duality
►Slipknot Lyrics

I push my fingers into my eyes
I cope with my emotional pain by inflicting physical pain upon myself

It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache
Self-harming is the only way I know how to dull the emotional pain

But it's made of all the things I have to take
However, the pain is a result of all the hardships and burdens I have to bear in my life

Jesus, it never ends, it works its way inside
The constant pain and suffering is unbearable and slowly consumes me from the inside

If the pain goes on
If this emotional pain continues to persist

I have screamed until my veins collapsed
I have expressed my anguish and pain through screaming until it physically hurt me

I've waited as my time's elapsed
I have been waiting for something to change for so long that my whole life has passed by

Now, all I do is live with so much hate
Now, I live with a constant feeling of hate and anger in my heart

I've wished for this, I've bitched at that
I have tried to change my circumstances by wishing and complaining about my problems

I've left behind this little fact
However, I cannot escape the truth that I cannot destroy what I did not create

You cannot kill what you did not create
I cannot end the pain that is a result of circumstances and situations that are out of my control

I've gotta say what I've gotta say
I need to speak my truth and express my emotions

And then, I swear, I'll go away
After I speak my mind, I promise to leave and not cause any further disturbance

But I can't promise you'll enjoy the noise
However, I cannot guarantee that the truth I speak will be pleasant and enjoyable for you to hear

I guess I'll save the best for last
I will hold on to the best parts of myself until the end

My future seems like one big past
I see my future as a continuation of my painful past experiences

You're left with me 'cause you left me no choice
You are still in my life because I had no choice but to live with the circumstances you have created for me

Put me back together
I am broken and in need of healing

Or separate the skin from bone
The pain is so unbearable that I would rather feel nothing at all, even if it means being physically hurt

Leave me all the pieces
If you cannot help me heal, just leave me to deal with my pain on my own

Then you can leave me alone
Once I am broken and alone, you can leave me to suffer in silence

Tell me the reality is better than the dream
Convince me that real life is better than the delusions and dreams I have created in my mind

But I found out the hard way
Unfortunately, I have learned through pain and experience that reality is often harsh

Nothing is what it seems
Things are not always what they appear to be

All I've got, all I've got is insane
I feel like I am going crazy and losing my mind, and it is all I have left