Bliss
1. Tenneb Lyrics

If I could change the fact
If I had the power to alter reality

That I'm just a hypocrite
That I am not true to my beliefs

I might've shown more tact
I could have been more considerate

And meant every word of it
And truly believed in what I said

And I've been sorry
And I have expressed remorse

I've been so fucking sorry
I have deeply regretted my actions

That I've been killing off my body
That I have been damaging my health

I really know I need to act my age
I am aware that I should behave more maturely

But I'm just fucking afraid
But I am overcome with fear

I should be pushing up daisies
I should be dead

And I know that I can't run that fast
And I am aware that I cannot escape my problems easily

But I can still look past
But I can still ignore what's in front of me

And Keep ignoring the facts for now
And continue to refuse to acknowledge the truth at the moment

Pull the gun; become iconoclast
Take a gun and rebel against society's norms

Put it to my temple and blast
Point the gun at my head and shoot

But I'm still floating here somehow
But I am still alive and not yet dead

It's all pretend
My life feels like a facade

I didn't live, didn't exist
I feel like I have not truly lived or existed

I'm just a lost cause
I feel like I am beyond help

Looking for something bliss
Searching for a state of happiness

Sitting alone how do I move on
Feeling helpless and unable to move forward

From this broken home?
From this dysfunctional living environment

The killing disease, infectious pleads
The destructive illness and desperate cries for help

Let me cure my soul
Allow me to heal my inner being

And find a place I can call home
And discover a sense of belonging

It's never easy saying "fuck It, I'm over it"
It's never easy to give up and move on

Fail to tell the truth
Unable to speak the truth

Cause lies always seem to fit
Because lies are easier to accept and believe in

Pull it out, pull the knife out
Remove the object that is causing pain

It's misleading me somehow
It is leading me astray

I don't care
I am indifferent

Just how it feels
Only caring about my emotions

To lay beneath
To be in a state of emotional distress

It always feels
It consistently feels this way

Like I can't breathe
Like I am suffocating

Cause everything
Because of everything

Is smothering me
Everything feels overwhelming and suffocating