Insane
5. Record Chillout Radio Lyrics

I'm in love with the thought of her
I have intense feelings for an idealized version of her that exists solely in my mind

But I don't really know what that means
I am uncertain about the nature of my feelings

Maybe I'm just lonely
Perhaps my feelings stem from a place of loneliness

Or I'm impatient and I want it to end
Alternatively, my impatience may be driving my desire for a resolution

I want the world to revolve around her
I idolize her and desire to be the center of her world

And make sure she feels happy with me
I want to be the source of her happiness and fulfillment

But that's not the way the world works
Unfortunately, reality does not operate according to my idealized vision

Nobody's happy at least that's what it seems
It appears to me as though nobody is truly content in life

I wanna see what the hell she thinks
I desire to know her thoughts and emotions

I wanna know what is wrong with me
I am unsure of my own faults and weaknesses

But even if I don't seem insane
Despite my outward appearance of sanity, I may still be struggling internally

I sit alone and go crazy
I am overwhelmed by my own thoughts and emotions when left alone

I feel insane, maybe
I am experiencing extreme mental distress

I'll go insane if I stay here
Remaining in my current state of mind may lead to irreparable damage

I need you babe, maybe
I feel as though I need the support and companionship of my romantic partner

I wanna feel what I did back then
I long to recapture the simplicity and innocence of my earlier experiences with love

When love was simple and I was a kid
At that time, love seemed uncomplicated and pure to me

Then I got older my days grew thin
As I matured, I became disillusioned and disconnected from that sense of purity

Only a teen but I already feel dead
Despite my youth, I experience a sense of hopelessness and despair

Don't know what is wrong or right
I am uncertain about my own moral compass

Don't know what is truly mine
I struggle to understand my own desires and goals

What if this is all a dream
I am unsure of the reality and nature of my experiences

Maybe I'm just crazy
I fear that my thoughts and feelings are indicative of mental instability

We live in the future
As a society, we are oriented towards progress and innovation

Where the world isn't so black and white
We recognize that there are many areas of complexity and nuance in the world

We live in the present
Despite our focus on the future, we still exist and operate in the present moment

We give each other the gift of life
We have the ability to support and uplift one another

We live in the world before any other
As far as we know, this is the only world that exists and we must take care of it