Despite What You've Been Told
Two Gallants Lyrics

Well, I guess by the blood stain of your lips
Based on the evidence of your past experiences

And the wander of your fingertips
Combined with your flirtatious nature

I should prove true to my emptiness
I should be faithful to my own lack of purpose

And stay here
And not go searching for something else

Well, I'm just a kid of ill repute
I have a bad reputation

But the skin I wear is my only suit
I only have myself to present to the world

And you, you're just a substitute
And you're just a temporary replacement

For the one that I hold dear
For the one I really care about

You know, you could be anyone
I don't really know who you are

God forgive my tasteless tongue
I hope I'm not being rude

I never should have been set free
I should have been punished for my mistakes

I claw my eyes, I skin my face
I hurt myself as a form of self-punishment

Beg somehow to be replaced
I wish I could replace myself with someone better

That's how we deal with boys like me
This is how people like me cope

Well, I guess for this world so sick with loss
In this world where so much has been lost

And your service is so free of cost
And you offer your services for free

I should climb down off my rugged cross
I should stop playing the victim

And lay with you
And be with you

But you know, by now it's half past late
But it's too late for that

And I only came here for escape
And I only wanted to get away

You you're just my next mistake
You're just another person I'll regret being with

Like me to you
And I'm just another mistake to you

God forgive your unborn sons
I hope your future children don't suffer like me

I hope they don't end up like me
I hope they have a better life than me

I drag my mind through streets of shame
I constantly feel guilty and ashamed

Lay myself forgive the game
I try to forgive myself for my mistakes

But despite what you've been told
Contrary to what you may have heard

I once had a soul
I used to have a sense of purpose

Left somewhere behind
But I lost it along the way

A former friend of mine
Someone I used to know

And I hate to speak so free
And I don't like being so honest

But you mean nothing to me
But I don't really care about you

So if the street lights they shine bright
If the lights are still on outside

I'll get home tonight
I'll make it home

And that to you all things come as a surprise
And you seem to be easily surprised by everything

I should set the steel trap of your thighs
I should take advantage of your vulnerability

And dive right in
And have sex with you

But to you I'm just a confused child
But you see me as immature and lost

Insecure or in denial
As someone who lacks confidence or refuses to accept reality

Go raise your robes, go have your trial
Do what you want, but I won't be a part of it

I'll let you win
I'll give up and let you have your way

God forgive what I should've done
I regret my past actions

A thoughts enough to guilty be
Just the thought of it makes me feel guilty

Yes, I guess I made this bed
I'm responsible for my own problems

But I'll take the sidewalk instead
But I'd rather face the consequences than give in

But despite what you've been told
Contrary to what you may have heard

I once had a soul
I used to have a sense of purpose

Left somewhere behind
But I lost it along the way

A former friend of mine
Someone I used to know

And I hate to sound so true
And I hate to be so honest

But I mean nothing to you
But you don't really care about me

So, if the street lights they shine bright
If the lights are still on outside

I'll be home tonight
I'll make it home