Dying To Live
2 Pac & Notorious B.I.G Lyrics

And I wonder if they'll laugh when I'm dead?
Do they want me to fail so they can mock me after my death?

Why am I fighting to live, if I'm just living to fight?
What's the point of struggling to survive if my only purpose is to keep fighting?

Why am I trying to see, when there ain't nothing in sight?
What's the use of searching for a vision when there's nothing to find?

Why am I trying to give, when no one gives me a try?
Why should I keep offering my help when nobody gives me a chance to prove it?

Why am I dying to live, if I'm just living to die?
Why am I struggling to stay alive if the only thing waiting for me is death?

Check it, I grew up a fuckin' screw-up
Look, I had a rough upbringing and made a lot of mistakes.

Got introduced to the game, got a ounce and fuckin' blew up
I got involved in the drug trade and quickly became successful.

Choppin' rocks overnight
I spent countless nights cutting and preparing crack cocaine for sale.

The nigga Biggie Smalls trying to turn into the black Frank White
My friend Biggie Smalls was trying to emulate his favorite movie character, Frank White, who was a successful drug lord.

We had to grow dreads to change our description
We grew dreadlocks to alter our appearance and avoid being identified by the police.

Two cops is on the milk box missing
Two police officers are missing and their faces are on milk cartons.

Show they toes you know they got stepped on
If they show their toes, you'll know they were killed violently.

A fist full of bullets a chest full of Teflon
We carried guns with bullets coated in Teflon to make them more deadly and harder to detect by metal detectors.

Run from the police picture that, nigga I'm too fat
I can't run from the police because I'm overweight.

I fuck around and catch a asthma attack
I might have an asthma attack if I try to run.

That's why I bust back, it don't phase me
That's why I shoot back at the police, because I'm not afraid of the consequences.

When he drop, take his Glock, and I'm Swayze
When the police officer falls, I'll take his gun and disappear like Patrick Swayze in the movie 'Ghost'.

Celebrate my escape, sold the Glock, bought some weight
I celebrate my escape from the police by selling the gun and purchasing more drugs to sell.

Lay back, I got some money to make, motherfucker
I'll relax and wait for the next opportunity to make more money.

It's on me
I take full responsibility for my actions.

But still I'm having memories of high speed when the cops crashed
But I still remember running from the police at high speeds and crashing.

As I laugh, pushing the gas while my Glocks blast
As I laugh, I step on the gas and shoot my gun at the same time.

We was young and we was dumb, but we had heart
We were young and foolish, but we were brave and determined.

In the dark, will we survive through the bad parts
We'll have to rely on our instincts to survive the dangerous moments.

Many dreams is what I had, and plenty wishes
I had many dreams and aspirations, and many things I wished for.

No hesitation in extermination of these snitches
I'll kill anyone who betrays us or cooperates with the police.

Envious bitches, they still continue to pursue me
Women who are jealous of my success still try to get close to me.

A couple of movies, now the whole world's trying to screw me
Because of my fame and success, everyone is now trying to exploit and take advantage of me.

Even the cops tried to sue me, so what can I do?
Even the police are trying to take legal action against me, so I feel helpless.

But stay true, sipping 22's of brew
But I'll stay true to myself, drinking malt liquor to take the edge off.

And now media is trying to test me
Now the media is trying to provoke and challenge me.

Got the press asking questions, trying to stress me
Reporters are asking me difficult questions and trying to get under my skin.

Misery is all I see, that's my mind state
I'm in a constant state of misery and sadness.

My history with the police will shake the crime rate
My past interactions with the police will have a significant impact on crime statistics.

My main man had two strikes, slipped, got arrested and flipped
My close friend had two convictions on his record, made a mistake, got caught, and became a police informant.

He screamed 'thug life' and emptied the clip
In a final act of rebellion, he shouted 'thug life' and fired all his remaining bullets.

Got tired of running from the police
He got tired of constantly evading and hiding from law enforcement.