️❤️

Boss Baby

28w↑4

I given it my All and So Much More, And Everybody Still Walking Out That Door
💔❤️‍🩹

Matt Encinia

17w↑1

Hits the heart but keep going man you got big things coming your way!!

Noker69

10w

This song is hits hard! Life changing for me and sure many

MR Grinch

Hell yea bro I’m feeling this song 👊🏻👊🏻

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