Saturn
Sleeping at Last Lyrics
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How light carries on endlessly, even after death.
With shortness of breath, you explained the infinite.
How rare and beautiful it is to even exist.
I couldn't help but ask
For you to say it all again.
I tried to write it down
But I could never find a pen.
I'd give anything to hear
You say it one more time,
That the universe was made
Just to be seen by my eyes.
I couldn't help but ask
For you to say it all again.
I tried to write it down
But I could never find a pen.
I'd give anything to hear
You say it one more time,
That the universe was made
Just to be seen by my eyes.
With shortness of breath, I'll explain the infinite
How rare and beautiful it truly is that we exist.
The above lyrics are from Sleeping at Last's song Saturn, a beautiful and emotional tribute to the courage and wisdom imparted by someone important who has passed away. The opening lines "You taught me the courage of stars before you left" express the singer's gratitude for the influence of their loved one who has now departed. They go on to describe the way that light carries on endlessly, even after death, and how their loved one impressed upon them the infinite beauty and rarity of existence.
Despite the depth of the singer's understanding of this knowledge, they still long to hear it again, to have their loved one reaffirm what they already know to be true. The repeated lines "I couldn't help but ask for you to say it all again. I tried to write it down, but I could never find a pen. I'd give anything to hear you say it one more time, that the universe was made just to be seen by my eyes" illustrate this desire for reassurance and the depth of the singer's love for the person who is no longer with them.
Overall, these lyrics are a powerful expression of grief, love, and the deep human need to understand our place in the universe. They demonstrate the way that even after someone important to us has passed away, their influence can continue to guide us and shape the way we see the world.
Line by Line Meaning
You taught me the courage of stars before you left.
You inspired me with the strength and bravery of stars prior to your departure.
How light carries on endlessly, even after death.
Light persists infinitely, beyond the passing of life.
With shortness of breath, you explained the infinite.
With a sense of awe and wonder, you described the boundlessness of space.
How rare and beautiful it is to even exist.
It's a truly unique and stunning occurrence to simply be alive.
I couldn't help but ask
For you to say it all again.
I tried to write it down
But I could never find a pen.
I'd give anything to hear
You say it one more time,
That the universe was made
Just to be seen by my eyes.
I genuinely desire to hear your words once more, that the cosmos was crafted just for me to witness.
With shortness of breath, I'll explain the infinite
How rare and beautiful it truly is that we exist.
In the same manner, I'm in awe of existence, and I'll attempt to speak on the grandeur of the infinite cosmos and our existence within it.
Contributed by Sophie C. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@IMCYT
My girlfriend of a few years died exactly a month ago. This hits hard, because out of both of us, she is the wiser and more experienced one. She always taught me how special the universe and our circumstances are, and how lucky we are. It was beautiful and I always listened to her.
Everything went well until around June 2023, her best friend stole her life savings and ran away. It hits her like Hell and on one of her manic episodes, she hits her head too hard and suffers from a major TBI that renders her in a severe chronic headache and tons of problems, it was too much for her since she also had an underlying genetic heart problem. She held out until near midnight on 12th Feb, two days before valentine.
Even so, while she was dying slowly. She tried her best to push herself to do everything with me, so I don't have any regrets. So I could be happy without her once she's gone.
Rest in peace Mei.
27th July 2004 - 12th February 2024
You've done your best. I'll do my best to make you proud too.
@mijail619
You taught me the courage of stars before you left
How light carries on endlessly, even after death
With shortness of breath
You explained the infinite
And how rare and beautiful it is to even exist
I couldn't help but ask for you to say it all again
I tried to write it down, but I could never find a pen
I'd give anything to hear you say it one more time
That the universe was made just to be seen by my eyes
I couldn't help but ask for you to say it all again
I tried to write it down, but I could never find a pen
I'd give anything to hear you say it one more time
That the universe was made just to be seen by my eyes
With shortness of breath
I'll try to explain the infinite
And how rare and beautiful it is to even exist
With shortness of breath
I'll try to explain the infinite
And how rare and beautiful it truly is that we exist
@joannahovey1870
**TW: mention of suicide and self-harm**
My boyfriend of 5 years died by suicide last week, he was only 20 years old. He loved this song so much he got "how rare and beautiful it is to even exist" tattooed over his self-harm scars. This song, as well as all of Sleeping at Last's songs, kept him going for a long time. The first two lines hold a new meaning for me now: "You taught me the courage of stars before you left/How light carries on endlessly even after death." These lyrics give me hope that his light will continue to shine in my life even after he has died.
He was the most beautiful person to ever walk this Earth. He was kind to everyone no matter how well he knew them. He had a pure soul and a heart of gold. The world didn't deserve him.
**Edit** Wow, I am overwhelmed at the huge amount of love and support I have received from strangers on the internet!! I have been periodically liking uplifting comments and replying to a few, but mostly I have wanted to keep my privacy about the situation (aside from what I already shared). I was not expecting to get so many likes and comments! I wrote this comment on impulse when the wound was fresh and I was in immense pain, and I expected it to get lost in the sea of other comments. So thank you for your support and kindness!! You all have restored my faith in humanity.
**Update** It has now been almost six months since he passed away and I have been successfully dealing with PTSD from the trauma I experienced. I am in a much better place now then I was when I wrote this comment, and I thank you all for keeping me going during such a difficult time in my life. I’m glad my words mean something and can move others.
**Update #2** It’s been one year since he passed. I’m now able to look back on our memories and be happy, but I miss him every single day. His memory will live on with me and those whose lives he impacted. I really appreciate everyone’s kind words and I hope his story inspire others.
If you’re struggling with suicidal thoughts, please reach out for help! You can do this, and you are never alone. You are loved and wanted and needed. The world needs you.
Here are some resources:
Trevor Lifeline: 1-866-488-7386
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255
The Trevor Project is an amazing resource for LGBTQ+ youth. You can use their services even if you aren’t in crisis! Their lifeline has helped me get through some really tough stuff.
Please check on your friends and family members!! This pandemic has been tough for all of us but those with mental illness need a little extra care. We need to acknowledge secondary deaths caused by Covid and do what we can to help prevent them.
@mathildeantoine662
I just want to write this there. I do not know if someone is in the same situation as me, but I will say it anyway. My life is not that bad. I have not lost a loved one, I live comfortably, I have a stable situation. At home, I guess everything is going pretty well, despite the problems that everyone has. Only, I never felt like I was as alone as I am today. I do things, I watch things, I occupy myself, I work a little, and I live quietly, but nothing seems to fill the void that I feel. I feel like I'm doing everything, but nothing is useful, I'm just empty. And I feel so weak to feel that, because I have what you could call "the good life". I cry sometimes, but I don't know why, because nothing should make me cry. It is said that the most important thing is to do your best, to always try as much as possible. But I do not go to the end, I stop in the middle, and I can not do more. I have no passion, no talent, I live to live and that's it. I never confided in this way, I have no one close enough. Do I really have friends? No. I listen to them chat, and that's it. They talk, and I listen, but I never answer. And it's horrible, because people live in situations so much worse than me, but I just feel sad. All the time. and alone. finally here, I spoke and I said what I felt. (By the way, sorry for my english not always good, I don't speak fluently.) With that, have a nice day. If you don't feel well, cry, it doesn't make you weak. Kiss on your cheek, sweety.
"Kind of an update, I guess?
It's been 7 months since I first wrote this comment, and as you can see, i'm still not over this song haha.
I don't think that the people who first read my comment will find this again, but after all this time, I feel like writing again.
In general, I'm still the same, and I still feel the same. My life hasn't change, neither my feelings about it. But I think it's gonna be long until I can finally say that, yes, I've found myself, and I feel happy. But i'm not here to talk about me again. I just want to thanks every people who commented until this day. Even if not all of them were adapted to me, it really made me happy. I felt like I was not alone, and I even cried while reading some of them because I just want all those people to be happy. Even if you're all strangers to me and won't pass through that comment again, thank you. Thank you so much, and I hope from the bottom of my heart that one day you will finally feel happy, as you deserve.
(Sorry again, in seven months, I didn't get to be fluent x))
"you know what? why not. Today we are the 18th of february 2024 and it's been three years since i've first wrote this comment. I think I haven't heard this song in a year now. I was just looking for some music to listen to while working and found this song that made me feel so much. I saw this comment that I did when I was at one of the lowest point of my life, and thought that I could update it, even if i'm the only one to read it, a bit like a diary. So...Years have passed since my previous update and... a LOT of things changed, the most important thing probably being: I finally met my people. After years of spending hours and hours alone, with no friends and this idea that people could never love me, I met some of the most incredible person that showed me what love really was. What it was like to be loved for who you are. I'm still completely lost in life, last year as one, if not the roughest year i've ever been through, but I'm still here. I'm still here and I intend to fight with everything I have to be happy, to live a happy life. I know it's gonna be hard, and i'm probably gonna fail, but I think i'm ready to start taking care of myself. Please, take care of yourself. We'll make it, I promise.
@finley1604
I have always loved this song. I had this weird familiarity when I first heard it, even though I thought I had never lost anyone before. This is my story:
As long as I can remember, I've always wanted a sibling. My parents told me I was their only child but this inner longing stayed anyway. As a child, I have always been a mixture of boy and girl (in my behaviour, interests, taste of music, ..). I never questioned it because it felt so natural to me. But other people never knew what to think of me because I was so different from everyone else.
I struggled with loneliness, jealousy, being bullied, abandonment and I tended to cling to people once I felt I could trust them. Feelings like "I can't do this on my own" or the fear of the unknown got kind of intense there for a while. People told me to just "toughen up" and that made me feel overlooked and I pushed many people away. Because of that I had several depressive episodes and panic attacks in my teen years, no one seemed to truly want to understand me. It all got much better when I reconnected with my best friend from kindergarden and came to share many of the best memories of my life.
Thanks to her and deciding to go after my dream career, I slowly learned to trust myself and go out of my shell and truly felt like I was on the right path. I was, but nothing prepared me for what my soul was trying to tell me all along.
Two years ago in 2021, I was going through a rough patch again because of the pandemic and of all the hate going on in the world. After doing some healing and confiding in my friends, I started analysing my dreams and learned a lot about my subconscious. And months later in early 2022 I had this dream:
I was in our kitchen, talking to my parents when my phone lit up. It showed a direct message thread with someone I knew from school, telling me she was sorry that I lost my twin... I was shocked and couldn't speak. A lump formed in my throat as I read the messages of many other people I knew, all giving me their condolences. Eventually I broke down in my mother's arms and sometime during that I woke up, with tear stained cheeks while hearing a deep and soothing male voice in my head, telling me "I am so sorry, [my given name]"
I never had a dream like this before. It felt almost like a message. So I did some research and there they were, the words "vanishing twin". When I read the signs and symptoms, I broke down again. Now everything started to make sense:
- Why I was so obsessed with twins my whole childhood (the drawings ...)
- Why being watched by a ghost was my biggest fear as a child
- Why I had this deep grief and fear of letting things go
- Why I am a high sensitive person
- Why I always identified with characters who had a (missing or dead) brother
There were also "antecedents" before I had this prophetic dream. From receiving songs ("My Immortal", "Nuvole Bianche", "Spanish Sahara", "Run" by Snow Patrol, "Coming Home" by Falling in Reverse) to movies, series and videogames ("Beyond Two Souls", "LiS True Colors", "Vielmachglas", "Finding You", "Heavenly Delusion") ... they almost seem like guiding lights now, pointing me to the truth until I was ready to receive this dream.
At the beginning I started to question it ("Is this real?", "Am I going crazy?"). I called out to the universe "Is my experience real?" and the same day there was this song on the radio going "Yeah, you were right, you knew it all along" <3
The more I denied these signs at first, the more pain I experienced, even physical. There was this day in 2022 when I listened to Saturn and other songs, and this longing for my twin got so deep that my whole body started to hurt, almost as if someone amputated something from me. It literally felt like fire.
Over the past two years, I started my healing journey and I am doing much better now. Recently, I confided in my mom about this topic. I thought she would dismiss my feelings but she remembered having a bleeding before her first ultrasound, when she was pregnant with me, thinking that she lost me. What she lost was my other half. Fraternal twins also run in my family, go figure ...
I know now in my soul from what the universe is telling me that I had a fraternal twin brother. I call him Finn now 🤍
Thank you for creating a guiding light for so many people with this song, Ryan ✨️
Sending love to everyone who also connects with this topic. You are loved and not alone <3
Hugs,
Finley
@alisha-du3pr
"how rare and beautiful it is to even exist" i'll come back to this sentence whenever i feel like giving up bc this truly made me think differently
@lizandraramirez7801
I literally just said this sitting in my car. I wanna get it tattooed to remember forever
@zulfiqaradam3850
True
@iwontbesilenced2321
i literally thought that until i read lovecraft and all his pals.
@kalparis4056
It's sad that people can't find it in themselves to see each other as a valuable rare treasure.
@avery5602
I agree, it is a beautiful quote that hits deep
@davidefermo1466
“How rare and beautiful it is to even exist”
You’ve saved lives.
@wolfdontcare3980
He did 😭
@hiddenbiss
this.
@supertrooper3438
he has indeed, mine being one of them..