Matter of Time
4th25 Lyrics

Two for the matter is
The future is uncertain and we don't know when or where things will happen

Nobody really know, whats gonna happen to 'em
There is a lot of uncertainty in life and no one knows what their fate will be

When its gonna happen to 'em
Uncertainty surrounds the timing of our fate

Or where it's gonna happen to 'em
Uncertainty exists around the location of our fate

You know it's like we just out here, waiting for it to happen
We live with the constant anticipation of something happening to us

It's no place to be, and I tell you first hand
Living in constant anticipation is stressful and unpleasant

I'm just to the point now where fuck it you know?
The stress of living with constant anticipation has become too much

Just letting the cards fall as they may
Choosing to let fate take its course and not fight it

I'm halfway home but it's still a long road to be travelled
The journey of life is long and uncertain

And I know at any given moment, things could go sour
Life can take a turn for the worse at any time

From sweet, to the streets on fire, problems unravel
Problems can arise suddenly and with great intensity

Still holding my breath, boots laced for battle in a place
Living in a dangerous place requires being prepared for anything

Where they would gladly, see me scattered
There are people who would be happy to see me dead

All over they streets, cause here, my life dont matter
In this dangerous place, my life is not valued

And though they smile, underneath those grins
People may seem friendly, but they hide their true intentions

They only waiting on their next chance to try to kill me again
There are people who want to harm me and they are always looking for the opportunity to do so

And don't be caught thinking out here, that your chance ain't slim
Everyone is at risk of being harmed in this dangerous place

Cause there are those who have thought it, who will never think again
Some people have underestimated the danger and have paid for it with their lives

Cause we're alone in this county, a hundred forty thousand friends
Despite having a large population, there is a sense of isolation in this place

With some 20 odd million, who would see us all dead
There are many people who want to harm us

You could only imagine our struggle, the odds we against
The struggle for survival in this place is difficult and the odds are against us

Where they are but all times playing, both sides of the fence
People in this place are constantly shifting allegiances and playing both sides

Though they haven't got me yet, I still ain't home
Despite not being harmed yet, I still don't feel safe

Until then, its only a matter of time till I'm gone
I know that my fate is uncertain and it's only a matter of time before something bad happens to me

It's only a matter of time 'fore they get me
I know that it's likely that something bad will happen to me eventually

Though so far they missed me
Despite the danger, I have not been harmed yet

Next time they shoot in my direction, could be the one that hits me
I know that every moment is dangerous and the next time I am targeted could be fatal

Yeah the odds is against me
The likelihood of something bad happening to me is high

Lucks been with me so far
Despite the danger, I have been lucky and avoided harm for now

I know death's round the corner, but I dunno how far
I am aware of the constant danger, but I don't know when it will strike

And I ain't trying to hear my number but it could be the next one called
I don't want to think about my own mortality, but I know I could be the next one to die

Told my family I'd be home, but Iraq's trying to prove me wrong
I promised my family I would return home safe, but the situation in Iraq is making that difficult

This weighs heavy on my shoulders I can only be so strong
The stress of being in a dangerous place is difficult to bear

Sure we all gonna survive, but we dont know how long
We are all trying to survive, but we don't know how much longer we can hold out

Being in the middle of the streets, and in the middle of the night
The danger is constant and present at all times

Where they are baiting eight hooks cast and hoping I'll bite
There are people trying to lure me into danger

And it's too late here to be worried, whether or not this is right
The situation is so dire that there is no time to consider whether it is ethical or not

When there's somebody on every corner, ready to widow my wife
The situation is so dangerous that anyone could be a potential threat to me and my loved ones

And I can feel it more than a little bit, impacting my life
The stress and danger is having a major impact on my mental and emotional wellbeing

Wanting to kill everything, that moves into my sight
The constant danger has made me hyper-vigilant and paranoid

Cause I can lost only once, and there are no rematches
The stakes are high and there are no second chances

And there is no 2 minute warning, can't brace before it happens
There is no warning before danger strikes, so there is no time to prepare

So we face it, and come so close we can taste it
We are constantly confronting and challenging the danger, knowing that we may not survive

The one trip we take every day and hope we never make it
Each day is a journey that we hope will not be our last

Cause death's right behind us, and some of us'll never shake him
Death is always looming and some of us will not be fortunate enough to avoid it

But when we are challenged, we can not refuse to play him
In this dangerous place, we must confront danger and we cannot avoid it

So we knuckle the fuck up and start swinging
We must be brave and fight back against the danger

Yeah I'm trying to keep it together, but things fall apart
Despite my best efforts, the situation is overwhelming and difficult to handle

Especially when I'm gone for so long, losing feeling in my heart
Being away from loved ones for extended periods of time is emotionally taxing

Synthesise with my surroundings, every colours turning dark
The danger and stress of the situation have made it difficult to see the beauty in the world

I don't see nothing beautiful no more, only targets my reticle marks
The only things I see now are potential threats that I need to be prepared to face

Was emotional, then emotionalist, now I dont feel a thing
The stress and danger have made me emotionally numb

And though it once killed me to kill, I'd gladly do it again
Despite the moral and ethical implications, I am willing to do whatever it takes to survive

If only you could really understand, the state of mind that I'm in
It is difficult for others to truly comprehend the mental and emotional toll of this situation

Only then could you feel me, only then would I make sense
If you could truly understand my perspective, then you would be able to empathize with me

If only I hadn't had been to some of the places I've been
The situations and experiences I have had have contributed to my current mental state

IF only I hadn't have seen what I saw maybe I could feel again
The traumatic experiences I have had have made it difficult for me to feel normal emotions

But it's too hard to separate, what's going on within me
The mental and emotional impacts of this situation are impossible to ignore

It's just so much easier to let hate be my remedy
Hate and anger are easier emotions to feel than fear and sadness

So for everything I'm guilty of, let the lord sinnes me
I am aware of the moral and ethical implications of my actions, but I am willing to deal with the consequences

If only I wouldn't have let everything I've been through hither me
I wish that the experiences I have had hadn't impacted me as much as they have

Things could have been different, but that is not my reality
I acknowledge that my experiences have shaped me, but I cannot change the past

And either way it's only a matter of time before I'm outta here
Despite my best efforts to survive, I know that my fate is uncertain and I could die at any moment