In 2019, Barrett joined the social media platform TikTok. Despite transitioning into music, Barrett has accumulated over 16 million followers on the platform as of July 2021.[3] Moreover, Barrett has garnered over 184 million likes on the platform and has had singles "Pain" and "La Di Die", featuring jxdn, used by over 89 and 75 thousand videos respectively.
Barrett began her music career in July 2020, when she released her piano-based ballad debut single "Pain". Barrett's debut single was released shortly after signing with Warner Records, the label reaching out and eventually signing her after discovering clips of her singing on TikTok.[4] Barrett continued her music career, intended to embody a "punk, dark rock kind of vibe", with the release of her dramatic second single and romantic-revenge anthem "If U Love Me" in October 2020.[5] Barrett shortly followed the release of her second single with a dark interpretation of Santa Baby, released in December 2020. In February 2021, Barrett released the dark anthem "La Di Die", which explores the downfalls of fame with fellow alt-pop artist Jxdn, produced by Travis Barker.[6][7][8] Barrett and collaborator Jxdn, along with Barker, performed the single live for the first time on the April 7, 2021 episode of Jimmy Kimmel Live! and performed the song again on The Ellen DeGeneres Show on April 12, 2021.
On June 25, 2021, Barrett released "Counting Crimes", a song said by Barrett to be "about moving on from something toxic with an empowering bad bitch energy. Admitting that you have made mistakes, but the other person has done worse than you and understanding who really is the bad guy in the situation."[9] Barrett confirmed on the Zach Sang Show in July 2021 that her debut EP is titled Pretty Poison. The EP is seven tracks and was released in Fall 2021.[2]
Singer-songwriter Nessa Barrett's Warner Records debut album, young forever, features edgy, gothic pop grounded in stories about heartache, mental health, and accountability. Writing and singing have always been the saving grace that helped Barrett feel less alone in the world and less alone with her thoughts as she battled demons from her past and mental health struggles, including bipolar personality disorder and an eating disorder.
With young forever, Barrett embraces her internal and external conflicts, takes bleak thoughts, and expresses them bravely. "I like the darkness in things," she says. "I talk about a lot of things my generation is struggling with on this album." From the moody single "tired of california," where Barrett muses on the lack of authenticity in the City of Angels, to the psychological thriller-themed "madhouse," which deliciously weaves synth with Barrett's manic melody, to the acoustic "lovebomb," which finds Barrett singing about her struggles with BPD, young forever, is a dynamic debut rooted in reflection and raw emotions.
Punctuated by her grit-glam marvel, Barrett's music has intrinsically always been about empowering people who feel isolated. "Growing up, I was very ashamed of my struggles, so the second I got a platform, I knew what I had to do with it because I didn't want anyone to feel the way I felt - alone." With young forever, Barrett has crafted something truly special.
i hope ur miserable until ur dead
Nessa Barrett Lyrics
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But I'm not your toy, you can break and leave there bleeding
The damage is done, moving on if I'm ready or not
But you drag me through mud, here I come now
I'm petty as fuck (I'm petty as fuck)
I hope you never fall in love again
I hope you'll be yourself and lose your friends
I hope they call you out for shit you said
I hope you're miserable until you're dead
I hope you're miserable
So fucking miserable
I hope you're miserable
I hope you're miserable until you're dead
Been keeping your shit to myself
If I said it out loud, you'd be burning in Hell
And I can make everybody hate you
Almost as much as you hate yourself
But I won't 'cause (I won't)
I know (I know)
One day it'll come around
But fuck you for now
I hope you never fall in love again
I hope you'll be yourself and lose your friends
I hope they call you out for shit you said (you said)
I hope you're miserable until you're dead
The damage is done, moving on if I'm ready or not
But you drag me through mud, here I come now
I'm petty as fuck (I'm petty as fuck)
I hope you never fall in love again
I hope you'll be yourself and lose your friends
I hope they call you out for shit you said (you said)
I hope you're miserable until you're dead
I hope you're haunted by all your regrets
I hope they fuck you up inside your head
You know I don't forgive, I don't forget
I hope you're miserable until you're dead
I hope you never fall in love again
I hope you'll be yourself and lose your friends
I hope they call you out for shit you said
I hope you're miserable until you're dead
In the song "i hope ur miserable until ur dead" by Nessa Barrett, she expresses her anger and resentment towards an ex-lover who hurt her deeply. The opening lines suggest that the ex is still trying to destroy her world, but she is determined not to let that happen. She acknowledges that the damage has been done, but she is eager to move forward despite the constant reminders from her ex. Nessa's attitude towards her ex is one of pettiness and vindictiveness, as she wishes for them to suffer just as she has.
The chorus is a repetition of the wishes Nessa has for her ex. She hopes they never fall in love again, lose their friends by being their true selves, and get called out for any problematic behavior they may exhibit. The bridge reveals that Nessa has been keeping things to herself, things that could potentially ruin her ex's reputation, but she ultimately decides not to. However, she does mention that she knows karma will eventually catch up with them.
Overall, the song showcases Nessa's raw emotions regarding a painful breakup. She doesn't hold back in expressing her anger and hopes for her ex's misery, but also acknowledges that she wants to move on and leave the past behind.
Line by Line Meaning
I still hear your voice, tryna rip my world to pieces
The singer is haunted by the memory of the person who hurt her.
But I'm not your toy, you can break and leave there bleeding
The singer asserts herself as someone who cannot be used and abused by the person who hurt her.
The damage is done, moving on if I'm ready or not
The singer acknowledges the pain caused by the person who hurt her.
But you drag me through mud, here I come now
The person who hurt the artist is preventing her from healing and moving forward.
I'm petty as fuck (I'm petty as fuck)
The artist admits to feeling vengeful and vindictive towards the person who hurt her.
I hope you never fall in love again
The singer wishes for the person who hurt her to suffer as she has.
I hope you'll be yourself and lose your friends
The singer wants the person who hurt her to experience social isolation and rejection.
I hope they call you out for shit you said
The artist hopes for the person who hurt her to be held accountable for their hurtful actions.
I hope you're miserable until you're dead
The artist wants the person who hurt her to suffer for the rest of their life.
Been keeping your shit to myself
The artist has been holding in the negative feelings towards the person who hurt her.
If I said it out loud, you'd be burning in Hell
The singer believes that the person who hurt her deserves to suffer greatly.
And I can make everybody hate you
The artist has the power to turn others against the person who hurt her.
Almost as much as you hate yourself
The singer implies that the person who hurt her has a low opinion of themselves.
But I won't 'cause (I won't)
The singer decides against seeking vengeance for the time being.
I know (I know)
The singer is aware that karma will eventually catch up to the person who hurt her.
One day it'll come around
The artist believes that the person who hurt her will eventually face consequences for their actions.
I hope you're haunted by all your regrets
The artist wants the person who hurt her to experience immense regret and guilt for what they've done.
I hope they fuck you up inside your head
The singer desires for the person who hurt her to suffer emotionally and mentally.
You know I don't forgive, I don't forget
The singer is stubborn and unwilling to let go of the hurt caused by the person who hurt her.
I hope you're miserable until you're dead
The artist repeats her desire for the person who hurt her to suffer for the rest of their life.
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
Written by: Evan Blair, Madison Yanofsky, Nessa Barrett, Samuel Mark Catalano, Tim Randolph
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