On November 17th, 2017 Olivia released her debut EP “It’s Not That Deep,” with the singles “Empty” and “RIP” being released on February 17th and July 14th respectively. The EP dropped on November 17th and included previously unreleased songs called “Tequilawine,” “F**k Feelings” and “No Love.” On June 29th, 2018 a remix of “RIP” was released, featuring G-Eazy and Drew Love.
On August 3rd, 2018 the lead single to O’Brien’s debut album was released. “UDK,” the lead single, marked a change in sound for the singer-songwriter. The 2nd single, “I Don’t Exist” was released on September 14th, 2018. “Care Less More,” the third single, was released on November 9th, 2018. On December 18th, 2018 Olivia announced her first ever headline tour, named after her debut album “Was It Even Real?,” which she announced a few months later. The fourth single, “Love Myself,” was released on February 1st, 2019.
On March 28th, 2019 Olivia announced her debut album “Was It Even Real?” would be released on April 26th, 2019. “Just Friends,” the first and only promotional single, was released on March 29th, 2019 alongside preorder for the album. On April 19th, 2019, a week before the album the 5th and final single, “Just A Boy” was released. Olivia’s debut album, “Was It Even Real?” was released on April 26th, 2019. On May 15th, 2019 “Fade Out” by Seeb featuring Olivia and Space Primates was released.
On November 12th, 2019 Olivia announced that she will be releasing multiple micromixtapes following the release of the first one, “It Was A Sad F**cking Summer” that Friday. Olivia explained in a video on Instagram that micromixtapes contained 2-3 songs that fit together sonically and lyrically as well as all making you feel the same emotion. For “It Was A Sad F**king Summer,” those emotions are melancholy, bittersweet and nostalgic. Alongside the release of the first micromixtape Olivia announced that she was going on tour and that the tour was titled “It Was A Sad F**cking Tour.”
2 days before the release of the 2nd micromixtape Olivia started teasing on Instagram by asking her followers if they were ready for micromixtape #2. One day before release she posted lyrics to the chorus “Josslyn” but without the title lyric. “The Results Of My Poor Judgement” was released on February 7th, 2020.
hate u love u
olivia o'brien Lyrics
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And I can't see the end of this
Just wanna feel your kiss against my lips
And now all this time is passing by
But I still can't seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time I see you
Realize how much I need you
I hate you, I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her
What about all the times
You would pick me up and we'd just drive
Around until we found a place to stay and waste the day away
We'd do nothing but it was okay with me
You say it's not good to spend all my time
Thinking about you so late at night
But I can't stop once I start it's like an avalanche
Thoughts coming and I just wanna hold your hand
Hold your breath, I'm going under
Not coming up 'til this night is over
Until this night is over
I hate you, I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her
All alone, I watch you watch her
Like she's the only girl you've ever seen
You don't care, you never did
You don't give a damn about me
Yeah, all alone, I watch you watch her
She is the only thing you've ever seen
How is it you never notice
That you are slowly killing me?
I hate you, I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her
Olivia O'Brien's "Hate U Love U" is a song about the complex nature of love and heartbreak. The song describes the conflicting emotions that come with loving someone who doesn't reciprocate those feelings. The singer feels used and hurt, but at the same time can't help but hold onto the hope that the person they love will come back to them. The lyrics convey the feelings of confusion, frustration, and obsession that often come with unrequited love.
The chorus of the song uses repetition to emphasize the singer's mixed emotions. The phrase "I hate you, I love you" conveys the inner conflict of the singer, who hates that they love the person who has hurt them. The line "you want her, you need her, and I'll never be her" shows the singer's acceptance of the fact that the person they love will never be theirs. The lyrics are raw and honest, and many listeners can relate to the feelings of heartbreak and longing that they describe.
The second verse of the song describes memories of a past relationship, where the two would go on aimless drives and spend the day together. The singer expresses their desire to hold onto the memory of their love, and their inability to stop thinking about the person. The lyrics describe how the singer feels as though they are drowning in their emotions, unable to escape the intense feelings of love and heartbreak.
Overall, "Hate U Love U" is a powerful expression of the complicated emotions that come with heartbreak and unrequited love. The song's raw lyrics and emotional delivery make it a relatable and powerful piece of music.
Line by Line Meaning
Feeling used, but I'm still missing you
I feel like a disposable object, but despite that, I am still longing for you.
And I can't see the end of this
I can't envision how this situation will end.
Just wanna feel your kiss against my lips
I deeply desire to feel the embrace of your lips on mine.
And now all this time is passing by
Time is continuously flowing despite my desire to slow it down.
But I still can't seem to tell you why
I'm struggling to express why I feel this way.
It hurts me every time I see you
I am in immense pain every time I encounter you.
Realize how much I need you
I finally understand how much I depend on you.
I hate you, I love you
I have a complicated mix of emotions towards you.
I hate that I love you
I resent the fact that I am still in love with you despite the pain you've caused me.
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you
Even though I don't want to, I cannot find anyone else to replace you with.
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her
You have romantic feelings for someone else that I cannot fulfill.
What about all the times
You would pick me up and we'd just drive
Around until we found a place to stay and waste the day away
We'd do nothing but it was okay with me
Remember when we would go on aimless drives, find a location and spend the day together? Those moments were precious to me even if we didn't do anything special.
You say it's not good to spend all my time
Thinking about you so late at night
But I can't stop once I start it's like an avalanche
Thoughts coming and I just wanna hold your hand
You advise me not to dwell on thoughts of you late at night, but I am unable to stop once I start. My thoughts rush like an avalanche and I just want to be with you.
Hold your breath, I'm going under
Not coming up 'til this night is over
Until this night is over
I am choosing to take the plunge and dive deeper into our relationship, and I won't resurface until this night is over.
All alone, I watch you watch her
Like she's the only girl you've ever seen
You don't care, you never did
You don't give a damn about me
Yeah, all alone, I watch you watch her
She is the only thing you've ever seen
I observe you observing the other girl as though she's the only one in the room. You don't care about my feelings and it's painfully clear that she is the only thing that matters to you.
How is it you never notice
That you are slowly killing me?
You are causing me immense psychological anguish and you don't even seem to realize it.
Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
Written by: Garrett Nash, Olivia O'brien
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