My Head & My Heart
Ava Max Lyrics

Baby, now and then
Sometimes, I think about who I am now and who I could have been

I think about me now and who I could have been
I reflect on my current self and the possibilities of who I could have become

And then I picture all the perfect that we lived
I imagine all the perfect moments we shared together

'Til I cut the strings on your tiny violin, oh whoa
Until I ended the relationship and stopped letting you manipulate me emotionally

My mind's got a m-m-mind of its own right now
My thoughts are scattered and uncontrollable at the moment

And it makes me hate me
It makes me dislike myself

I'll explode like a dynamite if I can't decide, baby
I feel like I will explode if I can't make a decision soon

My head and my heart are torturing me, yeah
I am struggling with indecisiveness and confusion

'Cause my mind, and your arms, I go to extremes, yeah
My thoughts and emotions are extreme when I'm with you

When angels tell me run, and monsters call it love, oh
Conflicting forces are at play and I don't know which one to trust

My head and my heart are caught in-between, yeah
I am caught in a dilemma

Tell me yes or no
I want a straightforward answer

Asking the heavens, "Should I stay or should I go?"
I am seeking guidance on whether I should stay in the relationship or leave

You held my hand when I had nothing left to hold
You were there for me during a low point in my life

And now I'm on a roll, oh
Now, I am doing well and progressing forward

I'm standin' at the crossroads
I am at a pivotal point and must make a decision

I cross my heart with X and O's
I pledge loyalty and love to myself and my own well-being

Which way leads to forever?
Which direction will lead to a long-lasting and fulfilling outcome?

God only knows
Only a higher power knows the answer

My head (my head) and my heart (my heart)
My thoughts and emotions are in conflict

La-la-la-la-la (oh)
Vocalization of my struggles and confusion