Eden
3. Homestuck Lyrics

Both my parents raised me
My upbringing was provided by my mother and father

Taught me how to
They instructed me in the ways that I should behave

Be a good kid
They raised me to be a well-behaved child

As a baby
Even from my infancy

Mom and dad
My mother and father

Doing all they can
Worked tirelessly to support me

On the daily
Every single day

Now I ain't saying
I'm not claiming

We was whipping
We were not driving

Cars like Mercedes
Fancy cars like Mercedes-Benz

But they made sure
But they ensured

To show me
That I was taught

Peace love and safety
Values such as peace, love and safety

But lately I've
But recently I have

Been going through
Been experiencing

Darkness man it's shady
A gloomy and suspect situation

Everything in my life
All aspects of my existence

Turned around it's crazy
Has changed in an extraordinary way

I experienced all
I underwent every

Kinds of pain but listen
Sorts of distress, take heed

Underlying sin in my heart
Sinfulness in my heart, underlying

But I couldn't say
However, I could not articulate

What it is
What that sin is

But I knew about
Yet, I was aware of

The things I did
My actions

See everybody thinks
People generally believe

That I'm this
That I am seen as

Happy picture of a kid
A cheerful image of a child

But they don't understand
However, they do not realize

My struggle with sin
My fight against sinfulness

Man I got
I must

To keep composure
Maintain my self-control

Because I can
Because I am able

Feel the weight
Sensed the burden

Of my past
Of my previous experiences

On my shoulders
Heavy on my conscience

Man this winter cold
This winter season is cold

But it keeps getting colder
And it only grows colder

Running out of time
Time is running out

Because I keep getting older
As I age

Trying to fight
Attempting to combat

My battles on my own
My own struggles

Like a soldier
In a manner befitting a fighter

Ain't walking
I am unable to

In the spirit
With the Holy Spirit

I'll never succeed
I shall never triumph

I'll just remain feeling lost
Merely feeling aimless

And I'll never be free
And shall never be unchained

I know he's calling my name
I am aware he has called me

But I ain't
Yet, I have not

Moving my feet
Moved physically

What if I
Suppose I

Give all I have
Offer every resource I possess

Just to fall
Only to collapse

To my knees
On my knees

Because I've been trying
Because I have attempted

For so long
For a prolonged period

But nothing works
But no success yet

Darkness filling my room
The darkness permeating my quarters

And it keeps getting worse
And it deteriorates continuously

I even struggle
I even find it challenging

Just thinking I
Merely considering that I

Belong in the church
Belong within the church community

Because all my
However, all my

Thoughts in my head
Thoughts within my mind

Tell me that
Convinced me that

I am a curse
I am accursed

That I'm a
I am a

Failure and a fraud
A person who is both unsuccessful and deceitful

I'm just a
I am merely a

Little fat kid
Overweight child

That sucks at writing bars
Who is poor at creating lyrics

A failure to my friends
An individual who fails their companions

Family and my mom
And even my mother

I'll never see a victory
I will never attain triumph

And get closer to God
And draw nearer to God

Man I just need
I simply lack

Time, but I'm losing it
Time, but it slips away

Killing myself with the flesh
Destruction of myself with my physical desires

But I'm pursuing it
However, I am still relentlessly pursuing it

Every single doubt
Each and every uncertainty

In my thoughts
Within my own mind

I'm producing it
I am generating it

I wish I had God
It is my desire to have God

But it feels like
However, it seems that

I'm losing him
I am gradually losing contact with God

But if I give up
But if I discontinue

I know that I'll lose
I understand that I will forfeit

All these decisions are hard
Making these choices are challenging

And I don't know
And I am uncertain

What to do
What actions to take

I only got two roads
I have only two distinct choices

Two paths to choose
Two different routes to select

I know that
I am aware

One leads to death
One leads to expiration

The other leads to fruit
While the other leads to productivity

I want that
I desire that

Love, joy, peace, and patience
Love, happiness, tranquility, and forbearance.

And I've been praying
I have been imploring

For the spirit
For the Holy Spirit

To fill me
To completely occupy me

So I can elevate but
That I may ascend, but

I can feel something
I can perceive something

Is pulling me down
Is dragging me down

It's pulling me down
It is dragging me down

It wants me
It desires me

Just to stay on the ground
To remain on the surface

But I can't wait
But I cannot afford to delay

I got a
I have a

Kingdom to make
Kingdom to establish

Man I can't wait
I am impatient

I know there's lives
I am aware of the lives

To be saved
That require saving

And I can't, stay
And remaining still is not a possibility

I know this
I am convinced

Life isn't mine
Life is not of my ownership

He made a way
He paved the way

I'm meant to shine
I am supposed to shine brightly

I'm going back
I will return

To the old me
To my previous self

I know he told me
I recall that he informed me

That there's nothing
There is nothing

I can do
That I am capable of

That would make me unholy
That would render me unclean

And when I'm feeling down
And when I am feeling low

He's there to hold me
He is there to comfort me

I'm about to give it
I am prepared to sacrifice everything

All to the son
Entirely to Christ

One and only
The unique and only one