Because of You
♫ Kelly Clarkson Lyrics

I will not make
I won't repeat the same mistakes you made.

The same mistakes that you did
I won't commit the same errors and misjudgments that you did.

I will not let myself
I won't allow myself to fall into the same trap you did.

Cause my heart so much misery
I won't let my heart endure the agony you went through.

I will not break
I won't collapse and crumble like you did.

The way you did, you fell so hard
I won't succumb to failure like you did.

I've learned the hard way
I've learned through difficult experiences and hardships.

To never let it get that far
To never allow situations to escalate to the point of no return.

Because of you
As a consequence of your actions and behavior.

I never stray too far from the sidewalk
I avoid taking unnecessary risks and play it safe in life.

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
I learned to avoid danger and protect myself from pain.

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
I struggle to believe in myself and others, due to the lack of trust I experienced in the past.

I am afraid
I am filled with fear and anxiety.

I lose my way
I get off track and confused.

And it's not too long before you point it out
You quickly bring my shortcomings to my attention.

I cannot cry
I can't express my emotions because you consider it a sign of weakness.

Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
Because I understand that you view crying as a sign of being weak.

I'm forced to fake
I have to pretend to be happy and put on a facade.

A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
I act cheerful and happy each day, even if I don't feel that way inside.

My heart can't possibly break
My heart can't be broken because it was already shattered.

When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because my heart was always damaged and broken, to begin with.

I watched you die
I saw as you slowly faded away and lost your true self.

I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I listened to you weep and sob every night, even in your dreams.

I was so young
I was too young and inexperienced to handle your problems.

You should have known
You should have been aware and considered the consequences of your actions.

Better than to lean on me
You shouldn't have relied on me for support and comfort.

You never thought of anyone else
You only thought of yourself and didn't consider how your actions affected others.

You just saw your pain
You only focused on your own suffering and couldn't see the pain you caused others.

And now I cry in the middle of the night
And now I experience the same pain and suffering you did.

For the same damn thing
For the identical type of pain and torment that you went through.

I try my hardest just to forget everything
I make an effort to forget everything that happened and move on.

I don't know how to let anyone else in
I struggle to open up to others and let them into my life, due to the lack of trust.

I'm ashamed of my life
I feel humiliated and embarrassed about my own life due to the pain and trauma you caused.

Because it's empty
Because my life feels devoid of meaning and fulfillment.

Because of you
Because of the impact you had on my life.

I am afraid
I am filled with fear and apprehension.

Because of you
Because of the influence and effect you had on my life.