Jackson was born and raised in South Jamaica, a neighborhood in the New York City borough of Queens. His mother Sabrina, a drug dealer, died in a fire when he was 8. Since his father had already abandoned the family, young Curtis was sent to live with his grandparents. Growing up during the crack epidemic of the 80s and 90s, Jackson dealt drugs when he wasn't "killing time" at school or boxing at a local gym. His grandparents assumed he was at after-school programs when he was out selling crack. In tenth grade, Jackson was caught with guns and drug money passing through the metal detectors at Andrew Jackson High School in Queens. In 1994, Jackson was arrested again for selling vials of cocaine to an undercover officer, and three weeks later he was arrested yet-again after police found heroin, crack cocaine, and a starter pistol in his home. Jackson was sentenced to 3 to 9 years in prison, but opted to join a 6 month boot camp program and get his GED. Around this time, Jackson began going by "50 Cent," inspired by deceased Brooklyn stick-up man Kelvin "50 Cent" Martin.
After leaving drug dealing to pursue a rap career, he released his debut album Guess Who's Back Again in 2002. He was discovered by Eminem and Dr. Dre and then signed to Interscope Records. He has since released Get Rich or Die Tryin' (2003), The Massacre (2006), Curtis (2007) and Before I Self Destruct (2009).
50 Cent has engaged in feuds with other rappers including Jay-Z, Ja Rule, The Game, Cam'ron, Fat Joe, and Rick Ross. He has also pursued an acting career, appearing in the semi-autobiographical film Get Rich or Die Tryin' in 2005, the Iraq War film Home of the Brave in 2006, and Righteous Kill in 2008. 50 Cent is one of the richest hip-hop performers, having a net worth estimated at US $440 million in 2008.
Before 50 Cent ever inked a major deal, he built up a substantial fan base in New York through underground mixtapes. 50 Cent met up with Jam Master Jay of Run-DMC and was signed to his label to write all of Jay’s music. After he’d left JMJ, he signed to Columbia Records in 1996. On this label, he released Power of the Dollar, and the singles How to Rob and Ghetto Qua Ran. Columbia Records released him from the label after being shot on May 24th, 2000.
Around this time, Eminem had heard one of 50 Cent’s demo tapes and expressed a huge interest in him on MTV, as did Dr. Dre. Shortly after this, 50 Cent officially signed to Interscope Records. He was the first rapper to sign to the joint label owned by Dr. Dre and Eminem. The first song he released on this record was entitled Wanksta and was featured on the 8 Mile soundtrack.
In its first week of release, his debut ”Get Rich Or Die Tryin’” sold 872,000 units - easily reaching Gold status. Within the second week it went Platinum (1 mil) and on April 12th, 2004 the RIAA certified it six times Platinum.
In 2005 he followed the success of his album Get Rich or Die Tryin’ with a new release - The Massacre (originally called St. Valentines Day Massacre until the release date was pushed back). The first single released off this, Disco Inferno, was a huge hit - he followed this hit up by the release of Candy Shop and then again with Just a Lil Bit.
In 2003 Interscope Records allowed 50 Cent to have his own label - G-Unit Records. He first signed Lloyd Banks, Tony Yayo and Young Buck as the established members of G-Unit Records. In 2004, Dr. Dre and 50 Cent had signed The Game under a joint venture.
Gotta Make It To Heaven
50 Cent Lyrics
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Gotta make it to Heaven, gotta make it to Heaven
I gotta make it to Heaven, for goin' through Hell
I gotta make it to Heaven, I hope I make it to Heaven
Some say I'm paranoid, I say I'm careful how I choose my friends
Been to ICU once I ain't goin' again
First Z got murked, then Roy got murked
I smell somethin' fishy, man, it might be a rat
Damn, niggas switchin' sides on niggas just like that
You know me, I stay wit' a bitch on her knees
And give guns away in the hood like government cheese
Spray on Suzuki's, eleven-hundred CC's
No plate on the back, straight squeezin' the MAC
In the hood they identify niggas by they cars
So I switch up whips to stay off the radar
I ain't gotta be around to make shit hot
I send Yayo to dump thirty shots on ya block
'Cause he spray that TEC, nigga, if I say get it done
I'll make ya wack niggas if you 'round me, son
I gotta make it to Heaven, for goin' through Hell
I gotta make it to Heaven, I gotta make it to Heaven
I gotta make it to Heaven, for goin' through Hell
I gotta make it to Heaven I hope I make it to Heaven
I gotta make it to Heaven, for goin' through Hell
I gotta make it to Heaven, I gotta make it to Heaven
I gotta make it to Heaven, for goin' through Hell
I gotta make it to Heaven, I hope I make it to Heaven
When I come through the hood, I don't stop to rap to niggas (yeah)
Get close enough to smack, get it clap ya, nigga
Pop tried to front so I waved the chrome on his ass
Point blank range, I spazzed, pulled a bone on his ass
Two weeks later niggas came through with MACs to lay me down
Then sprayed, I played dead and got the fuck off the ground
Out the blue I get a phone call, "50, what up?"
"They sent a bitch at me, I sent the bitch back cut up"
I don't play that pussy shit, I done told you, boy
Front on me, you gon' meet one of my soldiers, boy
Cousin Twin shot up his mama crib now he in jail
Trippin' off flicks of Blu Catrell, pussy and black tail
Pop mama moved, but she don't talk to him no more
The shells from Twin's .44, blew the hinge off her door
Without that check every month how she gon' pay for the crib?
Man, social service finna come and take them kids
I gotta make it to Heaven, for goin' through Hell
I gotta make it to Heaven, I gotta make it to Heaven
I gotta make it to Heaven, for goin' through Hell
I gotta make it to Heaven I hope I make it to Heaven
I gotta make it to Heaven, for goin' through Hell
I gotta make it to Heaven, I gotta make it to Heaven
I gotta make it to Heaven, for goin' through Hell
I gotta make it to Heaven, I hope I make it to Heaven
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change
The courage to change the things I can, the wisdom to know the difference
In AA they make you say that
That's the prayer they burn in your head when you in CASAT
Man, I might talk to you while we up in them pens (uh-huh)
But when we come home, that don't mean we gon' fuckin' be friends
The shells smash ya head close enough to hear 'em whistle
Thank God they missed you, and go grab ya pistol
In the hood niggas runnin' round actin' crazy
Buyin' little Air Jordans for maybe babies
See it might be his and it might be yours
'Cause them broads in the projects is straight up whores (haha)
Man, it don't take much for you to get in them draws (uh-huh)
You ain't can have 'em on they back or on all fours
You ain't got to tell me, you feelin' this shit
'Cause I hear what I'm sayin', I know I'm killin' this shit
I gotta make it to Heaven, for goin' through Hell
I gotta make it to Heaven, I gotta make it to Heaven
I gotta make it to Heaven, for goin' through Hell
I gotta make it to Heaven I hope I make it to Heaven
I gotta make it to Heaven, for goin' through Hell
I gotta make it to Heaven, I gotta make it to Heaven
I gotta make it to Heaven, for goin' through Hell
I gotta make it to Heaven, I hope I make it to Heaven
The song "Gotta Make It to Heaven" by 50 Cent portrays the struggle of living in the hood and the constant fear of losing one's life that is part of the lifestyle. Throughout the song, 50 Cent expresses his worries and concerns about his friends and acquaintances being suddenly killed. He talks about how he is careful in choosing his friends and how he has already been to the ICU once, so he doesn't want to end up there again. The lines "I gotta make it to Heaven, for goin' through Hell" reflect his desire to escape from the dangerous world of the hood.
The rapper also addresses how he retaliates against those who wrong him, "Two weeks later niggas came through with MACs to lay me down, then sprayed, I played dead and got the fuck off the ground". These lines depict how living in the hood can be like walking on a tightrope, where one mistake can result in death. Additionally, 50 Cent provides some social commentary on the hardships people face when living in the projects. He talks about the mothers who struggle to keep their homes when their adult children commit crime, "Without that check every month how she gon' pay for the crib? Man, social service finna come and take them kids".
Overall, "Gotta Make It to Heaven" represents 50 Cent's attempt to reconcile his own violent past with his hope for a better future. The song shows that despite the harsh environment of the hood, people can still hope for something better in the future.
Line by Line Meaning
I gotta make it to Heaven, for goin' through Hell
Despite facing hardships and difficulties, I am determined to make it to Heaven.
Gotta make it to Heaven, gotta make it to Heaven
Going to Heaven is my ultimate goal and I will do what it takes to get there.
I gotta make it to Heaven, I hope I make it to Heaven
I am uncertain about what the future holds but I pray that I will eventually make it to Heaven.
Some say I'm paranoid, I say I'm careful how I choose my friends
While some may view me as overly suspicious, I am simply cautious about the people I bring into my life.
Been to ICU once I ain't goin' again
I have already been in the ICU once and I don't want to end up there again.
First Z got murked, then Roy got murked
Two people I knew were killed and it's making me more cautious about my safety.
And homie still in the hood, why he ain't gettin' hurt?
I am suspicious about why someone I know is still safe in the hood when others are being killed.
I smell somethin' fishy, man, it might be a rat
I am starting to suspect that there is something deceptive or dishonest going on.
Damn, niggas switchin' sides on niggas just like that
People are turning against each other too easily and it's making me wary of trusting anyone.
You know me, I stay wit' a bitch on her knees
I always have a woman on hand to perform sexual favors for me.
And give guns away in the hood like government cheese
I distribute guns in the neighborhood much like the government distributes food to low-income families.
Spray on Suzuki's, eleven-hundred CC's
I ride a Suzuki motorcycle with an engine size of 1100 CC's.
No plate on the back, straight squeezin' the MAC
I don't have a license plate on my motorcycle and I use a MAC-10 machine gun when I need to use force.
In the hood they identify niggas by they cars
People in the neighborhood know who someone is based on the car they drive.
So I switch up whips to stay off the radar
I change cars frequently to avoid detection.
I ain't gotta be around to make shit hot
I can create drama and conflict even when I'm not physically present.
I send Yayo to dump thirty shots on ya block
I can order Yayo to go and shoot up someone's location with thirty bullets.
'Cause he spray that TEC, nigga, if I say get it done
Yayo is skilled with guns and will do whatever I tell him to do.
I'll make ya wack niggas if you 'round me, son
I have the power to order someone's death if they're in my presence.
When I come through the hood, I don't stop to rap to niggas (yeah)
I don't stop and waste time talking to people on the street when I go through the neighborhood.
Get close enough to smack, get it clap ya, nigga
If you come too close to me, I will shoot and kill you.
Pop tried to front so I waved the chrome on his ass
Someone named Pop tried to challenge me so I pulled out my gun and threatened him with it.
Point blank range, I spazzed, pulled a bone on his ass
I shot Pop at close range and hit him with a bullet in the head.
Two weeks later niggas came through with MACs to lay me down
Two weeks after I killed Pop, someone tried to come after me with MAC-10 machine guns.
Then sprayed, I played dead and got the fuck off the ground
I pretended to be dead and then escaped once the shooters left the scene.
Out the blue I get a phone call, "50, what up?"
I receive a surprise phone call from someone asking how I'm doing.
"They sent a bitch at me, I sent the bitch back cut up"
Someone sent a woman after me to do harm, so I retaliated and injured her.
I don't play that pussy shit, I done told you, boy
I don't tolerate weakness or hesitation and have made that clear to others.
Front on me, you gon' meet one of my soldiers, boy
If you challenge me, I will send one of my associates to deal with you.
Cousin Twin shot up his mama crib now he in jail
Twin, who is my cousin, shot up his own mother's house and is now in jail as a result.
Trippin' off flicks of Blu Catrell, pussy and black tail
Twin is obsessing over pornographic images and has lost control of his actions.
Pop mama moved, but she don't talk to him no more
Pop's mother has moved away and doesn't have a relationship with him anymore.
The shells from Twin's .44, blew the hinge off her door
Twin fired his .44 handgun and the impact of the bullets broke the door's hinge.
Without that check every month how she gon' pay for the crib?
Pop's mother needs a monthly check to pay for her home and now that she doesn't have it, she may struggle to keep her residence.
Man, social service finna come and take them kids
Social services may intervene and take away Pop's mother's children due to the circumstances.
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change
I pray to God for the ability to accept things that I can't change.
The courage to change the things I can, the wisdom to know the difference
I also pray for the strength to make changes where I can and the wisdom to know when I can't.
In AA they make you say that
The Serenity Prayer is commonly used in Alcoholics Anonymous meetings.
That's the prayer they burn in your head when you in CASAT
CASAT, a substance abuse treatment facility, also uses the Serenity Prayer as a guiding principle.
Man, I might talk to you while we up in them pens (uh-huh)
I may have conversations with someone while we're both in prison.
But when we come home, that don't mean we gon' fuckin' be friends
Just because we were friendly in prison, it doesn't mean we will be friends once we are released.
The shells smash ya head close enough to hear 'em whistle
The bullets hit you so hard that you can hear them passing by your head.
Thank God they missed you, and go grab ya pistol
If you were lucky enough to not get hit by the bullets, quickly grab your own gun for protection.
In the hood niggas runnin' round actin' crazy
People in the neighborhood are behaving in erratic and unpredictable ways.
Buyin' little Air Jordans for maybe babies
People are spending money on expensive shoes for their babies.
See it might be his and it might be yours
It's unclear who the father of a child may be.
'Cause them broads in the projects is straight up whores (haha)
Women in the low-income housing projects are often promiscuous.
Man, it don't take much for you to get in them draws (uh-huh)
It's easy for a man to sleep with these women.
You ain't can have 'em on they back or on all fours
These women are willing to have sexual intercourse in various positions.
You ain't got to tell me, you feelin' this shit
I know that my music and lyrics are impacting you emotionally and strongly resonate with you.
'Cause I hear what I'm sayin', I know I'm killin' this shit
I am aware that my music and lyrics are powerful and resonating with listeners.
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Written by: Dorsey Wesley, Curtis James Jackson
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