The Diary
►Hollywood Undead Lyrics

Cause I don't wanna be like this
The singer is expressing their desire to change their current state.

I've been runnin' these streets
The singer has been wandering aimlessly for a long time.

For too long now
The singer feels as though they have been in this state for an unbearable amount of time.

I've got nothing that's true
The artist feels as though they have nothing real or authentic in their life.

But this song now
The only thing the artist can hold onto as true and genuine is their music.

But the further I go
The more the singer wanders, the more lost they feel.

I wanna go home
The singer longs for a place of safety and comfort.

I fuckin' swear that I care
The artist is self-aware of their lack of motivation and guilt for not being able to make a change.

But its hard when you stare
The artist is struggling with their addiction and feels unable to change.

Into the bottom of a bottle
The artist is turning to alcohol to cope with their problems.

That is empty and bare
The singer's addiction is not bringing them any comfort, but they continue to rely on it.

All my desolate soul
The artist's inner self is feeling empty and alone.

In my desolate home
The singer's physical space mirrors their internal state, and they feel alone and isolated.

It's my desolate role
The singer feels as though their current state is a part of who they are and cannot be changed.

Yeah I'm here all alone
The singer has no one to turn to and feels isolated from the rest of the world.

I can't think of a reason
The artist is struggling to find any motivation to get out of their current state.

To get the fuck out of bed
The artist cannot even bring themselves to get up and face the day.

Curtains closed, lights are off
The singer is living in a dark, depressing world.

Am I alive or dead?
The singer is struggling to feel anything at all and questioning their existence.

I haven't shaved in a week
The artist is showing signs of neglect and is not taking care of themselves.

I always slur when I speak
The artist's addiction is affecting their ability to communicate properly.

Tolerance at its peak
The artist's addiction has made them tolerant of large amounts of alcohol.

Another fit just to sleep
The singer is using alcohol to help them sleep.

Oh woe is me woe is me
The artist is wallowing in self-pity and feels sorry for themselves.

I guess I need love
The singer recognizes that they need someone to care for them and provide them with support and love.

Hoes ya see hoes ya see
The singer is using slang to indicate that they are surrounded by women who are unable to provide them with the emotional connection they need.

I'm just in a rut
The singer feels stuck in their current state and unable to move forward.

And I swear I'm tryin' baby please
The artist is begging for understanding and patience from those around them.

Baby don't leave
The artist is afraid of losing the people they care about due to their addiction and state of mind.

God-damn I'm a fuck-up
The singer is highly critical of themselves and feels like a failure.

But I guess that's just me
The singer is coming to terms with the fact that their current state is a part of who they are.

So I sit in my room
The artist is isolating themselves and refusing to face the world.

And I'll cry in my bed
The artist is experiencing intense emotions and sadness.

Thinkin' about all the shit
The artist is reflecting on their life and past experiences.

That made me wrong in my head
The singer recognizes that past experiences have contributed to their current mental state.

I keep tryin' to climb
The artist is attempting to make progress and move forward.

But it seems so steep
The path to recovery seems impossible and insurmountable.

Pour myself a fuckin' whisky
The singer is once again turning to alcohol to cope with their problems.

And go back to sleep, bitch
The singer is cursing at themselves and returning to their destructive patterns.

I watch my momma cry
The artist is witnessing the emotional pain they are causing their loved ones.

She says 'baby why?'
The artist's mother is questioning why their child is in this state.

I say 'baby died,
The singer is referencing the emotional pain they are feeling is akin to losing someone they loved.

Baby's gone like a suicide'
The singer is using metaphor to describe how they feel like they have lost a part of themselves.

I don't think you'll see him soon, mom
The artist feels as though they will not be able to recover from their current state anytime soon.

Stay out my room, mom
The artist is attempting to isolate themselves from the emotional pain their addiction causes their loved ones.

Tell daddy that I hate
The artist is expressing anger and resentment towards their father.

That mother fucker like you, mom
The singer is blaming their parents for their current state and is using derogatory language to express their frustration.

I sing this shit for you, Danny, Sasha and Jordan
The artist is dedicating their music to their loved ones as a way of expressing their love and desire to make things right.

These beers keep gettin' warmer
The singer is losing control of their addiction and is using alcohol to excess.

Every time that I hold her
The singer is using alcohol to numb the pain of losing someone they care about.

I pour this out for you
The singer is using alcohol to cope with their emotions and pain.

Like a partner in crime
The artist's addiction has become a constant companion and partner in their destructive patterns.

It's part of the times
The artist feels as though their addiction is a part of their generation and society.

When you're sick in the mind
The singer recognizes that their current state is due to mental illness and they are suffering.

Yeah I'm sick, oh so sick
The singer is acknowledging the severity of their illness and addiction.

I'm so sick of this shit
The artist is expressing their desire to change and move past their addictive patterns.

Yeah I'm lit, oh so lit
The artist is using slang to describe their level of drunkenness.

I'm so fucked up off it
The artist recognizes that their addiction is having a negative impact on their life and health.

So I stumble around
The singer is physically impaired due to their level of drunkenness.

Til I stumble fall down
The artist has lost complete control of their body due to their addiction.

To this puddle of my tears
The singer has reached a point where they are constantly crying and unable to control their emotions.

Layin' here on the ground
The singer is lying on the ground due to their physical and emotional exhaustion.

When you've got nothing left
The singer has reached a point of utter despair where they feel they have nothing left to give.

You've got nothing left to lose
The artist recognizes that they have hit rock bottom and have nothing else to lose.

With my last left single breath
The artist sees their life deteriorating and fears that they may not have much longer to live.

I'll still be singing to you
The singer finds solace and meaning in their music, and it is the one constant in their life.

So when you bury me man
The singer is facing their own mortality and is preparing for their eventual death.

You better bury me deep
The artist wants to be remembered and is asking for respect and dignity even in death.

And sing along to this song
The artist wants their loved ones to remember them and their music even after they are gone.

Because you're broken like me
The artist acknowledges that their loved ones are also struggling and feels a sense of common ground and shared experience with them.

And I know it's been so long
The singer feels as though they have been in this state for a very long time.

I was wrong, I was wrong
The artist is reflecting on past mistakes and taking responsibility for their current state.

I was wrong all along
The singer recognizes that their past mistakes have contributed to their current situation.

And I wanna go back to the start
The singer longs for a fresh start and the opportunity to change their current patterns.

Back where we started from
The singer longs for a simpler time, where their problems were not as severe.