Villain
99kez Lyrics

I lost you somewhere along the road
I lost someone important to me at some point during our journey together.

I did like kiddies do I couldn't keep my emotions in control
I acted impulsively and without self-restraint, like a child unable to manage their emotions.

I know I said things that I ain't mean too
I realize that I said hurtful things that I did not intend to say.

And it wouldn't be outlandish if I said I need you
It would not be unreasonable for me to express that I am in need of your presence and support.

How you felt bout my love that it be colored see through
Did you feel that my love for you was transparent or shallow?

Transparency I can't be vulnerable
Being transparent and honest with my emotions makes me feel too exposed and susceptible to pain.

I gotta look out for me if not then who gon play that role
I need to prioritize taking care of myself because if I don't, nobody else will fill that role for me.

I made it seem like you had a million needs when
I falsely communicated that you had many needs, when in reality, you only wanted one simple thing.

All you wanted was some quality tic
All you desired was to spend some quality time together.

I'm treading lightly and it got me sea sick
I'm being cautious and careful, but it's causing me stress and discomfort.

I'm tired of fighting with myself over this
I'm exhausted from battling with my inner thoughts and emotions about our situation.

I guess I lived long enough to be the villain
I feel like I've been through enough in life to be seen as the antagonist in this scenario.

(I guess I lived long enough to be the villain)
(repeated line)

The realest it's hard to face the truth like who you dealing with
It's difficult to confront the reality of who a person truly is and the kind of relationship you have with them.

It started smooth ain't that what it always do
Things began easily and pleasantly, as they often do at the start of a relationship.

Let's get out of here thought we'd see 1000 moons
We had plans to experience many adventures together and hoped to spend a long time enjoying life in each other's company.

I never lied I'm 99 but 100 too
I have never told a lie, but at the same time, there may be things I haven't said that could change your perception of me.

I been vilified I swear I'm not as bad as you think
I feel like I've been unfairly criticized and portrayed as a bad person, when in reality, I am not as terrible as you may believe.

Even though I was stuck in the dark
Even when I was lost or struggling, I kept moving forward and trying to improve my situation.

When you gone that sunkist bring all the light I need
When you are not here, even the simplest things can bring me comfort and happiness.

Ion wanna rely on that no more
I no longer wish to depend on those fleeting moments of joy; I want to find more stable sources of happiness.

Fucked up that shit gone out the door
I regret the things that happened between us and want to move past them and leave them in the past.

I can't even drown in ounces be too high so I just float
I can't find solace or escape in drugs or alcohol, so instead I just keep moving forward without them.

I never let the gate down you couldn't even pass the moat
I am very guarded and protective of myself and my emotions, making it difficult for others to truly get close to me.

So how the fuck I'm supposed
So how exactly am I expected to navigate this complex emotional battle?

What did I expect here
What exactly did I hope to achieve or gain from this relationship?