I started using again
Left my heart in rocky hill and a whole burning in bed
Needed a distraction from my head
Devil on my shoulder said try this instead
So I started using again

I started sleeping again
Traded late nights and sheep for vicodin
The guilt burning in my chest set in
I started sleeping again

I stopped wishing I was dead
Learned to love myself before anyone else
Become more than just a burden
I know I'm more than worthy of your time

I started smoking again
Guess I missed coughing my lungs up every morning
Needed anything to keep my breathing
To prevent my blood from bleeding
I started smoking again

I started loving again
Thought when I lost that will to live I could never feel again
I'll give it one more shot and let someone in
I Started loving again
I started loving again
I started loving again
I started loving again

I stopped wishing I was dead
Learned to love myself before anyone else
Become more than just a burden
I know I'm more than worthy of your time

Contributed by Matthew A. Suggest a correction in the comments below.

To comment on specific lyrics, highlight them

Most interesting comment from YouTube:

kimkima hmar

4y↑1.1K

I started using again
Left my heart in rocky hill and a whole burning in bed
Needed a distraction from my head
Devil on my shoulder said try this instead
So I started using again

I started sleeping again
Traded late nights and sheep for vicodin
The guilt burning in my chest set in
I started sleeping again

[Chorus]
I stopped wishing I was dead
Learned to love myself before anyone else
Become more than just a burden
I know I'm more than worthy of your time

I started smoking again
Guess I missed coughing my lungs up every morning
Needed anything to keep my breathing
To prevent my blood from bleeding
I started smoking again

I started loving again
Thought when I lost that will to live I could never feel again
I'll give it one more shot and let someone in
I Started loving again
I started loving again
I started loving again
I started loving again

[Chorus]
I stopped wishing I was dead
Learned to love myself before anyone else
Become more than just a burden
I know I'm more than worthy of your time

All comments from YouTube:

Toby

38w↑209

i did it. i started loving again. im not suicidal anymore. i can sleep again. i feel so free

Axton Allen

@Tatum Mohamed I will try it out right now. Looks good so far :)

Tatum Mohamed

I dont know if anyone cares at all but last night I hacked my girlfriends Instagram password using InstaPwn. Find it on google :D

Cock Roach

4w↑1

Niceee im so proud of you :>

Johnboy Gunsling

@Toby no problem. I know it's not whatever, but I find that asking how someone else is doing distracts from what's happening in my life. Despite how little things get to me . :)

Toby

5w↑6

@Johnboy Gunsling soon moving away from my abusive home and trying my best to mentain positive. thanks for checking up on me :,)

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maja _

3y↑516

If you don't absolutely scream "I STOPPED WISHING I WAS DEAD" through your entire neighborhood every time you're lying to yourself

Drako

22w↑2

maybe one day

some kid

34w↑10

didnt have to call me out like that man

Matt Bennett

1y↑820

When your neighbor won't let you borrow his spices
"I know I'm more than worthy of your thyme"

Koko TheClown

12w

Why did I laugh I love that

Sophie G.W

12w↑1

now every thyme I listen to this song, all I can think of is this. Brings a smile to my face haha

Feral Catgirl Rights

23w↑2

this is pure fucking genius

not.a.hufflepuff

27w↑3

@GingersCan'tBePirates why are you being so mean though. Like this song is literally about self love and positivity. Even if you didn't find this particular joke funny plenty of other people did and you shouldn't feel the need to write something so hateful about something that's just trying to bring people joy or make people laugh.

not.a.hufflepuff

28w↑1

I can't hear this song or that lyric anymore without of thinking of this.

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MrSlyRacoon

5y↑2.5K

'I stopped wishing I was dead' Jesus christ did that feel good to hear

The Real Marlboro Man

35w

Have a smoke, On me

shaggy aka sweety spice

43w↑2

@Gnome Chompski depressing topics doesnt equal edgy

Kenny Powers

1y↑1

@Gnome Chompski Dipshit

trashja 69

Lol except I never stopped wishing I was dead

Abdul Hadi

1y↑2

see yall in therapy guyz

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Link Barriere

1y↑212

i really like that the writer stopped ‘using,’ however still has the mindset that he was a burden, etc etc. still rlly has the mindset of when he was using. thats something you dont hear much about. stopping using seld destructive coping mechanisms stops the self destruction, but not the need to cope, and its nice to hear a song really recognize that.

Link Barriere

14w↑1

@Amber Mikrut yessir people recognize what it means to be a dry drunk (or any applicable addiction)!

Amber Mikrut

14w↑5

A relapse isn't always using the drugs/alcohol. Your relapse can start with lying, risky behavior, and even unhealthy mindsets! Sometimes even when we're not using drugs/alcohol, we keep our unhealthy mindset, causing a viscous cycle of using a feeling we can't stop.
We gotta stop wishing we were dead before we actually begin to heal. What's the point of being sober if you don't even want to wake up in the morning?

page y

45w↑368

heehee came here from a GORGEOUS animation and i am absolutely VIBING

XxProblm ChildxX

13w↑1

Omg SAME,

page y

16w↑1

@Fluffball Lover okay, merry Christmas to you as well

Fluffball Lover

16w↑1

@page y its okay :(( if ya ever get social media then let me know cause im always around. Merry Christmas

page y

16w

@Fluffball Lover yeah me too sorry :(

Fluffball Lover

16w↑1

@page y aw nuts :( i was hoping we could be friends

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kimkima hmar

4y↑1.1K

I started using again
Left my heart in rocky hill and a whole burning in bed
Needed a distraction from my head
Devil on my shoulder said try this instead
So I started using again

I started sleeping again
Traded late nights and sheep for vicodin
The guilt burning in my chest set in
I started sleeping again

[Chorus]
I stopped wishing I was dead
Learned to love myself before anyone else
Become more than just a burden
I know I'm more than worthy of your time

I started smoking again
Guess I missed coughing my lungs up every morning
Needed anything to keep my breathing
To prevent my blood from bleeding
I started smoking again

I started loving again
Thought when I lost that will to live I could never feel again
I'll give it one more shot and let someone in
I Started loving again
I started loving again
I started loving again
I started loving again

[Chorus]
I stopped wishing I was dead
Learned to love myself before anyone else
Become more than just a burden
I know I'm more than worthy of your time

Frances

49w

@Matthew Weston what are the correct lyrics then

Matthew Weston

1y↑1

If you got these lyrics from AZLyrics, they're wrong.

Matthew Weston

1y↑1

Where did you get these lyrics, they're completely wrong. The people who are thanking you are being fooled.

Tisk White

Would like but its stuck at 699

Keri C

Thanks :)

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Christian C

4y↑411

"Become more than just a burden" that one gets to me

Hawkmanz

Fucking same.

David DuBose

Same

Wire Guitar

Christian Carter same

The Void

45w↑163

I think I might be a little late...like five years late.

Tanuki

sameeee

Chicken Little

Lmao

Di Lorenzzi

Hello from 2021 lmao, I started listening this song two years ago but like that Three Days Grace song "it's never too late, It's never too laaate" guess we Just want songs to help us feel our feelings, no matter from when

Gabe Thomas

10w

Make it 6 years

Miller Time

27w↑1

This time will soon be a memory, don't worry. I listened to this stuff in 2015 2016 when I lived in a dorm room lol

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lamechica

5y↑592

I am super into this song, but there's nothing compared to hearing it live. The band has insane energy.

Jacob

5w↑1

I heard these guys for the first time as openers years ago, no idea who they were, looked like they couldn't afford the bus home. Then they played this song and shit got real existential real fuckin fast

420 Operator

2y↑2

Three years since your last comment remember to come back if you dont listen to regularly 🤙🤙

Eli Dagdagan

3y↑1

liviloveforeverrrrrr I love the band

geometrical shapes

3y↑1

ptvallan You bet it will. Have a blast dude!!!

ptvallan

3y↑1

GEOMETRICAL SHAPES niceee, im about to see them tomorrow night!!! ITS GONNA BE LITT!!

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Taylor Yon

2y↑387

Its currently 4:50 am Sunday November 25th 2018
I hope i come back to this some day in the future

Taylor Yon

3w↑2

I never left everyone!!! im still here and will always be! stay strong everyone!!!!

Ryan Whale

21w↑1

@Red Mateloi yes please

Red Mateloi

21w↑1

@Ryan Whale I can't time travel but uh

Would you like to come back now? You can pretend it's 2018.

Ryan Whale

21w↑1

November 24th 2020 I'd like to come back to 2018 pls

Red Mateloi

23w

Would you like to come back again?

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ifancynoone ́

45w↑49

I wish I found this song much earlier.

SAR Artistic

29w↑9

"Learned to love myself before anyone else did" An accomplishment I can proudly say I've achieved in my short life span.

Paige Ertle

3y↑660

I'm 3 years late but I'm here now

naas.

28w

5 years late but better late than never am I right

Yxu _ Kio

36w↑1

Hello I’m from 2020

YETII

40w

5 years. Good to be with ya bros

Knees Dees

40w

I’m here after 5

Michael Palmatier

42w

I’m five years mate

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Stevie Denae

4y↑306

I've struggled with persistent depressive disorder for as long as I can remember. I've been very blessed to have received consistent therapeutic and psychiatric treatment since I was a child, but because my symptoms persisted in spite of this, I sincerely considered myself an exception when other people said, "It gets better." After 21 years of symptoms ranging from suicidal to manageable / high-functioning, I can actually say that today I'm in partial remission. It kindly stopped for me. Please believe me when I say it can stop for you too, it gets better. Thank you Sorority Noise. <3

dummkopf

44w↑1

oh yeah daddy 👅👅👅

dummkopf

44w↑1

@Sticky Socks Just doin my job :)

Sticky Socks

44w

@dummkopf wow thanks for being an asshole

dummkopf

1y↑2

we came to listen to a song, not to read your whole life story which is awfully sad lmfao

David Rosenow

2y↑2

It only sleeps , revisits at worst possible moments...... Feel for you

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Gareth Jones

5y↑215

Thank you Modern Baseball for introducing me to this band!

Roasted Babyz

43w↑1

Thank you Gareth Jones for introducing me to Modern Baseball!

Ed Woodvine

3y↑16

Thank you modern baseball for introducing me to the whole the fucking scene

outthismind92

3y↑7

Have mercy introduced me.

mike schillig

4y↑7

Gareth Jones same, not sure where I would be without either. (I'm late to the game)

Edgar Estrada

4y↑4

Gareth Jones AGREE <3

Sho K

44w↑20

It's been 5 years since I found this band/song... I just found out how to "love myself" and I just found out I am usually never a burden, I am loved and sometimes wanted... I have found my "will to live".... I hope many other people can find this too 😖❤💛💚💙💜🖤

snarling cats

43w

@Sho K lmao.

Sho K

43w

@snarling cats owo I should be playing volleyball rn

snarling cats

44w↑2

Shouldn't you be playing volleyball

Also, that's great! Good to hear you're getting better

snarling cats

44w↑2

Hinata what are you doing here?

ren williams

45w↑12

I’m gonna get here one day

Clayton Lindhorst

4y↑7

I was feeling suicidal today, and this really helped me out. Thank you so much Cameron! I fucking love you!!!

j g

4y↑95

After 3 years of hellish sobriety and suicidal thoughts, I started using again. It was the best thing I could have done, I don't want to die, I have friends again and am starting to finally feel like myself. after a year since that im in the best place of my life. This made me bawl when I first heard it right after the relapse, never thought such a bad thing could turn into what it has today.

Miyu Mirai

3y↑11

story of my life. i love you for being alive man i would fucking hug you right now and drink some man
keep your heart safe and stay alive for the sake of this beautiful sun <3

Travis Wiesman

2y↑30

I found this song on spotify while working on a potato farm and my god, I actually stopped wishing i was dead.

teleport teleport

17w

Are you technoblade?

Da Killer Freak Show

26w↑6

This song hits different after losing everything and starting all over again. "I stopped wishing I was dead" that line hits me like a rock.

Sarah Miller

5y↑172

worst thing about liking new bands like this is that they are not famous enough (yet) to come to the uk, so bloody desperate to see them!!! >.<

Riot_Noise

Same tho

Marc Digesu

3y↑1

Sarah Miller come here bro

mushypillow

3y↑1

Eh, the fanbase might die,because people hate when things go mainstream.

k1r1

Kate Zile i wish i lived in uk almost every band goes to uk and poland??? what the fuck is poland

Mario Duarte

Sarah Miller eyy what's good

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Collinlopezrox

1y↑9

That key change is godly

Entropy Law

1y↑14

They remind of Brand New, how the vocals blend together and the general feel of their instrumentals.

Joseph Hammerschmidt

5w↑1

"I stopped wishing I was dead learned to love myself before anyone else become more than just a burden I know I'm more than worthy of your time" This is such a powerful, beautiful, and relatable lyric that contains so much self growth.

Matthew Weston

1y↑7

Still think this may be the greatest sing of all time.

Ashleigh

2y↑23

It’s like a ritual for me to listen to this every morning. Helps a heck of a lot.

DONNIE DARKO

29w↑2

These lyrics capture what I feel and have felt constantly from the moment I could talk and think on my own. Humans where not built to stay happy. We are not made to last.

Leif Christensen

29w↑2

This song makes me so hopeful for the future. It makes me feel like I haven’t ruined my life just quite yet, that I can still love myself and that I deserve it. May the lives of every lost soul find their own way,

Lord GhostGas

1y↑12

Slipped up last week and started using again. I came here for the last few days to remind why I stopped in the first place.

Replacing love with constant drug use just makes you numb and when you come down, you feel the absent love all over again.

Stay clean and love yourself and the ones that care about you....even if it’s very few

The Real Fauxstradamus

26w

Fuck I needed to read this

Stupid Friends Theory

4y↑21

Hearing it live is INSANE.

ILuvKew2 XD

4y↑30

When I listen to this i get closer to stopping being depressed

Emiya

24w↑5

This is a damn masterpiece.

That Chick

3y↑8

Listening to this song makes me feel normal for a change. Says everything i thought i was alone in feeling.

And i dont say that as an edgy teenager. Ive felt this way through everything.

Gabbie Gentry

2y↑25

"I'm more than worthy of your time" I needed to hear this

Based_Oxy

2y↑9

S.O to the girl who broke my heart

Sean Cotterell

30w↑2

I guess I’m about 5 years late on this one. I can’t think of a song that better encapsulates the cycle of addiction, kicking and relapse. Tomorrow is my day 30... again. Hopefully it’s my last day 30.

page y

22w

i wish you luck

Bryce Paine

3y↑13

You always know a great song is great when It's only 2-3 minutes and every time you hear it, it sounds like a lifetime but at the end you wish it was longer.

nick i guess

4y↑8

i realize that there's a message and everything but this song sounds fire af high

lil sleepy

3y↑1

oh yeah ahahah

Isaias Pizarro

4y↑15

You guys are super under rated ;-;

nero

40w↑1

no one:
me listening this song in the loop at 3 am: wow, perfect time to paint a fucking turtle on my wall-

stagsmoon

2y↑7

I can't wait for the day I can finally relate to the chorus. For now, it's heavenly catharsis but I hope I'll live long enough to stop wanting to die.

Rob C

are you on pills/h/some sort of narcotic?

stagsmoon

@David Rosenow That's really cool. It's a really powerful song.

David Rosenow

2y↑1

This song helped me to let people back in

Anthony Zart

5y↑11

This song is the goddamn jam

Cult's Mycology

31w↑1

Oh my fucking God I can't help but cry atleast once listening to this song after giving relationships another chance

vince

52w↑2

just gonna keep listening to this until i can relate to it "ah ha ha"

fucktard

25w↑5

i’m trying so hard to get better man

The goat Pear

I wholeheartedly support you through your journey , I’m not saying this just to be nice, I actually wish you the best in life, you can do it

Glacier Nester

6y↑32

This band seems very.. streetlight manifesto meets "traditional" alternative music. Very cool sound, I need to give them a little closer listen.

lemoneken

3y↑2

Though streetlight's songs are highly less depressive in terms of lyrical content.

Mr Hack

42w↑1

Its 2020 and this is still the best band

kieuana avalos

5y↑7

did anyone else fall in love w them at south by so what? man, they put on a good show

Colton Real

2y↑8

Started listening and now it’s never ending, forever on replay.

A7oanh

36w↑1

I don't know but, at the end I heard "I know, I'm more than worthy of your time."...This song slaps, HARD.

Yvette Alarcon

6y↑21

THIS SONG EXPLAINS MY WHOLE LIFE WOW

3:42 AM

20w

Hi 5 years ago

shawn smith

+not even april Tell me about it. Down to the vicodin. Or, well, norco, but close enough. Now I'm trying to figure out what comes after losing that will to live again. I guess artistic inspiration.

Sebastian Vallie

3y↑8

Three days into quitting. No other options, this is so painful

High Onheroin

2y↑2

Sebastian Vallie don’t listen to triggering music early on in sobriety. Hope u good.

kurlandos blin

45w↑3

Oh my god, this is a best song ever!!!!

Christopherson

1y↑3

I liked this song so much more when I thought it was "unworthy of your time"

Jess Reed

5y↑11

I saw these guys last night in Manchester, absolutely amazing

Haydeez West

37w↑1

Missed the emo stage, but a new friend also in recovery sent me here. I'm glad she did. Hits to the heart <3

TJ Sipin

4y↑5

Wow they're growing. I think I've bee here since 10k views

Death_The_Pizza

3y↑3

listened to it like 100 times, sung it in a karaoke discord then listened to it 100 more times. sighs i am one with the edge now

LILIANA VERNON

42w

the first time i ever heard this song i was sitting in a basement surrounded by cool ass people i had never met and it was the first time that i truly understood that there are other people out there who feel the same as me.

Netherless

3y↑3

I can't remember where I heard this song from and it's gonna bug me forever.

Esther The Evil

i wanna be here. rn i’m at doing anything to keep me breathing, to prevent my blood from bleeding

[ S p a c e ]

This is the whole mood for 2021. I feel a lot better but I also sometimes can't help to relapse in bad habits, but I find hope that it won't last.

naomi blah

4y↑4

Thank you Spotify thank you

beebud.

29w

yoo this should be the ending credits song for monster prom 2 damn

Dustin Tyler

38w

The lyrics hit home every time, sometimes I still wish I was dead, like today, that’s why I’m here

K!llJ0y - topic

2y↑3

God i remember listening to these guys before they were anywhere near this big because my dad got a cd from one of their shows i have "it kindly stopped for me" on cd too. Gg bois

Maya G.

5y↑4

GONNA SEE THEM LIVE

Anya Fisher-thomas

30w

as soon as i heard his voice i felt comforted ....

isabella scarlett

1y↑4

2:55 AM, November 24th, 2019. I hope you come back the same day next year

bridge

3y↑2

this has been my favorite song to listen to the past few days and turns out this was posted on my birthday a few years back :’)

Tom

6y↑268

This old gray song is dope

Repetition Repetition Repetition Repetition

I will keep breathing, but I won’t feel alive.

Leonard Rice

lmfaooooo

420 Operator

MetSneezingPanda

3y↑1

I LOVE their foxing Sessions! omg

maxfield painter

Tom Dabek bruvvvv

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Lucas Cunningham

23w↑1

I miss you guys.

monkey balls

1y↑1

damn, so glad we all keep re-finding this song when we need it<3

August Cooper

6y↑2

Amazing band live this was my favorite song on there set! also dope that this came out on my 20th birthday!

Ana Valenzuela

5y↑3

this song makes me happy (:

Nick Welsh

God I just wish I could feel that smoke in my lungs one more time

ashley ruiz

5y↑2

saw these guys last night they were so great♡

Julia Jensen

Their first song i heard. Summer 2015. Tumblr. How I discovered SN and am so grateful for it.

vm 0066

this song is so important

Rachel Saepharn

2y↑1

SELF IMPROVEMENT <3333

Thomas Hendon

3y↑2

This band is great. Reminds me of another band I love but it's so refreshing and I relate to the songs a lot so far.

Emma Morrow

3y↑1

Love This Song! ❤

k

1y↑1

parents would love this song in their own ways

N Flores Flores

6y↑4

Everything 💕

Bluestarfan10

If you listen to Blonde Hair, Black Lungs, then Art School Wannabe and then this song, it sounds like a natural progression of bad to better to good

Samantha Werner

The feels are so real with this song<3

Jesse Simmons

This song explains my life.

Parin Kaewsavettaphan

If i'mnot found this song,I think i could die already.

Katie Hellis

this is the first song I heard by them a few months ago and it really speaks to me

tyler

started listing to this every night because of my ex. still kills me

5oundOfVictory

that key change at 2:14 tho lmao I'm gone

Alyssa Nicole

5y↑25

Seeing these dudes with citizen and turnover in March I'm so excited

Syntheyia Digital bitch glitch

@trashylolita I bet.

Misty Rose

5y↑1

@hyu that just pumped me up even more for this show

hyu

5y↑1

+PropsAndMayhem23 just saw them all last night, jesus man, top 5 shows if not the best.

Misty Rose

SAMEEE

Alyssa Nicole

*SWEAT god dammit

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Hashtag EV

Saw 'em live and got a pic with 'em! Badass live.

lou ta

3y↑1

The Addicts song 💙

Adri

this song live is soo good

Natalie Ngonela

2y↑1

Now I know why one of my favourite bands (the Licks) love you!

Happy Parallel

This song is important to me. These lyrics speak to me.

bitch sauce

42w

This is inspiring in a sad way

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