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Understand
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Girl, I hope you understand
I wanted to hold your hand, but I can't
Wanted to be your man back then
And you knew I fell for you
But you just broke my heart in two
I was sad, mad and broken on my bed
Hoping I get rid of all the voices in my head

I was opening a packet of an undeveloped med
When I was met with a prescription of a bullet made of lead
And when I woke up in an hour in a pool of my own sweat
I said, "I swear to God I'll never even try to sleep again"
So instead I took my pen and started writing evidence
And when I started making sense, I found that I had reached the end
Oh, I'm upset, I have no friends, you wanna bet, you're just pretend
You're just a pet confined within the lines of writing, you're not shit

I thought I stopped my psychopathic ways, I swear I did
I said I talked to people 'bout the problematic life I lived
They were my neighbors, razor blades and different flavored pills I hit
Therefore I'm at surely my last straw
I'm so gassed, stuck in the past, I said that

Girl, I hope you understand
I wanted to hold your hand, but I can't
Wanted to be your man back then
And so far, I never held you with my arms
So it's hard to be the one you aren't with
Instead filled with anxiety, always was a part of me
Guess I'm not cut out to be

Somebody 'cause it's not me, I'm not used to all the talking
Was an introvert that had converted feelings into writing
Used to cope with all my problems using notes and lots of rhyming
Used to hope for better days whenever nights would have me crying
I'm not lying when I say that I would rather die than go back
To the times I would try and be the guy that people know as
Always fighting with the demons hiding far beyond my eyelids
On an island full of violence, in my head I had two pilots

Oh, the sun don't shine and skies turn gray
I feel it coursing through my veins
I've said before I'm not okay
But you don't listen anyway
You know I tried, you turned away
You straight-up lied right to my face
You fucked my life, ruined my day
But you don't know, so I'll say

Nothing can fill this silence
No one can love like I did (you don't know, so I'll say)
Nobody cares, you lied, it's
Not fair, you still deny it (so I'll say)
Nothing can fill this silence
No one can love like I did (you don't know, so I'll say)
Nobody cares, you lied, it's
Not fair, you still deny it (so I'll say)

Girl, I hope you understand
I wanted to hold your hand, but I can't
Wanted to be your man back then
And too bad I know I can't wake up
Because I've lost my way and you don't give a fuck
'Bout me, this could be a dream
I can't see the things that you see, so please, oh

Girl, I hope you understand
I wanted to hold your hand, but I can't
Wanted to be your man back then
And you had known and played along
You were my home, I wrote you songs
Now you're dead to me effectively
Removed yourself outside my dreams

Overall Meaning

The song "Understand" by boywithuke is an emotional expression of heartbreak and unfulfilled love. The songwriter regrets not succeeding in capturing the attention of the girl he was in love with. He talks about how he wanted to be with her, hold her hand, and be her man, but she broke his heart by being uninterested in him. The song also delves into the songwriter's struggle with mental health and his inner demons. The lyrics touch on his suicidal thoughts, self-harm, and reliance on writing as a coping mechanism.


The verses of the song alternate between the writer's longing to be with the girl and his internal struggles. He reveals his feelings of isolation and loneliness while dealing with his mental health issues. In the chorus, he discusses how he wishes the girl would understand his feelings and how he doesn't feel heard or seen by anyone.


Overall, "Understand" is a raw and vulnerable song about heartbreak, mental illness, and self-discovery. The songwriter exposes his pain and emotions in a relatable and authentic way that captures the feeling of unrequited love and the struggles of dealing with mental health issues.


Line by Line Meaning

Girl, I hope you understand
I hope you comprehend my feelings


I wanted to hold your hand, but I can't
I desired physical contact with you, but it's unattainable


Wanted to be your man back then
I wanted to establish a romantic relationship with you in the past


And you knew I fell for you
You were aware of my love for you


But you just broke my heart in two
You shattered my heart into pieces


I was sad, mad and broken on my bed
I was sad, angry and emotionally hurt lying on my bed


Hoping I get rid of all the voices in my head
Desiring to silence the negativity inside my mind


I was opening a packet of an undeveloped med
I was about to take medication that I had not tried before


When I was met with a prescription of a bullet made of lead
Instead of medication, I found a suicidal thought


And when I woke up in an hour in a pool of my own sweat
I woke up an hour later soaked in sweat


I said, "I swear to God I'll never even try to sleep again"
I made a vow to never attempt to sleep again


So instead I took my pen and started writing evidence
As an alternative, I began writing to document my experience


And when I started making sense, I found that I had reached the end
As my writing became coherent, I realized I had found closure


Oh, I'm upset, I have no friends, you wanna bet, you're just pretend
I am angry and have no true friends, and you are just pretending to be one


You're just a pet confined within the lines of writing, you're not shit
You are just a fictitious entity in my writings and are insignificant


I thought I stopped my psychopathic ways, I swear I did
I believed I had ceased my dangerous behavior


I said I talked to people 'bout the problematic life I lived
I disclosed my difficulties to others


They were my neighbors, razor blades and different flavored pills I hit
My confidants included self-harm methods and drug use


Therefore I'm at surely my last straw
I have reached my final breaking point


I'm so gassed, stuck in the past, I said that
I am exhausted and fixated on past events


And so far, I never held you with my arms
I have never had the opportunity to embrace you physically


So it's hard to be the one you aren't with
It is difficult not being with you as I wish I could


Instead filled with anxiety, always was a part of me
I am consumed with anxiety, it's a constant within me


Guess I'm not cut out to be somebody 'cause it's not me
I suppose I am not meant to be anyone other than myself


Was an introvert that had converted feelings into writing
I am an introverted person and express my emotions through writing


Used to cope with all my problems using notes and lots of rhyming
I have historically utilized writing, including rhyming, to cope with my issues


Used to hope for better days whenever nights would have me crying
During moments of intense emotion, I used to wish for better times


I'm not lying when I say that I would rather die than go back
I am not being dishonest when I say I would prefer death over returning to a specific time in the past


To the times I would try and be the guy that people know as
I refer to when I attempted to present myself as someone else


Always fighting with the demons hiding far beyond my eyelids
I have constantly struggled with inner demons


On an island full of violence, in my head I had two pilots
My mind was a battlefield, and two opposing forces were vying for control


Oh, the sun don't shine and skies turn gray
The world appears bleak to me


I feel it coursing through my veins
An intense feeling is consuming me


I've said before I'm not okay
I have admitted I am not doing well previously


But you don't listen anyway
Despite my disclosure, you have ignored my feelings


You know I tried, you turned away
I made an effort, yet you dismissed me


You straight-up lied right to my face
You were dishonest with me, directly in front of me


You fucked my life, ruined my day
Your actions negatively impacted my life


But you don't know, so I'll say
You are unaware of the extent of the harm you have caused me


Nothing can fill this silence
There is a void of silence that cannot be filled


No one can love like I did (you don't know, so I'll say)
My love for you was unique and irreplaceable (you are unaware of this fact, so I will tell you)


Nobody cares, you lied, it's
No one cares about me, you were dishonest, it is


Not fair, you still deny it (so I'll say)
It is unjust, and you continue to be dishonest (I will speak out)


Too bad I know I can't wake up
Regrettably, I am aware that it is impossible for me to snap out of this state


Because I've lost my way and you don't give a fuck
Because I am lost, and you do not care at all


'Bout me, this could be a dream
You have no concern for me; this reality could be a mere illusion


I can't see the things that you see, so please, oh
I am incapable of perceiving things from your perspective, so please try to understand


And you had known and played along
You were aware of and went along with my affections


You were my home, I wrote you songs
I saw comfort and refuge in you, and I wrote songs for you


Now you're dead to me effectively
You are figuratively dead to me; you have no significance anymore


Removed yourself outside my dreams
You have faded away from my subconscious, and I no longer dream of you




Lyrics © Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Written by: Charley Yang

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@boywithukeofficial

I am somewhere in this video without a mask, and it’s not where you would expect it…

@frizzy8845

Damn well now i gotta be suspecting everybody then

@powerstorm4478

55 minutes and only 5 likes and 1 comment lol, how

@goldenopposite2598

Well now I have to watch it over and over… I was gonna anyway but now it’s more enjoyable

@lundebo1175

WAIT A FACE REVEAL

@pasta2353

time to watch at 0.25x speed...

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@HewMoran

Another banger song to play on repeat!

@wyattvolker7363

Same

@benthebench354

hi Hew

@denital

True

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