Calling
A.O.N. Lyrics

I know shit was picture perfect
I acknowledge that things may have seemed perfect, but they weren't in line with my timeline

But it didn't fit the time frame
The situation was not in line with the time I had in mind

I took advantage of my talent when my time came
I made use of my skills when the opportunity presented itself

Right now I'm drivin' through this boulevard of shame
I am currently driving through a place of embarrassment and regret

I'll get back to you when I don't feel this pain
I will contact you once I am no longer feeling this emotional distress

Catch me swervin' in my lane
I may seem like I am unfocused or uncertain in my path

Blow a couple M's on the new Bugatti, I'm insane
I spent an enormous amount of money on a luxury car - it may seem crazy

Walk around with my head high like gon' try me
I exude confidence in a way that may come across as challenging or intimidating

Gotta keep a low profile 'cause everything I do get leaked
I need to avoid attracting attention because any private information may be exposed to the public

I got stoned with Rosetta, I'm tryna teach her how I speak
I smoked weed with Rosetta and I am attempting to show her my perspective or way of communicating

If you bringin' up my flaws, don't televise 'em to the streets
If someone mentions my faults or shortcomings, it should not be spread publicly for others to hear

I was sellin' books and CD's on my block so I could eat (yeah)
I used to sell books and CDs in my neighborhood to make enough money to survive

I kept it a hunnid then I spent that on my piece (yeah)
I was honest and true to myself, and then I spent that money on a valuable possession, possibly a piece of jewelry

And until I'm six feet under, I'ma do it for the streets (yeah, uh)
I will continue to represent and work for the people in my community until I die

I did shit you may never do in your lifetime (uh-huh)
I accomplished things or experienced things that you may never be able to in your entire life

If she play her role, I may let her carry my lifeline (oh)
If a woman is loyal and supportive, I may allow her to play a vital role in my life

I know life's a bitch but I fell in love with a better one
Life is difficult, but I found something much better to love and appreciate

Put her in her Birk' now it's time for me to go get her one
I gave her a fancy Birkin bag as a gift, and now I need to acquire another one for myself

Yeah, don't put no blame on me 'cause I can't take no more
I cannot handle being blamed for anything else

Yeah, I put this weight on me when I walked out that door
I made the decision to carry a heavy burden when I left

Yeah, and I can't help that I'm so selfish, I'm ashamed
I feel bad that I cannot control my selfish tendencies

And I can't help that I get caught up in my ways
I struggle to break away from my habits and behaviors

And I can't help that I be fuckin' on your bestie
I cannot control my urges to be sexually involved with your best friend

And I move way too clean and get caught up in somethin' messy
I may appear to be organized and in control, but sometimes I become involved in problematic situations

I know right you feel alone but it's okay 'cause you was better on your own
You may feel sad or lonely, but in reality, you are better off without certain people in your life

Pick you up when you're fallin' down
I will be there to support you when you are struggling

Can you pick it up when I'm callin' out
Can you support me when I need help or guidance?

To you, to you, to you
Directing this message to you specifically

I'm still pullin' you up when you're fallin' down
I am still here to help and support you when you need it

We ain't never had no hope, so we always took a risk
We did not have many opportunities, so we had to take our chances to make something of ourselves

Rock bottom hit hard, but I took it like a pimp
Hitting the lowest point in life was tough, but I dealt with it like someone who is resilient

I took everything I had and put it on a wish
I invested everything I had just hoping for the best outcome

Took all the time you wasted and put it on my wrist
I made something of value out of the time you may have wasted during our relationship

Gotta hold my heart with gloves on
I need to protect my emotions and feelings from being hurt

If I spot a opp, I make 'em strip and put these slugs on
If I see an enemy or someone who opposes me, I will use violence to assert my power

Nigga this is pain, I ain't tryna make no love songs
This is a message about pain and struggle, not an attempt to create a romantic tune

She feelin' pain so she don't wanna hear no love song
She is experiencing emotional pain, so she has no interest in hearing anything that may remind her of love or relationship

Feel like I've got this weight on my shoulders and it's holdin' me down
I feel like I have a heavy burden to carry, which is preventing me from feeling light and free

My hand glued to my pistol, I might just air out the crowd
I am holding my gun tightly, and I may use it to shoot at innocent people or bystanders

Just sent a prayer to my lost ones, I hope that they proud
I just prayed for the loved ones I have lost, and I hope they are pleased with my progress or achievements

You ain't give up on me then, why you gon' give up on me now?
You supported me in the past, so why would you turn your back on me now?

Top dawg, I've got VVS's on my leash
I am a top player in my field, and I have invested in high-quality diamonds for my chain or jewelry

Get you knocked off, just to earn respect inside these streets
I am willing to order someone's murder just to gain respect or power in my community

It's a cold world but let me show how my heart beat
The world can be harsh, but let me demonstrate how passionate and caring I truly am

To understand this lane you gotta sit inside this car seat (oh)
To truly comprehend the things I have gone through and the path I am on, you must experience it firsthand

I'm still tryna figure out what changed you
I am still trying to understand why you are different or distant from me now

Niggas mad 'cause I let my dick hang longer than my chains do
People are envious or upset because my reputation or sexual conquests are more impressive than my collection of chains or jewelry

Step inside my world to fully comprehend what pain do
Come into my life to truly understand the struggles and hardships I have faced

You accepted all my flaws just to show the world they painful (no, oh)
You acknowledged and supported my imperfections, which only highlighted how challenging they really are

High off my pride like a Perc' but I can't swallow it, nigga
I am proud of myself, but I cannot get over it or fully absorb it

I stood out the way but paved it for a lot of you niggas
I kept to myself but created a path or opportunity for many others to follow

Put the spotlight on my children 'cause I'm proud of you niggas
I want to draw attention to my offspring because I am proud of them

Might just let ya on a track so I could body you niggas (oh)
I may let you feature on one of my songs just so I can outdo you or show off my skills

It's too much levels I could stoop to
There is no limit to how low I am willing to go or how little I care

My dawg got laced now he don't move the way he used to
My friend got drugged, and he is no longer behaving in the same way he did before

I wanna hug 'em and tell 'em I love 'em but I'm ashamed
I want to show my affection and support for my friend, but I feel guilty or embarrassed about what happened to him

This for all the niggas who supported me
This is dedicated to all the people who have encouraged and helped me along the way

This for all the engineers I paid when they recorded me
This is for all the sound engineers who worked on my music while I paid them

This for all the labels who looked down and closed their door on me
This is for all the music labels that had no interest in working with me

I went platinum in the trenches when these niggas had no loyalty (oh)
I achieved great success despite the people around me being disloyal or uncommitted

Year later and we only gettin' started
Even though some time has passed, we are just getting our journey started

She listen to all my songs but still ask me why I'm heartless
Despite listening to all my music, she still questions why I am emotionally detached or insensitive

Tried to stab me in my back but I still had your shit regardless (oh)
Even though you tried to betray me, I still hold on to your possessions or keep them in my possession

On this intro I reflected on my pain and went retarded
In this song, I reflect on my struggles and experiences, which was an emotionally challenging process