こんな私じゃなかったに
神楽坂はん子 Lyrics

These lyrics of "こんな私じゃなかったに" by 神楽坂はん子 portray a woman who is alone in a vast world and wonders why the person she loves is so adorable. She confesses that she cannot help but secretly cry at the thought of her affection for him while she rests her cheeks on his sleeping face. She ponders what her life would have been like if she didn't fall in love, wishing to revert to her old self. Even in her dreamy nights, she imagines meeting the person she loves and getting embraced in his hot hands. She feels ashamed of her little red night dress and regrets that she never used to be this way. Then, on yet another sleepless night, she counts down the minutes until she sees him again, her fingers wet with tears and her face weathered with sorrow. The gentle breeze from the willows at the gate only makes her feel the urge to call out to him, or perhaps hide her feelings away once again.

The song portrays a woman who is lost in love, who is confused and clueless about her newfound feelings, and who is unable to handle the enormity of the situation. She is consumed by her emotions and struggles to express them. The poetic expressions used in the lyrics help create a sense of longing and sorrow, making it easy to empathize with her emotions.