Amoeba
Clairo Lyrics

Between the gaps I was swimming laps
I was trying to navigate through the gaps in my thoughts and emotions in order to find clarity, similar to the way one moves through water while swimming.

Got close to some epiphany
I felt like I was on the verge of a realization or breakthrough that could change my perspective or feelings about something.

I'll convince a friend to join deep ends
I will try to persuade a friend to join me in exploring the depths of our emotions or thoughts, even if it may be difficult or uncomfortable.

Have your toes touch the lack of cement
Feel the instability or uncertainty of the situation, akin to standing on ground that is not solid or secure.

Gather to one corner of the woods
Unite or come together with others, possibly seeking refuge or solace, similar to congregating in a forest.

Echo chambers inside a neighborhood
Exist within a community or group that echoes similar beliefs, opinions, or attitudes, creating an insular environment that reinforces those ideals.

And centerfold, humility shown
Centered and prominent, displaying a sense of humility or modesty.

You're not as good as what your mama's sewn
You are not defined by the expectations or upbringing set by your parents, and should strive to establish your own identity.

Aren't you glad that you reside
A repositioning of the negative implication of "reside" to suggest that, despite any challenges or difficulties, there is still a sense of belonging or satisfaction in one's current state.

In a hell and in disguise?
Expressing the idea that one may feel trapped or suffocated by their current situation, and may feel the need to hide or disguise their true thoughts or emotions.

Nobody yet everything
Feeling simultaneously insignificant and yet deeply connected to everything else.

A pool to shed your memory
Using a body of water as a metaphor to suggest that one can enter and leave their memories, perhaps seeking to forget or move on from certain parts of their past.

Could you say you even tried?
Challenging oneself to question whether they have truly put forth the effort to change or improve their situation.

You haven't called your family twice
Acknowledging the guilt or sense of obligation one may feel to stay connected with their family, even if they haven't done so in the recent past.

I can hope tonight goes differently
Holding onto the possibility that the current experience or social gathering will not mirror past experiences or disappointments.

But I show up to the party just to leave
Feeling dissatisfied or disillusioned with social gatherings or events, and only attending them as a formality before leaving early.

Pulling back, I tried to find
Attempt to step back or retreat from a situation, in order to gain perspective or understanding.

The point of wasting precious time
The realization that one may be using their time ineffectively or without purpose, indicating a sense of regret or disappointment.

I sip and toast to normalcy
Raising a glass or drinking to the idea of a more typical or predictable existence, possibly indicating a desire for stability or routine.

A fool's way into jealousy
Acknowledging the dangerous or detrimental nature of becoming jealous or envious, particularly as a result of comparing oneself to others.

I mock and imitate goodbyes
Engage in a facade of saying goodbye, indicating that one may feel emotionally detached or insincere when it comes to parting ways with others.

When I know that I can't deny
Despite recognizing the deceit or inauthenticity of their actions, one continues to engage in such behavior or emotions.

That I'll be here forever while
A sense of being trapped or stuck in a situation, possibly alluding to a larger sense of existential dread or anxiety.

I show up to the party just to leave
The cyclical nature of attending social gatherings or events, only to leave early or feel unsatisfied, becoming a recurring pattern or routine.