[myself under control] 吐き出された溜め息と　“ さよなら”
感覚鈍った　暑い夜に

Wake up
くだらない事ばかり溢れて　目を塞いだ
[I'd sell my soul]
燃え上がる傷負う魂
[heart like a hole]
失うものはないさ
儚く散りゆく為に　深く刻む

[此処は腐った楽園　矛盾だらけの青い空の下
『堕落』を愛す　爛れたすべてが突き刺さる
フィルター越しで観る世界　そこも破滅　３...２...１]

無邪気な君達は今誰の為綺麗な心を塞いだか　分からない

Wake up
[scene] 　ただ１つだけ手にするまでは　伝えたい
[I'd sell my soul]
揺らぎだす傷負う魂
[heart like a hole]
怖れる事はないさ
感覚を失うまで　先導け　深く

あの宙を眺めても見えない ... 輝き　忘れた
眠れる月と今　目醒める　だから ...

腐敗の青い炎　影を抉り　幻想の世界を描く
ゆがんだ世界に広がる　憂い　孤独を飲み込め

[I'd sell my soul]
儚く散りゆくすべてへ
[heart like a hole]
今ここで終われないさ
眠れない夜を越えて
輝く場所へ
硝子の夢を胸に抱き　壊れるまで...

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to D'espairsRay's song "Closer to ideal" speak of inner turmoil and the search for an ideal state of being. The song opens with a sigh and a farewell, conveying a sense of resignation and weariness. The singer seems to be struggling to keep their emotions in check, and the hot night exacerbates their numbness. The first verse sets the tone for the rest of the song, with the singer seemingly trapped in a state of aimlessness and restlessness.

The chorus contains several conflicting emotions, with the singer expressing a desire to sell their soul and simultaneously presenting a heart full of wounds and a sense of emptiness. The lyrics suggest that the singer feels that they have nothing left to lose, and that they embrace despair in order to find meaning. The chorus ends with the lines "For the sake of fleeting things, I carve them deeply", indicating that the singer is willing to sacrifice everything for a momentary glimpse of beauty.

The second verse speaks of a corrupted paradise and a sense of impending doom. The lyrics paint a picture of a world full of contradictions, one in which even innocent children are forced to hide their true selves. The scene is set against a backdrop of a blue sky, hinting at the possibility of hope amidst the chaos. The pre-chorus and chorus repeat, but with a stronger resolve to keep pushing forward towards the ideal despite the challenges.

Line by Line Meaning

[myself under control] 吐き出された溜め息と　“ さよなら” 感覚鈍った　暑い夜に
Even though I'm trying to keep myself under control, I am overwhelmed by a great sadness and say goodbye. My senses are dulled by the heat of the night.

Wake up くだらない事ばかり溢れて　目を塞いだ
Wake up from the constant stream of trivial things that flood my life, causing me to close my eyes.

[I'd sell my soul] 燃え上がる傷負う魂 [heart like a hole] 失うものはないさ儚く散りゆく為に　深く刻む
My soul burns with passion, even if it means I'll get hurt. I have nothing to lose, so I carve my deepest emotions into my being, knowing they'll fade away.

[此処は腐った楽園　矛盾だらけの青い空の下『堕落』を愛す　爛れたすべてが突き刺さるフィルター越しで観る世界　そこも破滅　３...２...１]
This place is a corrupt paradise, under a sky full of contradictions. I love the idea of 'decay,' and everything rotten pierces my soul. Even the world I see through the filter of my own thoughts is heading towards destruction, and the countdown has already begun.

無邪気な君達は今誰の為綺麗な心を塞いだか　分からない
I wonder who you innocent ones are trying to hide your pure hearts from now.

Wake up [scene] 　ただ１つだけ手にするまでは　伝えたい [I'd sell my soul] 揺らぎだす傷負う魂 [heart like a hole] 怖れる事はないさ感覚を失うまで　先導け　深く
Wake up and tell me what you want to say, until you can hold that one thing you desire. My shaken soul is still willing to take the lead until I lose all sense, and I'm not afraid of anything happening to my empty heart.

あの宙を眺めても見えない ... 輝き　忘れた眠れる月と今　目醒める　だから ...
Even though I gaze upon the vast expanse of sky, I can't see the radiance I once knew. But with the moon still shining and me now awake, I can remember ...

腐敗の青い炎　影を抉り　幻想の世界を描くゆがんだ世界に広がる　憂い　孤独を飲み込め
I carve out shadows with the blue flames of decay, drawing the world of my fantasies. The sadness that spreads through this twisted world is deep and palpable, but I'll swallow my loneliness and keep moving forward.

[I'd sell my soul] 儚く散りゆくすべてへ [heart like a hole] 今ここで終われないさ眠れない夜を越えて輝く場所へ硝子の夢を胸に抱き　壊れるまで...
I'd give everything fleeting up to protect it, and I won't let it end here. I'll cross the sleepless nights to reach a place that shines like a gem. I'll hold my fragile dreams within me until they shatter ...

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