Amnesia
5 Seconds of Summer Lyrics

I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
As I passed our usual haunts where we'd party and drink, I felt the heartache of remembering our fun, carefree times together.

I thought about our last kiss, how it felt, the way you tasted
Your kiss lingers on in my memory, along with every detail of how it felt to hold you and taste your lips.

And even though your friends tell me you're doin' fine, Are you somewhere feeling lonely, even though he's right beside you?
Despite what your friends say, I wonder if you really are okay, if the one you're with now actually makes you feel lonely instead of complete.

When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?
Does my old letters of love still have an impression on your heart? Do they give you any relief or moment of recollection from the hurting you're feeling?

Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
I question whether our whole relationship was a sham, nothing but lies and deceit.

If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
If our love was truly genuine, I can't understand how you were able to move on and appear content without me, while I still suffer.

'Cause I'm not fine at all
I'm struggling to cope with the loss of you and our dreams as I'm not okay or okay with pretending.

I remember the day you told me you were leavin', I remember the make-up running down your face
I recollect how devastated we were when you dropped the bomb of ending our relationship, and your tears streamed freely down your face.

And the dreams you left behind, you didn't need them, Like every single wish we ever made
The beautiful dreams and aspirations we shared were now gone with you, and you apparently had no use for them anymore, just like all the wishes that we ever made together.

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia, And forget about the stupid little things
If I could just wake up one day with no recollection of you or our past, I could forget all the petty issues that caused our demise.

Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you, And the memories I never can escape
I can't forget the feeling of being comfortable and safe wrapped up next to you in bed, and I keep reliving the memories of us together that I can't escape from.

The pictures that you sent me, they're still livin' in my phone, I'll admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone
Although it hurts, I still have those pictures of us in my phone, and I sneak a peek often, knowing that I'm doing it to feed my loneliness and emptiness.

And all my friends keep asking why I'm not around, It hurts to know you're happy, yeah, it hurts that you moved on
My absence has been noted by my friends, with them asking about my depression, while I struggle to come to terms with how you've moved on and found happiness with someone else.

It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long
I find it distressing to hear your name, particularly with the growing gap between us.

If today I woke up with you right beside me, Like all of this was just some twisted dream
If fate brought us together again and everything had just been a bad dream, I'd tightly hold on to you, fearing that I might lose you forever if I let go.

I remember the day you told me you were leavin', I remember the make-up running down your face
Once again, I'm caught with the memory of the day you left me and how it all went to waste like your runny makeup.

And the dreams you left behind, you didn't need them, Like every single wish we ever made
Just like all our past dreams, since you didn't require them anymore, a reminder that they all fell apart with us.

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia, And forget about the stupid little things
I restate my desire to forget everything, every small detail that I ever shared with you.

Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you, And the memories I never can escape
Those are the precious little things that I itch to forget, even though the golden memories continue to torment me.

No, I'm really not fine at all
Once again, I emphasize the state of my wellbeing, which is not fine.

Tell me this is just a dream, 'Cause I'm really not fine at all
I beg for a sanctuary, someplace to hide and forget, just wishing it's an imaginary tale.