Twiztid's debut album, Mostasteless, was originally released independently by Psychopathic in 1997, but was pulled, then re-released a year later on Twiztid's new label; Island with a somewhat different track listing as a result of uncleared samples in a few songs in the original release.
On October 31, 2000, Twiztid released their second studio album, Freek Show. The album peaked at #51 on the Billboard 200. In 2002, Twiztid released the extended play Mirror Mirror. Mirror Mirror peaked at #5 on the Top Independent Albums chart, and #103 on the Billboard 200.
In 2003, Twiztid released its third studio album, The Green Book. The Green Book peaked at #2 on the Top Independent Charts and #52 on the Billboard 200.
On June 28, 2005, Twiztid released its fourth studio album, Man's Myth, Vol. 1 the first half of a double album concluding with Mutant, Vol. 2 , released the following month. Man's Myth focuses on the angst of growing up in a lying world, while Mutant deals with the outcome of this upbringing. Man's Myth peaked at #4 on the Top Independent Albums chart, #62 on the Top Internet Albums chart and the Billboard 200. Mutant peaked at #11 on the Top Independent Albums chart, #80 on the Billboard 200, and #215 on the Top Internet Albums chart.
On July 4, 2007, Twiztid released its sixth studio album, Independents Day. The album featured guest appearances from rappers signed to independent record labels, such as The Dayton Family, Tha Dogg Pound, Hed PE frontman Jahred Shane, Tech N9ne and Krizz Kaliko. It also notably features appearances by D12 members Proof and Bizarre. Proof's colaboration with Twiztid entitled, "How I Live" was Proof's last song before his death in April 2007. The album peaked at #4 on the Top Independent Albums chart, #9 on the Top Rap Albums chart and #57 on the Billboard 200.
On March 17, 2009, Twiztid released its seventh studio album, W.I.C.K.E.D (Wish I Could Kill Every Day). W.I.C.K.E.D is Twiztid's currently highest charting album, peaking at #11 on the Billboard 200, #4 on the Top Rap Albums chart, and #1 on the Top Independent Albums chart.
Twiztid's ninth studio album, "Heartbroken & Homicidal," was released on September 21, 2010.
On October 22nd, 2012 Twiztid released their tenth studio album Abominationz. It featured The Insane Clown Posse, and Royce Da 5'9.
On December 12th, 2012 the group announced via Twitter and Facebook that they have parted ways with Psychopathic Records.
Afraid of Me
Twiztid Lyrics
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I'm cold, forgiven all because of my beliefs
I'm no, body that you ever want to be
Cause I know that the world is afraid of me
I'm so, hidden and you're never gonna see
I'm cold, forgiven all because of my beliefs
I'm no, body that you ever want to be
Cause I know that the world is afraid of me
Now you can try to sedate me, assassinate or just hate me
But there's nothing that you can do to me lately
Now I'm greatly accepted in the mind so I'm confused and intertwined
From being rejected so many times, I want to leave it all behind
So kind of you to pick up the album and give it a try for once
And run and tell your homies that these motherfuckers will die for us
So many questions, fingers pointing for answers
Suggesting that I'm the cancer that lingers inside the pasture
With green grass up to my neck, and situations that's too fast
To think about and most people can't dream about
A hundred million miles and every single second
And every time you hear this record I want you to feel me on every sentence
Reminisce from descendants of past treasures
We'll embark on a journey that'll stay alive forever
Plus I would stand over on my side of the fence
Regardless of the circumstances or the consequences
I'm so, hidden and you're never gonna see
I'm cold, forgiven all because of my beliefs
I'm no, body that you ever want to be
Cause I know that the world is afraid of me
I'm so, hidden and you're never gonna see
I'm cold, forgiven all because of my beliefs
I'm no, body that you ever want to be
Cause I know that the world is afraid of me
I am my own worst enemy
I'm not the smartest motherfucker and shit, I don't pretend to be
And why I am the way I am is not a mystery
My mind's not in proper working order or in therapy
The brain's confused and mentally abused
Life's been hanging on a string so what the fuck I got to lose?
And what the fuck I got to prove to you?
If you don't know me by now, you'll never know me
You can put that on my real homies
I got problems and they stack like bills
And I relate to the broken, bleeding heart love killed
And I awaited in the shadows, awake in the dark
Hoping to talk to the passed on, I'm falling apart
I'm such a mess and decisive, I'm fading away
I'm out of touch with society and living today
Never relying on my sanity, I through it away
To become the maniac that's got your attention today
I'm so, hidden and you're never gonna see
I'm cold, forgiven all because of my beliefs
I'm no, body that you ever want to be
Cause I know that the world is afraid of me
I'm so, hidden and you're never gonna see
I'm cold, forgiven all because of my beliefs
I'm no, body that you ever want to be
Cause I know that the world is afraid of me
Can you keep a secret?
Well I'm afraid world because they want me to die
can you believe it? But I'm still alive
And been floating since '95
With my chin held high but I'm so dead inside
Let the problems just roll and put them back into a pile
Because it's just a bunch of shit that I can't deal with right now
And I'm tired of always guessing and messing it up again
And the next day it's even deeper and I'm steady sinking in
I took a look at myself and came to grips with what I found
It was a vision of a child, disturbed and broke down
No soul, no heart because I have it away
No time for feeling sorry, I'll grieve another day
And all those tears are stored in storm clouds
That hover above me and cover the ugly
Continued to haunt me when I was feeling low
That's the same reason I hold on and never let go
I'm so, hidden and you're never gonna see
I'm cold, forgiven all because of my beliefs
I'm no, body that you ever want to be
Cause I know that the world is afraid of me
I'm so, hidden and you're never gonna see
I'm cold, forgiven all because of my beliefs
I'm no, body that you ever want to be
Cause I know that the world is afraid of me
I'm so, hidden and you're never gonna see
I'm cold, forgiven all because of my beliefs
I'm no, body that you ever want to be
Cause I know that the world is afraid of me
I'm so, hidden and you're never gonna see
I'm cold, forgiven all because of my beliefs
I'm no, body that you ever want to be
Cause I know that the world is afraid of me
The song Afraid of Me by Twiztid explores themes of rejection, isolation, and self-destruction. The opening lines suggest that the persona of the song feels hidden and cold, and is not easily understood by others. The persona's beliefs give him a sense of forgiveness, but also marginalize him from the rest of the world. He is not the kind of person that most people would want to be. He knows that the world is afraid of him, perhaps because of his unconventional beliefs or actions.
The second stanza suggests that the persona faces constant challenges from others. People try to sedate or hate him, but he remains strong and accepted in his own mind. He has been rejected so many times that he wants to leave everything behind. The persona's life is surrounded by questions and finger-pointing, as people try to find answers to his behavior. However, he remains steadfast on his own side of the fence, standing up for himself regardless of the circumstances.
The chorus repeats throughout the song, emphasizing the persona's feelings of being hidden, rejected, and feared. Ultimately, the persona feels lost and broken, with mental health issues that he cannot overcome. He is out of touch with society and fading away. The song ends with the persona acknowledging that he is afraid of the world, because it wants him to die. However, he remains alive and continues to deal with his problems one day at a time.
Overall, Afraid of Me is a powerful and emotional song that explores the psychological struggles of rejection and isolation. The persona's sense of forgiveness and self-discovery adds depth to the lyrics, making it a thought-provoking piece of music.
Line by Line Meaning
I'm so, hidden and you're never gonna see
I'm elusive and will not reveal myself to you
I'm cold, forgiven all because of my beliefs
I display a lack of emotion and my beliefs excuse any wrongdoing
I'm no, body that you ever want to be
I'm not the kind of person you aspire to be like
Cause I know that the world is afraid of me
I'm aware that the world is intimidated by me
Now you can try to sedate me, assassinate or just hate me
You can attempt to subdue me, take me out, or simply despise me
But there's nothing that you can do to me lately
Nothing you do can harm me presently
Now I'm greatly accepted in the mind so I'm confused and intertwined
I'm now highly regarded in society so I feel conflicted and tangled
From being rejected so many times, I want to leave it all behind
Due to constant rejection, I wish to abandon it all
So kind of you to pick up the album and give it a try for once
Thank you for giving my music a chance
And run and tell your homies that these motherfuckers will die for us
Spread the word that we are going to protect each other at all costs
So many questions, fingers pointing for answers
There are many inquiries and accusations being thrown around
Suggesting that I'm the cancer that lingers inside the pasture
You're accusing me of being a destructive force infecting those around me
With green grass up to my neck, and situations that's too fast
I'm stuck in a situation that's moving too quickly and overwhelming me
To think about and most people can't dream about
It's too complex to comprehend and beyond most people's imagination
A hundred million miles and every single second
A never-ending span of time and distance
And every time you hear this record I want you to feel me on every sentence
I want my emotions to be felt in every word of the song
Reminisce from descendants of past treasures
Reflect on the legacy left behind by our ancestors
We'll embark on a journey that'll stay alive forever
We'll begin a journey that will always be remembered
Plus I would stand over on my side of the fence
I'll remain on my own side of the issue
Regardless of the circumstances or the consequences
No matter what happens, I'll go forward without hesitating
I am my own worst enemy
I am the biggest obstacle standing in my own way
I'm not the smartest motherfucker and shit, I don't pretend to be
I'm not the brightest person and I don't claim to be
And why I am the way I am is not a mystery
There's a reason why I'm the way that I am
My mind's not in proper working order or in therapy
My mind is not functioning properly and I am not receiving treatment
The brain's confused and mentally abused
My brain is conflicted and has undergone mental torment
Life's been hanging on a string so what the fuck I got to lose?
Life is unpredictable and I have nothing to lose
And what the fuck I got to prove to you?
I have nothing to prove to you
If you don't know me by now, you'll never know me
If you don't understand me at this point, you never will
You can put that on my real homies
My closest friends will corroborate this
I got problems and they stack like bills
I have numerous problems that continue to accumulate
And I relate to the broken, bleeding heart love killed
I identify with those who've had their hearts irreparably damaged by love
And I awaited in the shadows, awake in the dark
I silently wait in the darkness
Hoping to talk to the passed on, I'm falling apart
Desperately wanting to communicate with the dead as I deteriorate emotionally
I'm such a mess and decisive, I'm fading away
I am a chaotic and unstable person who's slowly disintegrating
I'm out of touch with society and living today
I'm disconnected from contemporary society
Never relying on my sanity, I threw it away
I never depended on my mental well-being and willingly discarded it
To become the maniac that's got your attention today
I've become the psychopath who's currently gained your focus
Can you keep a secret?
Can you be trusted with confidential information?
Well I'm afraid world because they want me to die
I'm frightened because there are people who wish for my death
Can you believe it? But I'm still alive
Despite these threats, I'm still breathing
And been floating since '95
I've been surviving since 1995
With my chin held high but I'm so dead inside
I carry myself with pride, but internally I feel nothing
Let the problems just roll and put them back into a pile
I choose to ignore my issues and pile them up again
Because it's just a bunch of shit that I can't deal with right now
It's too much, and I can't handle it at the moment
And I'm tired of always guessing and messing it up again
I'm exhausted from making incorrect decisions and fumbling repeatedly
And the next day it's even deeper and I'm steady sinking in
Each day it seems to get worse and my troubles weigh on me more and more
I took a look at myself and came to grips with what I found
I examined myself and confronted the truth of who I am
It was a vision of a child, disturbed and broke down
I saw a damaged and shattered child within myself
No soul, no heart because I have it away
I'm devoid of soul and heart due to giving it away willingly
No time for feeling sorry, I'll grieve another day
I don't have the time to pity myself; I'll mourn later
And all those tears are stored in storm clouds
My tears are held within clouds of turmoil
That hover above me and cover the ugly
These clouds linger over me, hiding the unpleasant realities of my life
Continued to haunt me when I was feeling low
These storms always seem to plague me during my weakest moments
That's the same reason I hold on and never let go
It's the reason I keep hanging on, unwilling to let go
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