VALIUM
17th Boulevard Lyrics

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I am not alright I started to lose my mind
I'm sick of being sick I'm exhausted
A bloody cross made out of broken bones

What am I praying for?
For better days? For a hotter sun?
For a better life?
A life I can stand without Valium

I'm feeling a pressure around my neck
Don't touch me I'm ok

I am not alright I started to lose my soul
I am sick of being sick
A bloody cross made out of broken bones

What am I praying for?
For better Friends? For colder nights?
For a better life?
A Life I can stand without Valium

My eyecolor turn from skyblue to bloodred
I'm not dying I'm choking.

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to "Valium" by 17th Boulevard suggest a sense of desperation and struggle. The singer seems to be dealing with complex emotions and feelings of being trapped, overwhelmed, and seeking relief from their pain. The line "I am not alright I started to lose my mind" sets the tone for the rest of the song, indicating that the singer is struggling with their mental health.

The line "A bloody cross made out of broken bones" is particularly impactful, suggesting that the singer is experiencing physical and emotional pain. The use of the word "bloody" evokes a sense of violence or trauma, while the reference to a cross could be interpreted as a symbol of redemption or a plea for salvation. The use of the phrase "broken bones" reinforces the theme of suffering and distress, suggesting that the singer has been broken down emotionally and physically.

The chorus of the song is particularly cathartic, with the singer questioning what they are praying for and expressing a desire for a better life, free from the need for Valium. The line "My eyecolor turn from skyblue to bloodred" is a powerful image, indicating that the singer's emotions are overwhelming them to the point of physical transformation.

Overall, "Valium" is a song that speaks to the struggles of mental health and the need for coping mechanisms. The lyrics are poignant and raw, and will likely resonate with anyone who has experienced pain or trauma.

Line by Line Meaning

I am not alright I started to lose my mind
I am struggling mentally and feeling like I am losing control.

I'm sick of being sick I'm exhausted
I am tired of feeling unwell and drained.

A bloody cross made out of broken bones
A violent and painful symbol.

What am I praying for?
Questioning the purpose and effectiveness of prayer.

For better days? For a hotter sun?
Wondering if things will ever improve and if there will ever be happiness in life.

For a better life?
Asking for a life that is worth living.

A life I can stand without Valium
Desiring a life without needing medication to cope.

I'm feeling a pressure around my neck
Feeling suffocated and overwhelmed.

Don't touch me I'm ok
Pushing people away while trying to maintain a facade of being okay.

I am not alright I started to lose my soul
Feeling like I am losing my sense of self and identity.

A bloody cross made out of broken bones
A repeated violent and painful symbol.

What am I praying for?
Continuing to question the purpose and effectiveness of prayer.

For better Friends? For colder nights?
Asking for people who truly care and may bring comfort, and perhaps the 'colder' nights represent a release from feeling overwhelmed.

My eyecolor turn from skyblue to bloodred
A vivid and distressing metaphor representing intense emotions, pain, and possibly tears/seeming less present.

I'm not dying I'm choking.
Clarifying that I am not literally dying but still feeling overwhelmed and struggling to cope.

Contributed by Sydney G. Suggest a correction in the comments below.

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