It Kills Me
Melanie Fiona Lyrics

Oh yeah
Trouble plagues the singer's relationships and life, and she is not happy with the way things are going.

I've got trouble with my friends
The singer's friends aren't making things easier for her, likely by criticizing or offering unwanted advice on her relationship issues.

Trouble in my life
The singer describes the general turmoil present in her life, likely including relationship problems and other issues.

Problems when you don't come home at night
The singer's partner causes problems when he doesn't come home at night, suggesting that he may be cheating or engaging in other kinds of dishonest behavior.

But when you do you always start a fight
When the singer's partner does come home, he starts arguments or fights, further escalating the relationship problems.

But I cant be alone
The singer is afraid to be alone or without her partner, even if it means putting up with problems in the relationship.

I need you to come on home
The singer expresses a need for her partner to come home and be with her, even though their relationship is troubled.

I know you're messing around
The singer is aware that her partner is cheating or acting unfaithfully in some way.

But who the hell else is gonna hold me down
Despite the singer's partner's problems, she feels that he is the only person who can provide emotional support or help her through life's difficulties.

I've gotta be out my mind
The singer feels that she must be irrational or delusional to think that her relationship can work out given the current problems and her partner's behavior.

To think it's gonna work this time
The singer is hopeful that her relationship can improve, even though it has failed to do so in the past.

A part of me wants to leave
Despite wanting to believe the best about the relationship, the singer also has doubts about whether it is worth continuing.

But the other side still believes
Even when considering the possibility of leaving her partner, the singer still holds onto the hope that the relationship can succeed and that her partner will change.

And it kills me
The singer's love for her partner is emotionally painful, given the difficulties and problems that come with the relationship.

To know how much I really love you
The singer is aware of the depth of her love for her partner, even though their relationship is troubled and painful.

So much I wanna ooh-ooh-ooh
Despite the problems in their relationship, the singer still has strong feelings of affection for her partner.

Should I grab his cell
The singer considers checking her partner's phone to see if he is being unfaithful or doing anything else that he shouldn't be doing.

Call this chick up?
The singer wonders if she should confront her partner's other romantic interest, who may be a potential source of the relationship problems.

Start some shh, then hang up
The singer considers making a scene or confronting her partner's other romantic interest, even if it means doing so anonymously or dishonestly.

Or should I be a lady?
The singer wonders if she should take the high road and not confront her partner's other romantic interest, even if it means not fully addressing the relationship problems.

Ooh, maybe, 'cause I wanna have his babies
Despite the problems in their relationship, the singer still has hopes of building a family with her partner, further complicating her feelings about the relationship.

Cause I don't wanna be alone
The singer is afraid of being alone or without her partner, even if continuing the relationship means dealing with significant challenges and problems.

I don't need to be on my own
The singer reiterates her reluctance to be alone, even if it means dealing with problems in her current relationship.

But I love this man
Despite everything, the singer still loves her partner deeply and is conflicted about the decision to continue the relationship or not.

But some things I just can't stand, oh
Even though the singer loves her partner, there are some behaviors or circumstances in their relationship that she simply cannot tolerate.

Should I pay him back
The singer considers using revenge as a way to deal with the problems in her relationship or to make her partner see the severity of their issues.

To see how he'll react, ayy-ooh
The singer wonders what her partner's reaction will be to her revenge, considering whether it will make things better or worse.

To see if he'll react to my love
The singer is unsure of whether her partner is capable of truly loving her or being faithful, and is considering testing his reactions to different kinds of emotional stimuli.

Oh, and it kills me (kills me)
The emotional pain that comes with the relationship problems is overwhelming for the singer, and she is torn between her feelings of love and her desire for a healthier, happier relationship.

To know how much I really love you
Despite everything, the singer is aware of the depth of her love for her partner, and is struggling to reconcile that with the difficulties present in their relationship.

So much I wanna ooh-ooh-ooh (ooh-ooh-ooh)
Despite the relationship problems, the singer still has strong feelings of affection for her partner, and is unsure of how to deal with these emotions in the face of significant challenges.

To you
The singer's ambiguous feelings towards her partner cause her emotional pain, but she is unsure of what to do next in terms of the relationship.