LTJ Bukem is by far the most recognised and notable name in atmospheric DnB: not only did he pioneer the genre with early classics such as "Demon's Theme" and "Atlantis (I Need You)" he is also the owner of Good Looking Records, the most successful drum and bass label specialising in this style. Other important names in the genre include Goldie, Photek, Adam F, and Omni Trio.
The genre's heyday was the mid-to-late nineties, after which it lost popularity as other styles (mainly Techstep) became dominant. Its ethos and approach to drum and bass was adopted by the closely-related style of Jazzstep, and later, during the early 2000s, another style with the same warm basslines, emphasis on melody and clean production, Liquid Drum and Bass, became very popular.
I Must Apologise
pinkpantheress Lyrics
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I'm not acting the way I think you'd like
We went for dinner and now you're acting paranoid
If only you knew the way I felt inside on that night
Your paranoia, it happens all the time
And that's 'cause lying's a big problem of mine (just a problem for me)
But I still do it and now I'm by myself again
I tell so many that I can't see them end, so I said
If I could, I would make amends
Today I wrote a list of them
The way it starts, the way it ends
I signed my name in marker pen (yeah)
I must apologize
Before I end the night
It's not a game I want to change
These days it doesn't feel the same
The way it did some years before
I've lost so much, I'll lose some more
I'm not able
To tell you what you need, it's a shame 'cause
They say I should be honest more, one day, I'm sure
I'll figure out the reason I was telling lies for
(I must apologize)
(Before I end the night)
In "I Must Apologise," Pinkpantheress expresses remorse for the way she's treated someone she cares about. She begins by describing her own discomfort with their recent interactions, emphasizing that she's not behaving in a way that she thinks the other person would want. She expresses confusion about why the other person seems to be acting paranoid, or mistrustful of her, and says that if they knew how she was feeling, they might understand her behavior better. However, she acknowledges that her own tendency to lie makes it difficult for her to be honest with this person, and that this is likely contributing to their current strain in their relationship. She says that she's tried to make amends, even writing a list of all the things she's done wrong, but she still feels unable to fully articulate her feelings to the other person. Ultimately, she apologizes for any pain she's caused and hopes that they can move forward.
At its core, "I Must Apologise" is a song about the difficulties of communication and honesty in relationships. The singer recognizes that she's not behaving in the way she thinks the other person wants, but she doesn't know how to bridge that gap. Her tendency to lie further complicates matters, making it difficult for her to be open and vulnerable with the other person. This tension is palpable in the song's haunting melody and sparse instrumentation, which create a sense of yearning and regret. Ultimately, the song is a reminder that we all struggle to communicate our feelings at times, but owning up to our mistakes and expressing remorse is an important step towards repairing damaged relationships.
Line by Line Meaning
I never wanted to cast out in your mind
I didn't intend to make you doubt me
I'm not acting the way I think you'd like
I know I'm not meeting your expectations
We went for dinner and now you're acting paranoid
Your behavior changed after dinner and now you seem worried
If only you knew the way I felt inside, I'm like
I wish you could understand my emotions, I'm struggling
Your paranoia, it happens all the time
You often experience suspicion
And that's 'cause lying's a big problem of mine (and that's 'cause lying's a big problem of mine)
I lie frequently which contributes to your mistrust
But I still do it and now I'm by myself again
Despite acknowledging the problem, I continue to lie and am now lonely
I tell so many that I can't see them end, so I said
I tell so many lies that I can't keep track, so I made a list
If I could I would make amends (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
If possible, I would apologize and make things right
Today I wrote a list of them (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
Today, I made a list of apologies
The way it starts, the way it ends (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
I marked how each apology begins and ends
I signed my name in marker pen (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)(yeah)
I signed my name with a marker
I must apologize
I need to say sorry
Before I end the night
Before the day is over
It's not a game I want to change (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
I'm not playing games, but I do want to change
These days end up some feel the same (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
Recently, days blur together and feel repetitive
The way it did some years before (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
Things are similar to how they were in the past
I've lost so much, I'll lose some more (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
I've already lost a lot and expect to lose more
I'm not able
I can't
To tell you what you need, it's a shame 'cause
I can't tell you what you need, which is unfortunate
They say I should be honest more, one day I'm sure
Others advise me to be truthful more often, and I hope to do so in the future
I'll figure out the reason I was telling lies for
I'll discover why I feel the need to lie
Lyrics © BMG Rights Management, Universal Music Publishing Group, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
Written by: Crystal Waters, Neal Conway, Oscar Scheller, Victoria Walker
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@robin_lol_
Lyrics
I never wanted to cast doubt in your mind
I'm not acting the way I think you'd like
We went for dinner and now you're acting paranoid
If only you knew the way I felt inside on that night
Your paranoia, it happens all the time
And that's 'cause lying's a big problem of mine (just a problem for me)
But I still do it and now I'm by myself again
I tell so many that I can't see them end, so I said
If I could, I would make amends
Today I wrote a list of them
The way it starts, the way it ends
I signed my name in marker pen (yeah)
I must apologize
Before I end the night
It's not a game I want to change
These days it doesn't feel the same
The way it did some years before
I've lost so much, I'll lose some more
I'm not able
To tell you what you need, it's a shame 'cause
They say I should be honest more, one day, I'm sure
I'll figure out the reason I was telling lies for
@_az1yn
Lyrics!
I never wanted to cast out in your mind
I'm not acting the way I think you'd like
We went for dinner and now you're acting paranoid
If only you knew the way I felt inside, I'm like
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Your paranoia, it happens all the time
And that's 'cause lying's a big problem of mine (and that's 'cause lying's a big problem of mine)
But I still do it and now I'm by myself again
I tell so many that I can't see them end, so I said
If I could I would make amends (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
Today I wrote a list of them (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
The way it starts, the way it ends (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
I signed my name in marker pen (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)(yeah)
I must apologize
Before I end the night
It's not a game I want to change (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
These days end up some feel the same (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
The way it did some years before (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
I've lost so much, I'll lose some more (ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
I'm not able
To tell you what you need, it's a shame 'cause
They say I should be honest more, one day I'm sure
I'll figure out the reason I was telling lies for
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh (I must apologize)
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh (before I end the night)
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh, ooh
@Miogiana
I never wanted to cause doubt in your mind
I'm not acting the way I think you'd like
We went for dinner and now you're acting paranoid
If only you knew the way I felt inside
On that night
Your paranoia, it happens all the time
And that's 'cause lying's a big problem of mine
But I still do it, now I'm by myself again
I tell so many that I can't see them end
So I said
If I could, I would make amends
Today, I wrote a list of them
The way it starts, the way it ends
I signed my name in marker pen (yeah)
I must apologise
Before I end the night
It's not a gamе, I want to change
These days, it doesn't feel the same
The way it did some years before
I've lost so much, I'll lose some more
I'm not able (ble-ble)
To tell you what you need, it's a shame 'cause
They say I should be honest more, one day, I'm sure
I'll figure out the reason I was telling lies for
I must apologise
Before I end the night
@j.3680
Why are her songs so good, this is crack
@Sassypreminger
Lol frl😂
@matthewvillanueva4661
I feel you
@koolz997
Honestly like
@Chickenjay0188
Ikr
@seikopilled
for real
@maggiesworld2418
The venting of the song with the beautiful beat you deserve a music award 🏆
@maggiesworld2418
Also perfect vent audio
@user-Violet282
Great!
@user-Violet282
I can feel this song like it's bringing me to a beautiful dream 😊