Anti-Hero
Taylor Swift Lyrics

I have this thing where I get older but just never wiser
Despite aging, I am unable to gain wisdom.

Midnights become my afternoons
I find myself experiencing depression at all hours of the day.

When my depression works the graveyard shift
My depression becomes even more severe at night.

All of the people I've ghosted stand there in the room
My past actions of cutting off people from my life haunts me.

I should not be left to my own devices
I am aware of my tendency to make bad choices when alone.

They come with prices and vices
My bad choices come with consequences and negative habits.

I end up in crisis (tale as old as time)
I constantly find myself in difficult situations, which is not new to me.

I wake up screaming from dreaming
My nightmares are so intense that they affect me even after waking up.

One day I'll watch as you're leaving
I'm aware that my past actions will eventually push people away from me.

'Cause you got tired of my scheming (for the last time)
I know that my manipulative behaviors will not be tolerated forever.

It's me, hi, I'm the problem, it's me
I am aware that I am the source of my own problems.

At tea time, everybody agrees
Even in casual settings, it's known that I am the issue.

I'll stare directly at the sun but never in the mirror
I avoid looking at myself and recognizing my faults and reasons for my behavior.

It must be exhausting always rooting for the anti-hero
It is tiring to always act as the opposite of what is expected, contrary to conventional characters.

Sometimes I feel like everybody is a sexy baby
At times, I feel like everyone else is innocent yest attractive, except for me.

And I'm a monster on the hill
I feel like an outcast or someone who does not belong in society.

Too big to hang out, slowly lurching toward your favorite city
I feel like I am unable to fit in with people and cannot change that fact.

Pierced through the heart, but never killed
I have been hurt numerous times, but still remain protected and resilient.

Did you hear my covert narcissism I disguise as altruism
I alter my behavior to appear magnanimous, but it may be superficial.

Like some kind of congressman? (tale as old as time)
Politicains are known for similar behavior, despite its ethical implications.

And life will lose all its meaning (for the last time)
My manipulative behavior will eventually make me lose any true meaning or relationships in life.

I have this dream my daughter in-law kills me for the money
I have irrational fears about being murdered for my wealth.

She thinks I left them in the will
The imagined cause of my potential murder is based on a misunderstanding.

The family gathers 'round and reads it and then someone screams out
Rather than a peaceful resolution, a drastic and violent one is played out in my imagination.

'She's laughing up at us from hell'
My death would result in others being haunted and terrorized by me, even after passing.