victory
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Past me I murdered him
I have grown and changed from my past mistakes and no longer identify with who I used to be.

Fail then I learn again
With every failure comes a lesson and an opportunity to grow and improve.

Nothing is permanent
Everything in life is temporary and subject to change.

You haven't heard of this
This is a unique and personal experience that others may not understand or relate to.

Enter coordinates
I am searching for direction and purpose in my life.

I cannot get the location
I am lost and struggling to find my way.

Unfortunate
This situation is unfortunate and undesirable.

Try to be happy but this feels like torture it
Despite my efforts to find happiness, I am still struggling and feeling overwhelmed.

Damn
Expressing frustration or disappointment with the current situation.

Caught up in my head again
I am overthinking and becoming trapped in my own thoughts and emotions.

Wishing I was dead again
Feeling overwhelmed and hopeless to the point of suicidal ideation.

Sorry to my relatives
I apologize to my loved ones for the burden my struggles may cause them.

Fight or flight I fled again
Feeling a strong urge to escape or avoid a stressful situation.

Cover up the evidence
Trying to hide or conceal the mistakes or problems I am facing.

Too many failures
Experiencing repeated setbacks and feeling like success is unattainable.

I don’t think I’ll ever win
Feeling unmotivated and hopeless about the possibility of success in the future.

I'm not religious but God can you help me I'm praying I don't want to fail
Despite not being traditionally religious, I am seeking help and guidance from a higher power to avoid further failure.

I don't feel productive, I don't feel fulfillment, I roll up, I spark and inhale
Despite lacking productivity and fulfillment, I turn to substances to cope and escape my problems.

This doesn't bring me no peace
This coping mechanism is not providing any sense of peace or relief from my struggles.

Happiness left me like peace
Feeling like happiness is fleeting and has abandoned me, much like a sense of peace.

I'm trying to learn from mistakes in my past
Acknowledging past mistakes and using them as a learning opportunity for personal growth.

But I can't and that makes me feel weak
Feeling unable to overcome past mistakes and experiencing a sense of weakness and inadequacy because of it.

They say that I'm better than others but that doesn't matter I'm tryna be better than me
Acknowledging external validation, but striving for personal growth and improvement above all else.

Pull up to the party, I dip out like sorry I'm selfish and focused on me
Preferring to prioritize self-improvement and personal growth over socializing and partying.

I have been missing in action
Feeling absent or disconnected from my life and my goals.

I use my friends as distractions
Using social interactions and relationships as a way to avoid confronting personal issues and struggles.

I can’t control what the rest of you do to me but I control my reaction
Recognizing that while external factors may be beyond my control, I can choose how I respond and react to them.

This is that I don’t believe in me (Nope)
Experiencing a lack of self-confidence and self-doubt.

This is that people deceiving me (Yup)
Feeling betrayed or misled by others in my life.

This is that hustle exceedingly (Yup)
Acknowledging the need to work hard and strive for success despite obstacles and setbacks.

This is that nobody's beating me (Nope)
Refusing to be defeated by my struggles and obstacles.

This is that I have no friends (For real)
Feeling isolated and lacking social support and connections.

This is me cutting loose ends (For real)
Severing relationships and connections that are no longer beneficial or productive for personal growth.

This is me sad with no money (For real)
Experiencing financial difficulties and hardship, which contributes to feelings of sadness and stress.

Guess this is where I begin
Acknowledging the starting point for personal growth and making positive changes in one's life.

Tell you my truth you don't hear the words
Expressing a sense of feeling unheard or misunderstood when sharing personal struggles and experiences.

I have depression it keeps getting worse
Acknowledging and struggling with a mental health condition that contributes to feelings of hopelessness and despair.

And it only cease to exist when I work
Recognizing the need to actively work towards managing and improving mental health.

I feel like nothing I own is deserved
Experiencing imposter syndrome and a sense of unworthiness, even for accomplishments and possessions earned through hard work.

Go out and craft my reality
Taking charge of and actively working towards creating a positive and fulfilling life.

I feel like everyone’s mad at me
Experiencing feelings of guilt and social anxiety, imagining that others are angry or disappointed with me.

Trying to bring me down, gravity
Feeling pulled down and held back by external pressures and negative influences.

Want to be comfy financially
Desiring financial stability as a means of reducing stress and achieving personal goals.

I need more streams like substantially
Striving to improve and increase personal success and financial stability through creative ventures and career growth.

Another year went by
Feeling a sense of time passing and the need to make progress towards personal goals.

Not a thing got done
Feeling unproductive and unsuccessful in making progress towards personal goals.

I do not write all my music for fun
Acknowledging that personal struggles and emotions influence creative output.

Half of this shits just advice to myself
Using creative output as an opportunity to reflect on and advise personal struggles and challenges.

I wanna know I can win by myself
Desiring the ability to achieve personal success and growth through self-reliance and independence.

Daily excuses they make me feel useless
Recognizing and struggling with the patterns of self-sabotage and avoidance that contribute to feelings of inadequacy and hopelessness.

I conquered new land and I don’t want to lose it
Celebrating personal successes and growth, and striving to maintain that progress and build upon it.

I need new solutions, anxiety’s ruthless
Recognizing the need to seek out additional resources and support to manage and overcome anxiety.

Wish I could inspire but that seems elusive, Nah
Expressing a desire to inspire and motivate others, but struggling with feeling capable or effective in doing so.

Get out of my workshop
Demanding privacy and space to work and create without interference.

You can't see the vision
Feeling misunderstood or overlooked for one's creative vision and ideas.

Bird box
Referencing the popular film Bird Box, which centers around a group of people who must navigate a dangerous and unpredictable world while blindfolded.

I'm making music until I make history
Striving for creative excellence and success that will leave a lasting impact on the industry and culture.

Say what you want but I won't let it get to me
Acknowledging criticism and negativity, but refusing to let it affect personal motivation and drive.

Fresh and I get in her mouth call me Listerine
Boasting about personal success and achievement, using a metaphor of the brand Listerine as an expression of freshness and cleanliness.

Don’t know if I’m gonna fall for this trickery
Feeling skeptical or suspicious of outside influences and their potential impact on personal growth and success.

Someone call Scooby this shit is a mystery
Joking about the mysterious and confusing nature of personal struggles and obstacles, using the character Scooby-Doo as a reference to solving mysteries.

Shout out to misery
Recognizing the role that difficult experiences and personal struggles have played in personal growth and development.

Shout out to victory, Bitch
Celebrating personal successes and achievements, despite ongoing struggles and challenges.