Heavy
06. Tech N9ne Lyrics

Deformity, a bodily malformation, check
The person has a bodily malformation.

Distortion, or disfigurement, check
The person has a distortion or disfigurement.

A Deform, person or thing, check
The person has a deformity.

Gross, ugliness, check
The deformity is gross and ugly.

I don't wanna take this, I don't wanna carry this
The person doesn't want to carry the burden of their deformity.

I don't wanna lift this
The person doesn't want to lift the burden of their deformity.

Everyday, when I wake, wish there was I way that I can rip this
The person wishes they could remove their deformity every day.

Off of my shoulder off of my back, like a big boulder got me off track
The person's deformity feels like a heavy burden weighing them down.

I don't wanna be seen lookin like that
The person is ashamed of their deformity and doesn't want to be seen.

I'm looking at it, it's mean lookin right back
The person is confronted by their deformity every time they look at it.

Ugly, bloody, pussin, heavy
The deformity is ugly, bloody, pus-filled, and heavy.

Way more sinister than the face of Jason or fucking Freddy
The deformity is scarier than the faces of Jason and Freddy from horror movies.

And that shit ways me down, got me going crazy now
The deformity is mentally and physically weighing the person down and driving them crazy.

Lazy round me place, cause I got shit right side of my face
The person can't go out or do much because of their deformity on the right side of their face.

How did I get it? How did I grow it how do I cock back and just blow it
The person doesn't know how they got their deformity, and wishes they could just make it go away.

Off? Surgery yes you know it cost and I ain't goin out to show it off
The person knows surgery is an option to remove the deformity but it is expensive and they don't want to show it off.

I'm just stuck in here, with this fuckin weird stuff in near
The person is stuck with their weird deformity which is near them.

Crushin, pussin, bustin till it up and clears
The deformity feels like it's crushing, oozing pus, and about to burst until it clears up.

I'm ready, it's wicked, it's gotta be, deadly
The person is ready to face the wicked, deadly consequences of their deformity.

It's everything you could imagine, bad, twisted, evil and medly
The deformity is everything bad, twisted, evil, and mixed together.

Down into eternal fire, this is where it lead me
The person feels like their deformity is leading them towards eternal suffering.

Can hardly hold it up because this thing is so fucking heavy
The person struggles to carry their heavy, burdensome deformity.

Eww, that's gross, yuck, what's that? Oh my god
People react with disgust and horror at the sight of the person's deformity.

Disgusting, repulsive, what
The deformity is disgusting and repulsive.

The fuck?
The person is taken aback by people's reactions.

It's not a tumor, fuck the rumor, I need more to go, stop staring at this
The person clarifies that their deformity is not a tumor and wishes people would stop staring at it.

Muthafucking side show
The person feels like they are a sideshow attraction.

Everyone you love got needs
The people the person loves also have their own needs and problems to deal with.

I'll shove start to buckle at the kness
The weight of the deformity is causing the person to buckle at the knees.

My lord said this slow heal carry and if it don't then it might get scary
The person believes they are meant to carry the burden of their deformity, but it may become scary if they can't handle it.

Gotta cover it up, gotta go outside to get food
The person has to cover up their deformity to go outside and get food.

How when the smell is like shit stew?
The smell of the deformity makes it difficult for the person to go outside and get food.

The way people are staring and lookin it gets cruel
People's staring and cruel reactions make it harder for the person to deal with their deformity.

Bad when I'm shoppin, at the walmart
People's reactions are particularly bad when the person goes shopping at Walmart.

They be laughin, then a brawl starts
People's reactions sometimes escalate into violence.

Cause they wanna pick on a muthafucker with deformities, bless yall heart
People pick on the person because of their deformity, and the person doesn't hold it against them.

I'm sick of it, when it's on my back I can't even get a women to kiss on this
The person is sick of people's reactions, and their deformity is so bad that women don't even want to kiss them.

I don't even want to live on this, place
The person feels like their deformity makes life not worth living.

Because all people givin is, hate
People's reactions towards the person's deformity are hateful.

And your really gonna get it bad if your, disfigured
People with disfigurements get treated especially badly.

The more these sick gigglers, pointed my heavy load it gets bigger
People's laughing and pointing at the person's deformity makes the person feel like the weight of the burden is increasing.

They call me hunchback and I wish they wouldn't taunt that
People call the person a hunchback and the person wishes they wouldn't mock them for it.

They be lookin at a nigga like I woke up and showin straight up shittin in
People are looking at the person like they have something disgusting on them.

They lunch sack
People's reactions are so bad that it ruins the person's appetite.

Kids, grown ups, dogs, cats
People and animals of all ages react to the person's deformity.

All be lookin and pointing at this deformity on my back
Everyone is looking at and pointing at the person's deformity on their back.

Taking over me, I'm slowly, turning into it
The person feels like their deformity is taking over their life and becoming a part of them.

This repulsive, nasty, heavy, sick, humongous pile of shit
The person's deformity is repulsive, nasty, heavy, sick, and feels like a humongous pile of shit.

Under my skin, infecting my blood like I have some kind of disease, it's
The person's deformity feels like it's under their skin, infecting their blood like a disease.

Big and bulgin out of my jacket and everybody sees it
The person's deformity is big and bulging out of their jacket, and everyone can see it.

What is it? with this load I carry there's problems in my life
The person's deformity is a heavy burden that is causing problems in their life.

Got big problems with the IRS and problems with my wife
The person has other big problems with the IRS and their wife in addition to their deformity.

Got a lot of problems with this music career, problems with my mom
The person has problems with their music career and their mom in addition to their deformity.

And I gotta solve em quick they fallen on me
All of these problems are piling up and the person feels like they need to solve them quickly.

It's a problem with this shit on, and it's heavy
The person's deformity is a problem because it's heavy and weighs them down.

When everybody depends on you to be the shot caller
The person feels like everyone is depending on them to be the decision-maker.

And you pushin, tryin to get all of your people over the wall, but the shit
The person is trying to help their people, but their deformity is making it harder.

Got taller
The burden of the person's deformity is growing and becoming harder to bear.

But you tough and determined, you rough and you learnin, you cannot do if
The person is tough and determined, and won't give up even when things are hard.

You not baller
The person won't give up even if they're not perfect or successful.

So you get it and hit it one after another and look, the lump got smaller
The person perseveres and keeps fighting even when the burden seems insurmountable, and eventually their deformity gets smaller.