Can not sleep, can not think
Demons eating away at me
High on xannax, im a fiend
I cant reach the in between

Squint your eyes, watch the beam
Shut the lights out so you see
You're not what your meant to be
You just take your wants from me

And it hurts so bad
When you take from me
And it hurts so bad
When you can not see
And it hurts so bad
When i watch you bleed

But im just a bad as you
When im alone too
I wana die inside
I convince myself im fine
But now that i can see
Its just my codependency

Can not sleep, can not think
Demons eating away at me
High on xannax, im a fiend
I cant reach the in between

Squint your eyes, watch the beam
Shut the lights out so you see
You're not what your meant to be
You just take your wants from me

Screaming that you want to die
While you throw my stuff outside
Clinging to you lifeless skin
Pleading to just let me in

Now im passed out on the floor
Fled the country now im poor
High in my spare time
Convince me that im fine

Please just speak to me
Please just say you need me
Please just speak to me
Please just say you love me

Tell me that youll be alright
So i wont have to deny
That its all its all in me
That its my codependency

Can not sleep, can not think
Demons eating away at me
High on xannax, im a fiend
I cant reach the in between

Squint your eyes, watch the beam
Shut the lights out so you see
You're not what your meant to be
You just take your wants from me

Overall Meaning

The lyrics in Unaloon's song "Codependency" delve into the complexities of a toxic relationship. The singer is struggling with their own demons, unable to sleep or think clearly, turning to drugs like Xanax to numb their pain. Yet, they also recognize that their partner is not who they're meant to be, that they are taking advantage of the singer's wants and needs. The hurt is tangible, as expressed by the repetition of the phrase "And it hurts so bad" throughout the song.

However, the singer also acknowledges that they are just as much a part of the problem. They, too, feel alone and want to die inside, convincing themselves that they're fine. This unhealthy cycle of codependency continues, as the singer is unable to break free and instead pleads with their partner to speak to them, say they need them or love them, to reassure them that everything will be alright. Yet, they also know that the problems are within themselves: "That its all in me/That its my codependency."

Overall, "Codependency" is a raw and honest portrayal of the struggles that come with being in a toxic relationship. The song highlights the importance of recognizing one's own shortcomings and realizing that sometimes the only way to break the cycle is to take a step back and focus on healing oneself.

Line by Line Meaning

Can not sleep, can not think
I am unable to rest or focus

Demons eating away at me
My personal demons are consuming me

High on xannax, im a fiend
I am addicted to Xanax

I cant reach the in between
I am unable to find a balance in my thoughts and feelings

Squint your eyes, watch the beam
Narrow your focus and you'll see the truth

Shut the lights out so you see
Remove distractions and see things clearly

You're not what your meant to be
You are living a life that doesn't align with your true purpose

You just take your wants from me
You only think about your own desires and take from me

And it hurts so bad When you take from me
It's painful when you take from me

And it hurts so bad When you can not see
It's painful when you don't understand my pain

And it hurts so bad When i watch you bleed
It's painful to see you suffer

But im just a bad as you When im alone too
I am just as flawed as you are when I am alone with my thoughts

I wana die inside
I feel dead inside

I convince myself im fine
I try to convince myself that everything is okay

But now that i can see Its just my codependency
I realize that my issues stem from my codependent tendencies

Screaming that you want to die
You express a desire to end your own life

While you throw my stuff outside
You are angry and lash out by getting rid of my belongings

Clinging to you lifeless skin
I am holding on to your physical presence despite knowing it's not good for me

Pleading to just let me in
I am begging for a chance to be a part of your life

Now im passed out on the floor
I have lost consciousness and collapsed

Fled the country now im poor
I have left the country and am now financially struggling

High in my spare time
I use drugs in my free time

Please just speak to me
I desperately need you to communicate with me

Please just say you need me
I need to hear that you value me

Please just speak to me
I need to have a conversation with you

Please just say you love me
I need to feel loved by you

Tell me that youll be alright
Assure me that you'll be okay

So i wont have to deny
I won't have to lie to myself

That its all its all in me That its my codependency
I acknowledge that my codependency is the root of my issues

Can not sleep, can not think
I am still unable to rest or focus

Demons eating away at me
My inner demons continue to consume me

High on xannax, im a fiend
I am still struggling with Xanax addiction

I cant reach the in between
I am still unable to find a balance in my thoughts and feelings

Squint your eyes, watch the beam
I am suggesting that others should narrow their focus and see things clearly

Shut the lights out so you see
I am suggesting that others should remove distractions and see things clearly

You're not what your meant to be
I am suggesting that others may not be living a life that aligns with their true purpose

You just take your wants from me
I am suggesting that others may only think about their own desires and take from others

Writer(s): Winona Green

Contributed by Victoria F. Suggest a correction in the comments below.

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