so lost tell me how can it be i'm desperately
trying to understand why i will push you from
me so close but so far away i cannot see how
this happened to me i'm so sorry to say
so lost for so long i cannot tell how in my
mind and what moment in time i woke up in this
cell so close yet so far away i cannot see how
this happened to me i'm so sorry to say
i want you to go away from me
i want you so much to stay with me

Overall Meaning

The first verse of Celldweller's song "So Sorry to Say" portrays a sense of confusion and concern over the singer's relationship with someone. The lines "so lost tell me how can it be / i'm desperately trying to understand why" highlight the feeling of being lost and trying to comprehend why the relationship is not working out. The next line "i will push you from me" shows that the singer is struggling with their own actions, possibly pushing their loved one away. The next line "so close but so far away" enforces the idea that although they may be physically close to their loved one, emotionally they are far away.

In the second verse, the singer is reflecting on how they got to the present situation. The line "so lost for so long i cannot tell how" suggests that the singer has been lost for a long period of time, possibly struggling with their own feelings. The line "in my mind and what moment in time i woke up in this cell" could suggest that the singer feels trapped, isolated or imprisoned in their current situation. The verse ends with "i want you to go away from me / i want you so much to stay with me" showing that the singer's feelings towards their loved one are conflicted and confusing.

In summary, "So Sorry to Say" portrays a complex relationship where the singer is struggling with their own feelings, leading to confusion and isolation from their loved one.

Line by Line Meaning

so lost tell me how can it be i'm desperately trying to understand why i will push you from me
Feeling mentally and emotionally lost, I am questioning how this situation came about and why I have the urge to distance myself from you.

so close but so far away i cannot see how this happened to me i'm so sorry to say
Physically near, but emotionally distant, I am struggling to comprehend how I ended up in this predicament and regretfully announce it.

so lost for so long i cannot tell how in my mind and what moment in time i woke up in this cell
Misplaced and confused for an extended amount of time, I cannot pinpoint the exact moment when my mental state deteriorated to the point of confinement.

so close yet so far away i cannot see how this happened to me i'm so sorry to say
Although physically near, the emotional disconnect created a distance I cannot see beyond, causing remorse and apology.

i want you to go away from me
I am in a state of emotional turmoil, causing me to express the opposite of my true desire.

i want you so much to stay with me
Despite my emotional turmoil, I secretly desire your presence and support.

Lyrics © Sentric Music
Written by: HENRY N. MANCINI, JOHNNY MERCER

Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind

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Most interesting comments from YouTube:

@anthro124

2y↑11

So lost, tell me how can it be?
Desperately trying,
to understand why,
I push you from me.

So close, but so far away.
I cannot see,
how this happened to me,
I'm so sorry to say!

So lost , For so long I cannot tell...
How in my mind,
and what moment in time,
I woke up in this cell.

So close, yet so far away!
I cannot see how,
this happened to me.
I'm so sorry to say!

I want you to go away from, from me!
I want you so much to stay with...ME!

I want you to go away from, from me!
I want you so much to stay with...ME!

...go away from, away from me!

...please stay with...ME!

...go away from, away from me!

...please stay with...ME!

I want you to go away!
I want you so much to stay!
So sorry to say!

I want you to go away!
I want you so much to stay!
So sorry to say!

I want you to go away from, from me!
I want you so much to stay with...ME!
So sorry to say!

I want you to go away from, from me! (So close, but so far away!)
I want you so much to stay with...ME!
So sorry to say!

I'm so sorry to say!

I'm to sorry to say!

Sorry!
Sorry, I'm so sorry to say!

(I cannot see how,
this happened to me.)

I'm so sorry to say!

@JackSeth

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@alexandreneves3371

3y↑63

I'm 32 now. Still remember when I listened to this at 15yrs old. I'll never forget Celldweller. Probably the only artist I have listened throughout my whole life without feelind of. This song, specially, brings me so good memories which, alongside Celldweller, shall never be forgotten!

@hkvtjvfg

2y↑1

Дж х

@4hdp3u64

@@hkvtjvfg жиза

@Xinuka

30w↑1

Same. Well, 32 now. And this is 2 years old, first time I found celldweller was from a game, I think need for speed hot pursuit 2. Have loved him since!

@1lovesoni

21w↑1

Yeah, this is absolutely my favorite Celldweller album. The others are good too, but this one is just special and nostalgic for me. There's only one other musical artist I've listened to for decades and never get tired of hearing (System of a Down). I can easily say that them and Celldweller are my 2 all-time favorite groups.

This specific song really reminds me of the feeling I had while ending a super toxic relationship with a manipulative/BPD ex-girlfriend. It perfectly captures that contradictory love/hate mixed emotion.

@country_boy7475

3y↑27

I agree the 1st Celldweller album is a masterpiece. True melding of real guitars and bass and drums and synthesizers and vocals. It hits me like no other album does. 🎸

@daBak93

6y↑46

I am never getting tired of this song

@FulgerTheDude

6y↑28

One of the most beautifully combined genres track.

@WildFire187

6y↑60

Been listening to this for years, definitely a favorite of mine. Reminds me a lot of Symboint.

@ratlinggull2223

5y↑1

Well, same album after all.

@raysin.st.5778

3y↑2

Why is this the only track never gettin a mix, is it too perfect, too well created to add to ?

@raysin.st.5778

Also same bro

@franciscocanabal9116

4y↑47

Honestly this should have 41M views.. its that good

@yuriallrider6432

3y↑2

If celldweller becomes popular it would become trendy. if it becomes trendy it would be ruined, like everything that becomes popular on the internet. Nothing short of 70% of the worlds lowest deadweight being blown off the face of this dying planet would fix a sin like that.

@yuriallrider6432

3y↑2

@Yuri Ohma Connor you have issues

@franciscocanabal9116

@@yuriallrider6432 k

@robberfokz375

@@yuriallrider6432 Jacob Collier is trendy, but it doesn't mean he is ruined.

@psycho4207

39w

@@yuriallrider6432 you have huge issues my friend.

@ScarletSho

6y↑15

God, this takes me back to the days of 2007 when one of my favorite video series was a COPS parody in GTA San Andreas Multiplayer

@danielivo5313

3y↑2

And for me, back when I used to play Warcraft and COD... good old days...

@REDARMOR

6y↑14

The best song from the best album. I remember the first time I listen to this was like a drug, I immediatly felt in love. I also like the new music/style, but I always though this was the best "style" or the best sound from celldweller and I hope some day you go back to this. Best wishes

@PrinceofDarkness_94

4y↑22

Klayton is a genuis..

@raysin.st.5778

Yess he is more than that, but off topic, him bring a genius and his music being worthy of being called true Art...
Why is this the only track never gettin a mix, is it too perfect, too well created to add to ⁉️⁉️⁉️

@machjac

6y↑51

I love how haunting this song can be! It really does sound like a person's inner thoughts...

@Arbeta10000

6y↑13

The entire album sounds like a person's inner thoughts to be honest. Kind of like having a person speak to themselves in multiple different voices.

@ChameleonKhNerd

6y↑10

You mean like a "Soundtrack for the voices in their head"?

@lordwhatshisname3408

2y↑2

Thats the albums theme. Being stuck inside the head of a jailed serial killer.

@matteodelapaz1698

2y↑1

@@lordwhatshisname3408 idk about a serial killer but it is a decent theory

@CipherFiveZero

6y↑40

First heard this song in the 2007 video game Crackdown on the Xbox 360, great game.

@Brandonpaniagua1

6y↑5

Same here...very great game

@bone9695

5y↑4

Same as well

@YY-nk6le

4y↑3

Same tbh

@cangaceirovei3968

4y↑3

Same

@GothicSnowLeopard

3y↑3

I recall the same experience with me, when I heard it I never stopped driving in game till it ended

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@ChameleonKhNerd

6y↑28

I think this is one of the more different songs on the album. It feels a bit... I dunno how to describe it... "softer"? That's not a bad thing.

@Complexity-lq9fp

3y↑4

Thank you Crackdown 1!

@yato6113

6y↑8

Indeed a beautiful piece of music, thank you a lot for creating this magnificent song. ^^

@drakemiller8080

3y↑6

The cool thing is this plays in crackdown.

@diraji57

6y↑3

One of my favorites

@ryebread1864

5y↑3

Truly Timeless

@anthro124

2y↑11

@speedyprincessturtle

47w

thank you

@bone9695

5y↑8

I love crackdown and it's brilliant sound track

@alejandromanriquezgonzalez8946

2y↑4

the best song
and the best song from Crackdown ;)

@SaraSyn

5y↑1

I used to listen this song non stop 😊

@taraxa287

3y↑1

Epic music, you made art!

@mayteexxis

4y↑1

1:52 my favorite part

@funtoria

6y↑11

Бальзам по проводам прямиком в мои ушки....мрр...клаааас....

@shawnrdavis2012

5y↑7

This song should be in CYBERPUNK 2077😍

@raysin.st.5778

Why is this the only track never gettin a mix, is it too perfect, too well created to add to ?

@titanic21

6y↑9

I am so sorry to say.

But I have abandoned your music quite a while ago.

This song brought me back.

Epic stuff.

But tell me:

What is your genre?

Is it Electro Metal or something?

@bonapart8453

6y↑20

It's celldweller {That's the genre}

@ruddthree8105

6y↑22

Klayton doesn't classify Celldweller into any one genre - there's a bit of everything, if you look hard enough - but the basic jist is industrial (a fusion of electronic and rock).

@titanic21

6y↑4

Totally love it and thanks for the responses.

@luciferstrykerdawson2967

Titanic21 it's his electronic rock orchestral sound design playground

@ratlinggull2223

Doesn't matter how many times he says 'electronic rock', it'd still be industrial to me.

@kandalgimza8124

3y↑3

That climax at 3:36

@-.MICHAEL.-

Почему я вспоминаю Террарию?

@frozen6952

Hah i played Flatout 2 Forever and i had heard this song there. I liked that

@notsure1969

5y↑2

I just heard this in "Mindhunters", a movie I had never seen before. Imagine my surprise.

@KN-xw6jc

5y↑2

Decent film, pretty good twist(s) I thought

@stevenmorris2234

Same. I came here as well because of that movie. Loved Mindhunters. Such an underrated movie.

@watchthesmoke2

32w↑1

Feels strange to hear without it getting interrupted by "Do I need to spell it out for you?
DO
NOT
KILL
INNOCENT
CIVILIANS"

@JackSeth

@jakethefox9439

5y↑1

The 6 people who disliked the video are sorry to say they disliked the song

@UnwindSpell912

My athemn when I'm in relations

@Brandonpaniagua1

4y↑6

Crackdown anyone?

@verruxlunox8438

3y↑1

Who stole 3m views from this track? >:(

@yuriallrider6432

Someone smart

@optimusprime7243

26w↑1

Anyone remember crackdown???

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