Ghost
Ryan Caraveo Lyrics

My whole life I've been curled up, worried 'bout fitting in
I've spent my life feeling anxious and uncomfortable, always trying to conform and fit in with others.

Don't know what I am, I just know that I'm different
I can't really define who I am, but I know that I don't fit the mold that others expect me to fit.

Spazzed out, fidgeting
I'm always anxious and restless, never able to fully relax or be at ease.

Playing with the monsters
I'm drawn to darker, more negative thoughts and feelings, and often spend my time exploring those parts of myself.

Only open up around the creatures that I conjure
I only feel comfortable being my true self around those who share my darker thoughts and feelings.

Flashlights dangling underneath the stairs
I have hidden spots where I go to escape from the world and be alone with my thoughts.

If I ever went missin' they would always meet me there
Even if I disappear or go off the grid, there are still people who understand and accept me for who I am.

They would be the ones to love me on the nights I needed care
When I'm feeling vulnerable, these people are the ones who are there to support me and show me love.

Never brought em out in public cause I hate when people stare
I keep these parts of myself hidden from the public eye, because I'm afraid of being judged or misunderstood.

I'll be fine
Despite my struggles, I can handle things on my own and keep pushing forward.

Just losing track of time
Sometimes I get so caught up in my own thoughts and emotions that I lose sight of what's going on around me.

Just dancing in the city with these voices in my mind
I find solace and escape in my own inner world, even in the midst of a bustling city.

They the only ones who listen when I tell em what I feel
The only people who truly understand and accept my thoughts and feelings are those who share my darker inclinations.

No one ever understood, and they prolly never will
I don't expect others to ever truly comprehend what I'm going through, and that's okay.

Riding through the city, I'm just buzzin' alone
I often feel isolated and disconnected from others, even when surrounded by people.

Close my eyes while I drive cause I love the unknown
I crave new experiences and unknown territory, even if it means taking risks and facing my fears.

Heart beating so hard, feel it thud in my bones
I'm often consumed by intense emotions and feelings, which can manifest physically in my body.

Can't say I love her, but I wrote her dozens of poems
I struggle to express my emotions and often resort to creative outlets like writing to convey how I feel.

And I almost read em out loud hundreds of times
I often come close to revealing my innermost thoughts and feelings, but always end up holding back and keeping them to myself.

Closed mouth, what a waste of a wonderful mind
I realize that keeping my thoughts and feelings bottled up is holding me back from fully expressing my true self.

She gets scared when the rain and the thunder combine
The person I care about is afraid of things that are dark and uncertain, which makes it hard for us to connect.

And I'm from a gloomy place where the sun doesn't shine
I come from a dark and oppressive environment, which has shaped the way I see the world and interact with others.

It wouldn't work so, I admire from afar
Despite my feelings for this person, I know we wouldn't be a good match and instead appreciate them from a distance.

Lying on the rooftop, lining up the stars
I take comfort in the natural world and often find peace by gazing at the stars and contemplating the universe.

Hiding all my scars is oh-so exhausting
I'm tired of hiding my emotional wounds and constantly pretending to be okay when I'm not.

I just wanna get lost now
I long to escape from my problems and get lost in my own thoughts and feelings.

Watch me disappear just like a ghost
I feel like I'll always be misunderstood and alone, like a ghost who can't be seen or heard.