Pale Horse
The Smashing Pumpkins Lyrics

If I was to listen I'd turn back
If I were to actually pay attention and consider what others are saying, I would backtrack and lose faith in my own beliefs.

Give up on my reasons
Abandon why I believe in what I do.

Forgive up the past
Release myself from the burden of past events and move forward.

You think I'd swallow that?
Do you truly believe I would blindly accept these changes and forgive the past?

Bearing weight in ceilings
Carrying a heavy emotional or mental burden that is pressing down on me like a ceiling.

Just to stop and ask of Thorazine
Asking for a powerful sedative to alleviate the mental pain and pressure.

There'll be no others
No more people to rely on or turn to for support.

There'll be no long lost friends
No old friends from the past to reconnect with and share memories.

Empty on the insides
Feeling emotionally devoid or numb on the inside.

Empty of a last pretense
Devoid of any remaining attempts to pretend that everything is okay or to protect oneself from pain.

To stand by on feeling of the end
Resigned to a sense of finality, almost as if everything is coming to an end.

So many lives
So many different paths or courses of action that one could take.

A runaway life
A life that is not in control, constantly running away from something or trying to escape.

So many lies
The world is full of deception and dishonesty.

When they locked you up they shut me out
When you were institutionalized or imprisoned, it felt as if everyone abandoned or ignored your suffering.

Gave me the key so I could show you around
The authorities allowed me to visit you and try to help you feel more comfortable or at ease.

Yet we were not allowed
Despite our efforts, we were not given permission or permission was revoked to continue visiting or helping.

Omens of the daydream
Warnings or signs of impending doom or negative consequences for our actions or lack thereof.

But caught as you're bound in Thora Zine
Stuck in a state of being heavily medicated or sedated with Thorazine.

There'll be no rallies
No organized efforts or protests to make a change or raise awareness.

Caught on a spotlight running out of present tense
Feeling as if you are under a microscope, with everyone watching and judging you, as time slips away quickly.

To fix by a feeling of an end
To correct or resolve things before they come to a conclusive end or resolution.

Please come back Pale Horse
A plea for something or someone to return and provide direction or guidance in a time of uncertainty or desperation.