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Should Have Known Better
Sufjan Stevens Lyrics


I should have known better
To see what I could see
My black shroud
Holding down my feelings
A pillar for my enemies

I should have wrote a letter
And grieve what I happen to grieve
My black shroud
I never trust my feelings
I waited for the remedy

When I was three, three maybe four
She left us at that video store
Oh, be my rest, be my fantasy
Oh, be my rest, be my fantasy

I'm light as a feather
I'm bright as the Oregon breeze
My black shroud
Frightened by my feelings
I only wanna be a relief

No, I'm not a go-getter
The demon had a spell on me
My black shroud
Captain of my feelings
The only thing I wanna believe

When I was three, and free to explore
I saw her face on the back of the door
Oh, be my rest, be my fantasy
Oh, be my rest, be my fantasy

I should have known better
Nothing can be changed
The past is still the past
The bridge to nowhere
I should have wrote a letter
Explaining what I feel, that empty feeling

Don't back down, concentrate on seeing
The breakers in the bar, the neighbor's greeting
My brother had a daughter
The beauty that she brings, illumination

Don't back down, there is nothing left
The breakers in the bar, no reason to live
I'm a fool in the fetter
Rose of Aaron's beard, where you can reach me

Don't back down, nothing can be changed
Cantilever bridge, the drunken sailor
My brother had a daughter
The beauty that she brings, illumination
Illumination

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Written by: Sufjan Stevens

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LYRICS:

I should have known better
To see what I could see
My black shroud
Holding down my feelings
A pillar for my enemies

I should have wrote a letter
And grieve what I happen to grieve
My black shroud
I never trust my feelings
I waited for the remedy

When I was three, three maybe four
She left us at that video store
Oh, be my rest, be my fantasy
Oh, be my rest, be my fantasy

I'm light as a feather
I'm bright as the Oregon breeze
My black shroud
Frightened by my feelings
I only want to be a relief

No, I'm not a go-getter
The demon had a spell on me
My black shroud
Captain of my feelings
The only thing I want to believe

When I was three, and free to explore
I saw her face on the back of the door
Oh, be my rest, be my fantasy
Oh, be my rest, be my fantasy

I should have known better
Nothing can be changed
The past is still the past
The bridge to nowhere
I should have wrote a letter
Explaining what I feel, that empty feeling

Don't back down, concentrate on seeing
The breakers in the bar, the neighbor's greeting
My brother had a daughter
The beauty that she brings, illumination

Don't back down, there is nothing left
The breakers in the bar, no reason to live
I'm a fool in the fetter
Rose of Aaron's beard, where you can reach me

Don't back down, nothing can be changed
Cantilever bridge, the drunken sailor
My brother had a daughter
The beauty that she brings, illumination, illumination



Ellen

Carrie and Lowell is one of those albums that's rare today, a true album that is more than the sum of its parts.  Sufjan has created a cohesive work with a consistent theme, more than just a collection of beautiful songs but rather all variations of his theme of loss and grief.  The songs are meant to be listened to one after another, not separately.  This is a true work of art and I only wish I owned it on vinyl.

And yes, any of us who have lost someone close to us knows the feeling of not knowing how to grieve.  I still can't do it after my husband's death or my sister's death.  Maybe some day.

I should have wrote a letter
And grieve what I happen to grieve
My black shroud
I never trust my feelings
I waited for the remedy



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Lyrics

I should have known better
To see what I could see

My black shroud

Holding down my feelings

A pillar for my enemies


I should have wrote a letter

And grieve what I happen to grieve

My black shroud

I never trust my feelings

I waited for the remedy


When I was three, three maybe four

She left us at that video store

Oh, be my rest, be my fantasy

Oh, be my rest, be my fantasy


I'm light as a feather

I'm bright as the Oregon breeze

My black shroud

Frightened by my feelings

I only wanna be a relief


No, I'm not a go-getter

The demon had a spell on me

My black shroud

Captain of my feelings

The only thing I wanna believe


When I was three, and free to explore

I saw her face on the back of the door

Oh, be my rest, be my fantasy

Oh, be my rest, be my fantasy


I should have known better

Nothing can be changed

The past is still the past

The bridge to nowhere

I should have wrote a letter

Explaining what I feel, that empty feeling


Don't back down, concentrate on seeing

The breakers in the bar, the neighbor's greeting

My brother had a daughter

The beauty that she brings, illumination


Don't back down, there is nothing left

The breakers in the bar, no reason to live

I'm a fool in the fetter

Rose of Aaron's beard, where you can reach me


Don't back down, nothing can be changed

Cantilever bridge, the drunken sailor

My brother had a daughter

The beauty that she brings, illumination

Illumination



All comments from YouTube:

ode

To all the new people here, this song talks about Sufjan regretting not letting himself grieve his mother properly. He uses various metaphors to depict his depression. However there is hope in the new generation, which is symbolized by his brother's daughter and the way the music turns happier at the end. "Illumination"!

Holly B. Me

Thank you for sharing this with us - truly beautiful and extremely relevant in my life

frankfinnsweenryan

thank you for this

Savannah M

Still waiting for myself to move on and be okay to hear that song/ending...

Richard Brook

Music talks to everyone individually.... sentiment is personal... but thanks for "Dadsplaining"

Rigo Arredondo

Amazing

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R

The song refrain “my black shroud” resonates with me so much. I’ve been carrying a lot of emotional pain since childhood which I have kept hidden. This song really captures the ramifications of trauma at a young age. But it also implores us to grow as adults by feeling the pain we previously covered…with our shrouds…and to move forward with grace.

Luke

Same, it's so easy to keep it hidden for a while but it really just weighs on you. It's harder than it should be at times to move forward with grace as you said, but it's possible and definitely worth it. I do hope you're able to move on and I'm praying for you.

Meilia •

I really understand this feeling... I hope you are doing okay now. Greetings from afar :)

Mia Chandler

His voice will ALWAYS just make me go “✨OH to see without my eyes✨”

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