Before you go and make that face you make when you're mad at me
So mad at me
Let me say it's not my place going through your voicemail
And your history

And if this were a TV show you know I'd have to go and plead insanity
'Cause the lyin' and spyin' and pryin' isn't really my personality
I'm an idiot for taking your phone

This is my fault, my bad

If I said a million sorrys
How about a billion sorrys?
Ooh
You shine just like the stars
And I'm not even a night light
'Cause what I did wasn't so bright
I'm really sorry

Girl
Girl
You know I was scared that this would end
That's why I checked your DMs
This has been so hard for me, keeping this secret from you and our friends
Ugh, but given the chance, I would definitely do it again
No, wait that's not right
I mean that I wouldn't do it again
No

This is my fault, my bad
If I said a million sorrys
How about a billion sorrys?
Ooh
Can't we just start again?
Once upon a time I'm sorry
Nothing else to rhyme with sorry
(I'm really sorry)

Ooh
Not so great at sayin' sorry
Hope you know I'm really sorry
Ooh

Overall Meaning

In Jeannie Lurie's song A Billion Sorrys, the singer is apologizing for going through the phone of their significant other. The singer acknowledges that it was not their place to go through their partner's voicemail and history, and if this scenario were a TV show, they would plead insanity for such behavior. The singer admits to being an idiot for their actions and takes full responsibility for them. They apologize repeatedly, saying that they would say a billion sorrys if it were possible.

The lyrics reveal that the singer was checking their partner's direct messages because they were afraid that their relationship would end. They express difficulty in keeping this secret from their partner and friends. The singer goes back and forth, contradicting themselves, saying that they would and would not do it again. Despite this, they recognize that their actions were wrong and apologize profusely.

Overall, the song explores themes such as trust, betrayal, and apology. It portrays the complicated nature of relationships and how people often struggle with making mistakes.

Line by Line Meaning

Before you go and make that face you make when you're mad at me
I apologize for looking at your voicemail and search history without permission, which has made you angry.

So mad at me
You are extremely angry with me for violating your privacy.

Let me say it's not my place going through your voicemail
Looking through your voicemail was not my responsibility and I shouldn't have done it.

And your history
I had no right to go through your search history either, and it was wrong of me to do so.

And if this were a TV show you know I'd have to go and plead insanity
If this was a fictional story, I would use the excuse of being mentally unstable to justify my actions, but in reality, I know what I did was wrong.

'Cause the lyin' and spyin' and pryin' isn't really my personality
I am not the type of person who lies, spies, or pries into someone else's personal life. I feel guilty for doing so, and it was out of character for me.

I'm an idiot for taking your phone
I admit that taking your phone was a terrible decision on my part, and I regret doing it.

This is my fault, my bad
I take full responsibility for my actions and realize that I am to blame.

If I said a million sorrys
I understand that saying 'sorry' once or even a million times cannot make up for what I have done, but I want to express how truly remorseful I am.

How about a billion sorrys?
I want to emphasize the depth of my remorse by exaggeration and say 'a billion sorrys.'

You shine just like the stars
I want to acknowledge how special and amazing you are, like stars in the sky.

And I'm not even a night light
I feel like I'm not even worth being called a 'night light' because of the darkness of my actions.

'Cause what I did wasn't so bright
The decision I made was a stupid and wrong one.

Girl
Addressing the person I hurt, whom I call 'girl.'

Girl
Reiterating my statement to her, calling her 'girl' again.

You know I was scared that this would end
I was afraid that our relationship would end and that's why I did what I did, but I realize now it was a foolish decision.

That's why I checked your DMs
I wanted to make sure that there was nothing that could harm our relationship.

This has been so hard for me, keeping this secret from you and our friends
I had a hard time keeping this event from our friends because they do not know what had happened between us.

Ugh, but given the chance, I would definitely do it again
I misspoke, I meant to say that I would NOT do it again.

No, wait that's not right
I realize that what I just said was wrong, and I want to correct myself.

I mean that I wouldn't do it again
I genuinely regret what I did and promise not to do anything like this again.

Can't we just start again?
I hope we can start afresh now and move past this mistake.

Once upon a time I'm sorry
I apologize once again for my mistake.

Nothing else to rhyme with sorry
I cannot find anything else to say except sorry, I hope that you can forgive me someday.

(I'm really sorry)
Once again, I want to emphasize how sorry I am about my actions.

just now