Vanishing Love
X Japan Lyrics

I'M BORED TO DEATH (GO MAD)
I am extremely bored and it makes me want to go crazy.

kabe ni tobi-chiru SPRINTER OF GLASS (SHED BLOOD)
I feel trapped and like I am hitting a brick wall, causing me to metaphorically shatter like glass and bleed out.

kaerimiru kako ni mushibamare chi wo nagasu
As I try to go back to my past, I am haunted by my regrets and I cannot help but to spill my blood in pain.

I COME TO MY SENSE (AT LAST)
Finally, I realize and come to my senses.

azakeri-warai OUTSIDER
I am mocked and laughed at for being an outsider.

subete kudake-chiru kaikan ni me wo samasu
As everything around me crumbles and shatters, I open my eyes to the sensation of it all.

kioku ni yaki-tsuku omae no
I burn the image of you into my memory.

sugata chi HEAD de haki-sutero
I forcefully throw up the image of you in my mind.

I DON'T WANNA VASHINING LOVE
I do not want to have a love that will fade away and vanish.

BREAK OUT OF (MY MOLD)
I need to break free from my current state of being.

kagami ni utsuru FALSE FACE (BREAK UP)
I see my false image reflected upon a mirror and it breaks apart.

mi-ushinai-kaketa yokubou wo baku-kesu toki
It is time to get rid of the desire that I have lost sight of.

MAKE A PAST (AT GIRL)
I am trying to create a history with this girl.

maboroshi ni mita A REAL KNOCK OUT
I saw a beautiful and unforgettable dream girl.

kichigai-jimita kairaku ni ake-kurero
I want to escape the insane and unlimited pleasure.

* karami-tsuku omae no genei wasurarenai kurushimi
I cannot forget the phantom of you that has become entangled with me, causing me pain.

chi-mayou kokoro no kakera wa kage mo katachi mo nai yume wo
My broken and confused heart cannot even form a shadow or shape of a dream.

ima mo oi-tsuzuiteru tsukurareta kyouki-yosooi
Even now, I am still addicted to the madness that was created.

"I CAN'T STAND"
I cannot deal with this any longer.

HOW I TRY TO DECEIVE MYSELF HOW
I am struggling to trick myself into thinking otherwise.

"WAITING FOR YOU"
Despite everything, I am still waiting for you to come back to me.

IF TEAR TURN IN TO BLOOD
The sadness that I carry inside is so heavy that my tears have turned to blood.

"CAN'T GET AWAY"
I cannot escape from this feeling of love and longing.

"PORTRAIT OF YOU"
The image of you is still etched in my mind.

NO MATTER WHAT YOU SAY
Your words will not change how I feel about you.

can't lose track of you I missed
I cannot forget you and what we had together.

# INJURY DEEP INSIDE MY HEART STILL REMAIN
Even now, the pain inside of me still exists.

CUT UP MY HEART, YOU LIVE
Even though you have hurt me, you still live in my heart.

IN MY ILLUSION YOU GO AWAY
In my false reality, I try to convince myself that you have left me.

I STAND ROOTED TO THE SPOT (2X)
I am frozen in place and cannot move forward.

(# repeat)
This line is a repetition of a previous line and its meaning does not differ.

(LAUGH AT ME) BEING AT MY WIT'S END
Others are mocking me while I am at my lowest point.

(LAUGH AT ME) EVEN IF IT'S A FORCED SMILE
Even if I am trying to pretend to be happy, people still laugh at me.

(LAUGH AT ME) BEING AT MY WIT'S END
Once again, others are mocking me while I am at my lowest point.