PROUD
6gig Lyrics

Now I didn't get a chance to
I didn't have the opportunity to

To say goodbye
To express my farewell

Like the way that i wanted to
In the way that felt right to me

And i didn't get to thank you for everything you did
I missed the chance to express gratitude for your actions

For lying to my face
Thank you for deceiving me directly

For wasting all my time
For using up my precious time in vain

For being drunk again
For consuming alcohol excessively as usual

For making my mom cry
For causing my mother to shed tears

For screaming in my face
For shouting at me directly

For everything you did to us
For all your actions towards us, good or bad

Im so proud of you (4x)
Sarcastic expression of disappointment and disapproval

And i'd like to thank you
I wish to extend my gratitude to you

For giving me all i need
For providing me with everything required

For planting such good seeds
For instilling positive values in me

And always being there for me
For consistently providing support to me

I'd say i miss you
I would express that I feel your absence

But that would be a lie
However, such a statement would not be truthful

Cause you were long gone before you ever said goodbye
You departed from me well before you formally bid goodbye

And the way you make it hard to walk
Your actions and words make it difficult to move on

And the way you hear me when im talking
Your attentive listening when I speak

And all those things i forgot to mention
The neglected aspects I didn't acknowledge

Space is dark as the stars gather and start to form shapes
Metaphorical description of the isolated mental space

I thought i saw your face
You appeared in my mind momentarily

And just just close my eyes
I shut my eyes to escape from the thought

I don't need to mention the tears that are on my cheeks
I don't have to state the obvious tears on my face

I feel weak enough from tension built up for so long
The accumulated strain has left me feeling feeble

With no one to console me
With nobody to comfort me

Oh make me feel better about this thing that's gone
Provide relief from this irrevocable loss

That i hated for so long
That I despised for an extended period

Long enough to grow up
Sufficent time to mature

Skating fine lines around my family
Negotiating a fine balance within the family dynamics

And the way i see the days in back of me
Reflecting on the past and the timeline so far

And keeps me from better company
Prevents me from seeking better social companionship

Kept and sold i lost my soul
I was exploited and disenchanted

So proud of you (4x)
Sarcastic expression of disappointment and disapproval

All those things you forgot to mention (2x)
The neglected aspects you didn't acknowledge

All those things you you left behind (4x)
The things you abandoned or failed to address