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I Fade Away
Tulips Ballad Lyrics


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When I'm alone I find I fade away
In a thought I finally found
I figured out I'm still the same
Got lost in doubt
My mind's playing games
Do it all over again
I can't do it all again
When I'm alone I find I fade away
In a thought I finally found
I figured out I'm still the same



Got lost in doubt
My mind's playing games
Do it all over again
I can't do it all again
I always try
To say goodbye
But I can't
Seem to shake this
When I'm alone I find I fade away
Got lost in doubt
I'm playing games
When I'm alone I find I fade away
Got lost in doubt
When I'm alone I find I fade away
In a thought I finally found
I figured out I'm still the same
Got lost in doubt
My mind's playing games
Do it all over again
I can't do it all again
When I'm alone I find I fade away
In a thought I finally found
I figured out I'm still the same
Got lost in doubt
My mind's playing games
Do it all over again
I can't do it all again
Deep dive in the darkness
Do demons ever do to sleep
I feel them keeping me awake
See them sip my soul with tea
Sweet sugar-filled palm trees
Memories I can't keep
Brittle bones in my back crack and break
As a black smoke start to creep
And I don't really mind when the time slips away
Finna find myself in the mirror somehow someday
Holding out for change
Is about as pointless of a game that I could play
When I'm alone I find I fade away
In a thought I finally found
I figured out I'm still the same
Got lost in doubt
My mind's playing games
Do it all over again
I can't do it all again
When I'm alone I find I fade away
In a thought I finally found
I figured out I'm still the same
Got lost in doubt
My mind's playing games
Do it all over again
I can't do it all again

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to Tulips Ballad's song "I Fade Away" describe the feeling of losing oneself and succumbing to doubts and self-criticism. The singer talks about how, when they are alone, they often find themselves fading away into thoughts and doubts, and how they can't seem to shake this feeling. They repeat the lines "When I'm alone I find I fade away / In a thought I finally found / I figured out I'm still the same / Got lost in doubt / My mind's playing games / Do it all over again / I can't do it all again," emphasizing the frustration of feeling stuck in a cycle of negativity.


The second verse talks about a "deep dive in the darkness" and the demons that keep the singer up at night. They mention brittle bones and black smoke creeping in, further emphasizing the feeling of being trapped and overwhelmed by their own thoughts and emotions. However, the final lines provide a glimmer of hope, as the singer looks towards the future and hopes to "find [themself] in the mirror somehow someday." It is a poignant reflection on the struggles of owning one's identity and overcoming self-doubt.


Line by Line Meaning

When I'm alone I find I fade away
Being alone makes me feel like I disappear


In a thought I finally found
I finally found clarity in a thought


I figured out I'm still the same
I realized that I am still the same despite my struggles


Got lost in doubt
I became confused and uncertain


My mind's playing games
My mind is deceiving me with negative thoughts


Do it all over again
I am stuck in a cycle of repeating my mistakes


I can't do it all again
I feel unable to repeat my past mistakes


I always try
I frequently attempt


To say goodbye
To bid farewell to my struggles


But I can't
But I am unable to let go


Seem to shake this
I cannot seem to overcome my struggles


Deep dive in the darkness
I am delving into my innermost struggles


Do demons ever do to sleep
Do my struggles ever end or subside?


I feel them keeping me awake
My struggles keep me up at night


See them sip my soul with tea
I feel my struggles slowly draining my energy


Sweet sugar-filled palm trees
Memories that once brought me joy


Memories I can't keep
Memories that I cannot hold onto or preserve


Brittle bones in my back crack and break
The weight of my struggles is physically painful and exhausting


As a black smoke starts to creep
My struggles are creeping up on me like a dark cloud


And I don't really mind when the time slips away
I do not value or cherish time passing by


Finna find myself in the mirror somehow someday
I hope to find my true self in the future despite my struggles


Holding out for change
I am hoping for a positive change


Is about as pointless of a game that I could play
I feel like hoping for change is almost futile




Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid
Written by: Emily DesJardins, Matthias Embry, Nathan Zak

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