Dying To Live
2Pac ft. Notorious B.I.G Lyrics

And I wonder if they'll laugh when I'm dead?
I am contemplating if people will ridicule me after I die.

Why am I fighting to live, if I'm just living to fight?
I am questioning why I am putting in effort to survive if life brings nothing but struggle.

Why am I trying to see, when there ain't nothing in sight?
I am questioning why I keep searching for direction when there is no clear path ahead.

Why am I trying to give, when no one gives me a try?
I am questioning why I continue to offer my help when nobody gives me a chance.

Why am I dying to live, if I'm just living to die?
I am questioning why I am so desperate to prolong my life when ultimately, death is inevitable.

Check it, I grew up a fuckin' screw-up
Listen carefully, I have had a rough upbringing.

Got introduced to the game, got a ounce and fuckin' blew up
I became involved in the drug trade, gained an ounce of drugs and quickly became successful.

Choppin' rocks overnight
I worked tirelessly to process drugs.

The nigga Biggie Smalls trying to turn into the black Frank White
My friend Biggie Smalls was attempting to become a successful drug lord like Frank White in the movie King of New York.

We had to grow dreads to change our description
To avoid being caught by the police, we grew dreadlocks to look different.

Two cops is on the milk box missing
The police are searching for two missing officers who were last seen pursuing us.

Show they toes you know they got stepped on
If the police are exposed or vulnerable, they are likely to face danger.

A fist full of bullets a chest full of Teflon
We have a large number of bullets and wear bulletproof vests.

Run from the police picture that, nigga I'm too fat
Running away from the police would be foolish because I am overweight and would quickly become tired.

I fuck around and catch a asthma attack
I might end up suffering from an asthma attack due to the physical exertion of escaping the police.

That's why I bust back, it don't phase me
I shoot at the police without hesitation because I am not afraid of them.

When he drop, take his Glock, and I'm Swayze
If an officer is killed, I will take his gun and then flee the scene, just like Patrick Swayze's character in the movie Road House.

Celebrate my escape, sold the Glock, bought some weight
After escaping from the police, I celebrate by selling my stolen gun and using the money to purchase more drugs.

Lay back, I got some money to make, motherfucker
I am going to relax now that I have made some money, and prepare for future drug deals.

It's on me
I am responsible for my own actions.

But still I'm having memories of high speed when the cops crashed
I have vivid recollections of evading the police at high speeds until they had a car accident and could no longer pursue us.

As I laugh, pushing the gas while my Glocks blast
I chuckle as I speed away and fire my gun at the police.

We was young and we was dumb, but we had heart
Although we were foolish, we were brave and bold.

In the dark, will we survive through the bad parts
During difficult times, we rely on our courage and determination to pull through.

Many dreams is what I had, and plenty wishes
I have many aspirations and desires.

No hesitation in extermination of these snitches
I don't hesitate to kill anyone who informs the police of our wrongdoing.

Envious bitches, they still continue to pursue me
Women who are jealous of my success and lifestyle still try to get close to me.

A couple of movies, now the whole world's trying to screw me
After being featured in a couple of movies, people are now trying to take advantage of me.

Even the cops tried to sue me, so what can I do?
The police even filed a lawsuit against me, so there's nothing I can really do about it.

But stay true, sipping 22's of brew
I will remain loyal to my lifestyle and continue to drink 22-ounce bottles of beer.

And now media is trying to test me
The media is attempting to provoke me into reacting in a violent or unlawful manner.

Got the press asking questions, trying to stress me
I am being bombarded with questions from the press, and their probing is causing me a lot of anxiety and frustration.

Misery is all I see, that's my mind state
I am currently experiencing a lot of sadness and difficulties in my life.

My history with the police will shake the crime rate
My past encounters with the police have had a strong impact on crime in the area.

My main man had two strikes, slipped, got arrested and flipped
My close friend had two prior felony convictions, made a mistake, was arrested, and became an informant for the police.

He screamed "thug life" and emptied the clip
He shouted his allegiance to the gangster lifestyle and fired all of his remaining bullets.

Got tired of running from the police
He grew tired of constantly evading the police and living a life of crime.