A Faint Illusion
Tides of Man Lyrics

I know you know, despite your reservations,
Despite any hesitations or doubts you may have, you are aware that I have chosen you over all else.

Out of everything in this world, I choose you,
Out of all the people and things in this world, I have made the decision to choose you above all else.

It goes to show, despite our conversations,
Despite any discussions we have had about our situation, this situation proves something different.

Back when you were just a little girl, we had no clue,
When we initially started this relationship, we were unaware of what we were getting into.

Just what we were getting ourselves into,
We were not fully aware of the implications and consequences of our actions.

We were merely trying something new.
We were experimenting with something different and stepping outside of our comfort zones.

Dissolve myself in you,
I want to completely immerse myself in you and become one with you.

'Cause I'm not gonna,
I am expressing my determination not to give up on you.

Not gonna give you up,
I will not abandon you.

Cancel myself to feel you,
I am willing to lose myself in you and sacrifice my own identity to be with you.

When we used to lay ourselves out,
We used to expose ourselves and be vulnerable in front of others.

On the front lawn of their ivory towers,
We were doing this in front of people in positions of power and privilege.

We would show our bodies to world,
We were displaying our true selves and not hiding anything from others.

Then we would go home,
After putting ourselves out there, we would retreat to a private space.

And work on a castle of our own.
We would focus on building and nurturing our own intimate relationship together.

You were impatient, I was a fallback,
You were hasty and I was a second choice or a backup plan.

A dirty mistake, you never called back,
You regretted our actions and did not pursue a relationship with me.

You were salvation, I never told you.
You were a source of hope or redemption for me, but I never expressed this to you.

I always had the notion,
I had an underlying feeling or idea that I could not shake.

I would fall in love with you,
I knew that I was going to develop romantic feelings for you.

You were a call girl, I was a gentleman,
You were portraying a certain role and I was trying to act like a respectable man.

A faint illusion of your simple plan,
Our relationship was not what either of us expected it to be and was not as simple as it appeared.

I was salvation, you never told me,
I was a source of hope or redemption for you, but you never disclosed this to me.

That you always had the notion,
You had a persistent thought or feeling that you could not shake.

That you knew what we would be.
You had an idea of what our relationship was destined to become.