Painkiller
Ruel Lyrics
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When my brain gets bitter
You keep me close
You keep me close
I got front row seats for the park side livin'
Feel like the one but I'm one in a billion
Teenage cynical, and I don't really know
What's the point of living if my heart gets broken?
Driving on the road, waiting for head-on collision
Springtime funeral, I miss you but I'd rather be alone
To keep me from
Heartbreaks, headaches
The doctor says I'm diagnosed with
Shit days, mistakes
But I'll be fine (fine)
But I'll be fine
'Cause you're my painkiller
When my brain gets bitter
You keep me close
When I've been miserable
And it takes forever
To let my brain get better
You keep me close
You keep me close
Window seats as the plane starts leavin'
Miss those streets where my knees were bleedin'
Homesick veteran
I left my bed again
Oh, looking for
Heartbreaks, headaches
The doctor says I'm diagnosed with
Shit days, mistakes
But I'll be fine
But I'll be fine
'Cause you're my painkiller
When my brain gets bitter
You keep me close
When I've been miserable
And it takes forever
To let my brain get better
You keep me close
You keep me close
Please, never leave me 'cause I'm barely holdin' on
You give me a reason to keep on breathin'
'Cause you're my painkiller
When my brain gets bitter
You keep me close
When I've been miserable
And it takes forever
To let my brain get better
You keep me close, ooh-woah
You keep me close
I know you hear me (close)
Yeah (close)
Close
The song Painkiller by Ruel is a heartfelt confession of the singer's dependency on his lover as his emotional anchor. The chorus of the song reveals the title's significance as the singer asserts his lover's role as his painkiller, someone who helps him navigate the emotional turmoil that accompanies life. The lyrics reveal a sense of lostness experienced by the singer, as he feels like one in a billion, a teenager who is cynical and unsure about the purpose of life. He talks about the fear of heartbreak and the pointlessness of living a life where one's heart is continually being broken.
The singer also touches on themes of homesickness, the feeling of nostalgia associated with the past, and the hopelessness that accompanies the feeling that one is barely holding on. The lyrics are poignant and reveal Ruel's vulnerability as he begs his lover never to abandon him. The song's message is that love and the support of loved ones make life worth living, even amid its challenges.
Line by Line Meaning
You're my painkiller
You are the one who makes me feel better when I am in pain or emotional distress
When my brain gets bitter
When I am feeling negative emotions or experiencing mental anguish
You keep me close
You provide me with comfort and support, helping me to cope with my pain
I got front row seats for the park side livin'
I am privileged and fortunate, living in a comfortable and prosperous environment
Feel like the one but I'm one in a billion
Although I feel special, I am just one among many people in the world
Teenage cynical, and I don't really know
I am young and pessimistic, lacking knowledge and understanding of the world
What's the point of living if my heart gets broken?
I am questioning the purpose of life if I will only experience pain and heartbreak
Driving on the road, waiting for head-on collision
I feel like I am on a collision course with disaster
Springtime funeral, I miss you but I'd rather be alone
I am mourning a loss, but I prefer to deal with my grief by myself
To keep me from
In order to prevent me from experiencing
Heartbreaks, headaches
Emotional pain and physical discomfort
The doctor says I'm diagnosed with
The physician has told me that I have
Shit days, mistakes
Days that are filled with negativity and errors
But I'll be fine (fine)
I will recover and be okay
'Cause you're my painkiller
Because you are the one who helps me to feel better
Window seats as the plane starts leavin'
I am watching from a seat by the window as the plane takes off
Miss those streets where my knees were bleedin'
I am nostalgic for the past, when I was active and adventurous
Homesick veteran
I am experienced in feeling homesick, longing for the comfort and familiarity of home
I left my bed again
I am restless and cannot sleep or stay in one place
Please, never leave me 'cause I'm barely holdin' on
I am struggling and need your support and presence in my life
You give me a reason to keep on breathin'
You are my motivation for continuing to live and persevere
You keep me close, ooh-woah
You are always there for me, providing me with love and support
You keep me close
You are always by my side, helping me to manage my pain and struggles
I know you hear me (close)
I am aware that you are listening and understanding me
Yeah (close)
Yes, you are there for me
Close
You are close to me, in proximity and emotionally
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
Written by: Sarah Paige Aarons, Mark Landon, Ruel Vincent Van Dijk
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