I Wanna Get Better
Bleachers Lyrics
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Calling my name and I follow just to find you
I trace the faith to a broken down television
And put on the weather
And I've trained myself to give up on the past 'cause
I frozen time between hearses and caskets
Lost control when I panicked at the acid test
I wanna get better
While my friends were getting high and chasing girls down parkway lines
I was losing my mind
Because the love, the love, the love, the love, the love
That I gave wasted on a nice face
In a blaze of fear I put a helmet on a helmet
Counting seconds through the night and got carried away
So now I'm standing on the overpass screaming at the cars
Hey, I wanna get better
I didn't know I was lonely 'til I saw your face
I wanna get better, better, better, better
I wanna get better
I didn't know I was broken 'til I wanted to change
I wanna get better, better, better, better
I wanna get better
I go up to my room and there's girls on the ceiling
Cut out their pictures and I chase that feeling
Of an eighteen year old who didn't know what loss was
Now I'm a stranger
And I miss the days of a life still permanent
Mourn the years before I got carried away
So now I'm staring at the interstate screaming at myself
Hey, I wanna get better
I didn't know I was lonely 'til I saw your face
I wanna get better, better, better, better
I wanna get better
I didn't know I was broken 'til I wanted to change
I wanna get better, better, better, better
I wanna get better
Better, 'cause I'm sleeping in the back of a taxi
I'm screaming from my bedroom window
Even if its gonna kill me
Woke up this morning early before my family
From this dream where she was trying to show me
How a life can move from the darkness
She said to get better
So I put a bullet where I shoulda put a helmet
And I crash my car 'cause I wanna get carried away
That's why I'm standing on the overpass screaming at myself
Hey, I wanna get better
I didn't know I was lonely 'til I saw your face
I wanna get better, better, better, better
I wanna get better
I didn't know I was broken 'til I wanted to change
I wanna get better, better, better, better
I wanna get better
The lyrics to Bleachers’ “I Wanna Get Better” tell a powerful story of self-discovery and growth. The song begins with the singer hearing the voice of a preacher calling his name and following it, eventually leading him to a broken-down television where he puts on the weather. He describes how he has trained himself to give up on the past and how he lost control when he panicked at the acid test. All of this leads to the chorus where the singer declares that he wants to get better.
As the song continues, we learn that while his friends were getting high and chasing guys, the singer was losing his mind. He had given his love to someone with a nice face, but it was wasted. In a blaze of fear, he put a helmet on a helmet and started counting seconds through the night, getting carried away. Now he’s standing on an overpass, screaming at the cars. These lyrics show a clear struggle with mental health and the singer’s desire to change.
The second verse begins with the singer going up to his room where there are guys on the ceiling. He cuts out their pictures and chases the feeling of an 18-year-old who didn’t know what loss was. He’s now a stranger and misses the days of his life still being permanent. He remembers the years before he got carried away and is now standing on the overpass, still screaming at the cars. The song ends with the singer waking up from a dream where someone was trying to show him how a life can move from darkness, telling him to get better.
Overall, “I Wanna Get Better” is a powerful song about a journey towards self-discovery and healing. The singer struggles with mental health and the fear of losing control, but ultimately declares that he wants to get better.
Line by Line Meaning
Hey, I hear the voice of a preacher from the back room
The singer hears a voice that resonates with them, like someone giving a sermon in the back of a room.
Calling my name and I follow just to find you
The voice leads the singer to someone they have been seeking.
I trace the faith to a broken down television
The singer traces their faith journey back to a moment when they found inspiration in something run-down and neglected.
And put on the weather
The artist uses the TV to distract themselves from their problems by focusing on something as trivial as the weather.
And I've trained myself to give up on the past 'cause
The artist has learned to put the past behind them because it only causes them pain and sadness.
I frozen time between hearses and caskets
The singer has experienced grief and loss, and feels stuck in time between funerals and graves.
Lost control when I panicked at the acid test
The singer feels like they lost control of their life during a challenging situation, like they were taking a test on acid.
While my friends were getting high and chasing guys down parkway lines
The artist watches their friends living carefree lives while they struggle with their own issues.
I was losing my mind
The artist is struggling with their mental health and feels like they're losing their grip on reality.
'Cause the love, the love, the love, the love, the love
The artist is fixated on the idea of love, and how they have given it away to someone who didn't deserve it.
That I gave wasted on a nice face
The singer regrets giving their love to someone who only had superficial qualities.
In a blaze of fear I put a helmet on a helmet
The artist makes poor decisions when they are scared, like putting on too many helmets for protection.
Counting seconds through the night and got carried away
The singer is consumed with anxiety and can't stop their racing thoughts.
So now I'm standing on the overpass screaming at the cars
The singer feels frustrated and helpless, and takes it out by yelling at passing cars.
I didn't know I was lonely 'til I saw your face
The singer realizes they were missing a connection with someone, and only discovered it when they met a person who resonated with them.
I didn't know I was broken 'til I wanted to change
The artist didn't recognize they were in a bad place until they wanted to improve their life.
I go up to my room and there's guys on the ceiling
The artist experiences vivid and unusual hallucinations and delusions that make them question their reality.
Cut out their pictures and I chase that feeling
The singer becomes obsessed with their hallucinations, and tries to recreate the feeling through removing and collecting images.
Of an eighteen year old who didn't know what loss was
The singer longs for the naivety and innocence of their youth, when they didn't have to grapple with grief and pain.
Now I'm a stranger
The artist feels disconnected from their past self and the people they used to know.
And I miss the days of a life still permanent
The artist longs for the stability and certainty of their past, where they didn't feel like everything was always changing.
Mourn the years before I got carried away
The artist grieves for the time before they lost control, when they were still on a stable path.
Better, 'cause I'm sleeping in the back of a taxi
The singer is in a desperate place, sleeping in the back of a taxi because they have nowhere else to go.
I'm screaming out my bedroom window
The artist feels trapped and alone, screaming for someone to hear them.
Even if its gonna kill me, whoa-oh
The singer is willing to take risks and go to extremes if it means they'll feel better.
So I put a bullet where I shoulda put a helmet
The singer makes another dangerous and impulsive decision, choosing to take a risk rather than play it safe.
And I crash my car 'cause I wanna get carried away
The singer tries to find some excitement and release by recklessly driving their car and crashing it.
Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
Written by: Jack Antonoff, John Graham Hill
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@CoRLex-jh5vx
My cat died about a year and a half ago (September 7th, 2019). She'd been with me my entire life, my parents got her as a wedding present to each other (my dad knew my mum wanted another cat, my mum used the excuse of them having their own cat each in order to get her). I dont really know what happened with her, we couldn't find her one night and then the next morning we found her and she couldn't move her back legs. She was fifteen, deaf, probably partially blind, and had been rather chunky up until a year before. We knew it was nearing the end when she got skinny with no diet change. I feel a lot of guilt because for the last two years of her life she smelled really bad and always snuffled and snorted really loudly. I avoided her when I should have made sure she knew I loved her. She was always there when I needed her, despite my stupidity.
We had to have her put down the same day her legs went. The vet couldnt even finish injecting the whole syringe before she stopped breathing. From the moment we found her that morning I'd been wondering what itd be like to breathe in a world without her. Shed been there my whole life, followed me around and acted as more of an emotional support than my mum did most of the time. She was basically my second mother, and I'll always think of her as such. It's probably stupid, she was a small boned tabby cat I tried to curl up smaller than so she would think I was her kitten, but that's just what it was.
I did hold my breath for a while, after she breathed out the last time. I wondered if I would even know how to breathe without her. I breathed back in eventually, obviously, and it hurt a lot. Accepting a world without her hurt a lot. She had been there for every milestone before that, what would it be like to not celebrate with her?
It still hurts thinking about her sometimes. If one of my other cats snuffles too loud while coming up the stairs, I automatically think "Ah, here Brindle comes, looking to steal some food."
The grief doesnt go away, and it doesnt heal in the way most people say it does. It's more like you grow around it. What once was huge and all encompassing becomes manageable, then small. Like when I was young, and picking up my cat was a full body effort. Then, as I grew bigger, it got easier. She never changed size, my body just grew to better accommodate her.
There's never a right time to lose a pet. It'll never be easy to do. But we grow around it, it becomes part of us. Eventually, cliche though it may seem, we look back and remember how lucky we were to have them at all.
I hope this helps a bit :)
RIP Brindle
She saw 12 kittens come into our household over the years, saw eight remain in said household, and of those outlived three, all with the patience of a saint. Her predecessor Billy the Great, if cats could cackle, would be cackling with her in cat heaven for all eternity.
@guitarpunk200
lyrics cause all the lyric videos on youtube have shit going on in the back ground of the videos.......
"I Wanna Get Better"
Hey, I hear the voice of a preacher from the back room
Calling my name and I follow just to find you
I trace the faith to a broken down television and put on the weather
And I've trained myself to give up on the past 'cause
I frozen time between hearses and caskets
Lost control when I panicked at the acid test
I wanna get better
While my friends were getting high and chasing girls down parkway lines
I was losing my mind 'cause the love, the love, the love, the love, the love
That I gave wasted on a nice face
In a blaze of fear I put a helmet on a helmet
Counting seconds through the night and got carried away
So now I'm standing on the overpass screaming at the cars,
"Hey, I wanna get better!"
I didn’t know I was lonely 'til I saw your face
I wanna get better, better, better, better,
I wanna get better
I didn't know I was broken 'til I wanted to change
I wanna get better, better, better, better,
I wanna get better
I go up to my room and there's girls on the ceiling
Cut out their pictures and I chase that feeling
Of an eighteen year old who didn't know what loss was
Now I'm a stranger
And I miss the days of a life still permanent
Mourn the years before I got carried away
So now I'm staring at the interstate screaming at myself,
"Hey, I wanna get better!"
I didn't know I was lonely 'til I saw your face
I wanna get better, better, better, better,
I wanna get better
I didn't know I was broken 'til I wanted to change
I wanna get better, better, better, better,
I wanna get better
'Cause I'm sleeping in the back of a taxi
I'm screaming from my bedroom window
Even if its gonna kill me
Woke up this morning early before my family
From this dream where she was trying to show me
How a life can move from the darkness
She said to get better
So I put a bullet where I shoulda put a helmet
And I crash my car cause I wanna get carried away
That's why I'm standing on the overpass screaming at myself,
"Hey, I wanna get better!"
I didn't know I was lonely 'til I saw your face
I wanna get better, better, better, better,
I wanna get better
I didn't know I was broken 'til I wanted to change
I wanna get better, better, better, better,
I wanna get better
@gpgara
This song made me shower, get dressed, clean my room, and take a long, silent walk through my neighbourhood. Yesterday I didn't even want to move. Bleachers 1 - My Depression 0. Thank you Bleachers for this song. So much.
@alanpacholski2788
Way to go! Keep it up!
@gpgara
Thank you for your encouragement. I just hope the improvement sticks. :)
@gpgara
Matthew Bridges Today I played the violin again. That should tell you how I'm doing! :) Thanks for your encouragement.
@alanpacholski2788
giligara30492, you should upload a video of you playing the violin!
@gpgara
Alan Pacholski Maybe some day!
@calebdunn1288
"I didn't know I was broken till I wanted to change" the real truth right there
@atsuyak768
It hits so hard.
@Shannonbryant605
Dead ass
@Oreggon
It’s a double entendre. He didn’t know he was broke in terms of money until he wanted some change. He also didn’t know he was broke mentally until he wanted to improve himself.