Not Fill
川田まみ Lyrics

The first paragraph of the lyrics describes a situation where the singer feels like the sand they had scooped up slips out of their hands, as if mocking and laughing at them. The sensation of the sand slipping away disappears from their palm as soon as it is felt, leaving only a lingering feeling. The singer questions if this feeling is a remnant of a prank played by reality or a fragment of a dream that they still sleep in. Despite trying to suppress their emotions, they cannot help but face them and desperately close their eyes, begging to be able to fall asleep. The lyrics suggest that the singer longs for the pleasure they have lost, more so than the joy they have experienced when touched.

In the second paragraph, a vivid image of a swollen full moon that will eventually wane is presented. The singer casually overlaps a passing sense of loneliness onto this moon. They express the desire to be taken away by a sudden and assaulting phantom. They no longer wish to return but instead seek the fleetingness that surpasses the tranquility of being fulfilled. The lyrics convey the idea of searching for something ephemeral, even if it means singing about it. In this state, the singer believes that people will never be satisfied and will continue to wander down a path that tilts and leads to sleep.

The third paragraph ponders what would happen if they were able to reach the transience that has escaped them. The lyrics state that if one day the singer can touch the fleetingness that has escaped them, they will continue to search for it and live on. The lyrics express the notion that if things were to remain as they are, people would likely remain unfulfilled and continue to sleep as they lean towards the wandering path. They describe throwing themselves into sadness and questioning if morning will ever come when they wake up one day.

In the final paragraph, the lyrics reiterate the desire to search for and live with the yearning for the pleasure they have lost, rather than settling for the joy they have experienced when touched. The singer compares their state of drowning and getting wet in the deep sea formed by the tears shed, and yet they still swim. The repeating phrase "あぁ" signifies a mixture of longing and exasperation, emphasizing the emotional intensity of the song. The lyrics convey the idea that despite the struggles and losses, the singer continues to live, swim, and search for fulfillment in the vast sea of tears.