The song is named after a theory called karma (also known as the law of moral causation), which is based on the belief that an individual’s actions affect their future. In the track, Jack is questioning the theory, asking his therapist why his good deeds aren’t circling back to him.
"I had a really tough year last year (2018), I think it was with all the success of "The Click". I was a little bit blind-sided by it because we went so long without success and "The Click" went, and the touring was in the thousands, it’s like: “Oh my god, this is a lot of work, I’m really not used to this. I’m in France? When did I get here?” It kind of just hit me and I started having a bad year from there. My entire mindset was “I’m doing everything right, why am I not feeling better? I’ve been so good, I gave this homeless guy a dollar, please reward me for that.” I wrote “I’ve been so good / I’ve been helpful and friendly…” Then I was like okay, that’s a song for sure."
Jack Met, on the Zach Sang Show
It was performed live on December 26, 2020 as part of the band’s One Spectacular Night livestream show. The live performance of the song itself was later shared on January 26, 2020.
Karma
AJR Lyrics
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I've been so good, why am I feeling empty?
I've been so good, I've been so good this year
I've been so good, but it's still getting harder
I've been so good, where the hell is the karma?
I've been so good, I've been so good this year
Why, are you asking me why?
Fine, oh no, everything's fine
I'm not sure why I booked today's appointment
I've been so good, I've been helpful and friendly
I've been so good, why am I feeling empty?
I've been so good, I've been so good this year
I've been so good, but it's still getting harder
I've been so good, where the hell is the karma?
I've been so good, I've been so good this year
What, am I normal or not?
Am I crazier than other patients?
Right, I've done everything right
So where's the karma doc, I've lost my patience
'Cause I've been so good, I've been working my ass off
I've been so good, still, I'm lonely and stressed out
I've been so good, I've been so good this year
And I've been so good, but it's still getting harder
I've been so good, where the hell is the karma?
I've been so good, I've been so good this year
Ah-ah-ah-ah
Ah-ah-ah-ah
Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah
Ah-ah-ah-ah
Ah-ah-ah-ah
Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah
I've been so good this year
I've been so good this year
Time, I know we're out of time
But what if sad thoughts come and I can't stop it
Bye, I don't wanna say bye
If only I could keep you in my pocket
To give me some diagnosis of why I'm so hollow
Please give me instructions, I promise I'll follow
I tripped on my ankle and fractured my elbow
But doesn't that mean that the tour's gonna sell though?
I try to explain the good faith that's been wasted
But after an hour it sounds like complaining
Wait don't go away, can I lie here forever?
You say that I'm better, why don't I feel better?
The universe works in mysterious ways
But I'm starting to think it ain't working for me
Doctor, should I be good?
Should I be good this year?
AJR's song Karma explores the idea of struggling to find a sense of fulfillment despite working hard and being a kind person. The lyrics depict someone who has been doing everything right, from being helpful and friendly to working their ass off, but still can't seem to find satisfaction. They feel empty and lonely, questioning where their good karma is, and wondering if they are normal or not. Despite seeking a diagnosis or instructions from a doctor, they remain lost and uncertain about why they are feeling the way they do.
The song's chorus emphasizes this feeling of distress, with the repetition of "I've been so good, but it's still getting harder, I've been so good, where the hell is the karma?" The bridge features a candid depiction of the singer's experience seeking reassurance and validation from their doctor, but ultimately finding themselves still struggling to feel better.
Overall, Karma offers a poignant reflection on the complexities of mental health and the ways in which even the most well-intentioned individuals can still find themselves grappling with feelings of emptiness and confusion.
Line by Line Meaning
I've been so good, I've been helpful and friendly
I have been trying my best to be nice and make others' lives better
I've been so good, why am I feeling empty?
Despite my efforts to be good, I still feel unsatisfied and unfulfilled
I've been so good, I've been so good this year
Throughout this year, I have been continuously striving to be a good person
I've been so good, but it's still getting harder
Despite doing everything right, life is becoming increasingly difficult
I've been so good, where the hell is the karma?
Why am I not being rewarded for my good deeds?
Why, are you asking me why?
Why do you need to ask why I feel this way?
My days and nights are filled with disappointment
I constantly feel let down and unsatisfied with my life
Fine, oh no, everything's fine
I am trying to convince myself that everything is okay when it really is not
I'm not sure why I booked today's appointment
I do not know why I came to this appointment or if it will really help
What, am I normal or not?
Do you see me as a regular person or as someone who is different?
Am I crazier than other patients?
Do you think I am more insane than other people you have treated?
Right, I've done everything right
I have followed all the rules and done everything I am supposed to
So where's the karma doc, I've lost my patience
I have been waiting for karma to reward me for being good, but it has not come yet and I am impatient
'Cause I've been so good, I've been working my ass off
I have been working extremely hard to be a good person
I've been so good, still, I'm lonely and stressed out
Despite being good, I am still feeling alone and overwhelmed
Ah-ah-ah-ah
Vocalization
I've been so good this year
I have been trying my hardest to be good throughout this year
Time, I know we're out of time
I understand that our time is up
But what if sad thoughts come and I can't stop it
What do I do if I start feeling sad and cannot control it?
Bye, I don't wanna say bye
I do not want to say goodbye and leave the session
If only I could keep you in my pocket
I wish I could always have you with me to talk to
To give me some diagnosis of why I'm so hollow
I am hoping you can tell me why I feel so empty and unsatisfied
Please give me instructions, I promise I'll follow
Please give me advice and I will do my best to follow it
I tripped on my ankle and fractured my elbow
I had an accident and injured myself
But doesn't that mean that the tour's gonna sell though?
Won't this accident increase ticket sales for our tour?
I try to explain the good faith that's been wasted
I attempt to describe how my efforts to be good have not been rewarded
But after an hour it sounds like complaining
After talking for an hour, my descriptions of my issues start to sound like whining and complaining
Wait don't go away, can I lie here forever?
I do not want you to leave and wish I could stay here forever
You say that I'm better, why don't I feel better?
You tell me that I am making progress, but I still do not feel any better
The universe works in mysterious ways
The world has a way of working that we cannot always explain
But I'm starting to think it ain't working for me
I am starting to feel like the world is not working in my favor
Doctor, should I be good?
Do you think I should continue trying to be a good person?
Should I be good this year?
Is it worth it to keep trying to be a good person for another year?
Lyrics © O/B/O APRA AMCOS
Written by: Adam Brett Metzger, Jack Evan Metzger, Ryan Metzger
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
@hojin1078
Hello, I am a man living in South Korea
I was diagnosed with depression a few years ago. I was getting suicidal thoughts from persistent self-hatred.
Now I'm holding on to taking the medicine.
But a few weeks ago, I was able to properly listen to your songs on YouTube, which introduces your songs.
Tears came to my eyes while listening to 100 bad days, karma
thank you i got my strength
Thanks to you, I have the courage to continue living.
thank you for everything
@arteinighters
I've been so good, I've been helpful and friendly
I've been so good, why am I feeling empty?
I've been so good, I've been so good this year
I've been so good, but it's still getting harder
I've been so good, where the hell is the karma?
I've been so good, I've been so good this year
Why, are you asking me why?
My days and nights are filled with disappointment
Fine, oh no, everything's fine
I'm not sure why I booked today's appointment
I've been so good, I've been helpful and friendly
I've been so good, why am I feeling empty?
I've been so good, I've been so good this year
I've been so good, but it's still getting harder
I've been so good, where the hell is the karma?
I've been so good, I've been so good this year
What, am I normal or not?
Am I crazier than other patients?
Right, I've done everything right
So where's the karma doc, I've lost my patience
'Cause I've been so good, I've been working my ass off
I've been so good, still, I'm lonely and stressed out
I've been so good, I've been so good this year
And I've been so good, but it's still getting harder
I've been so good, where the hell is the karma?
I've been so good, I've been so good this year
Ah-ah-ah-ah
Ah-ah-ah-ah
Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah
Ah-ah-ah-ah
Ah-ah-ah-ah
Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah
I've been so good this year
I've been so good this year
Time, I know we're out of time
But what if sad thoughts come and I can't stop it
Bye, I don't wanna say bye
If only I could keep you in my pocket
To give me some diagnosis of why I'm so hollow
Please give me instructions, I promise I'll follow
I tripped on my ankle and fractured my elbow
But doesn't that mean that the tour's gonna sell though?
I try to explain the good faith that's been wasted
But after an hour it sounds like complaining
Wait don't go away, can I lie here forever?
You say that I'm better, why don't I feel better?
The universe works in mysterious ways
But I'm starting to think it ain't working for me
Doctor, should I be good?
Should I be good this year?
@Novalvirri
people are talking about how certain lines hit super hard, but for me.. this entire song hits me really hard.
//vent, cried while writing, kinda a tough topic for me to talk about but the song lets me cope and express how i feel//
Bi-Polar Disorder is rough. Yes, I'm medicated, I still have highs and lows, but even when stabilized, I don't really always feel better. Something is always lurking in the dark bothering me, my paranoia feeds off of my past mistakes and never lets me feel okay, no matter how much good I do or how much better I get at being nice to others.
I've struggled with treating others fairly, not being selfish and self centered, and putting others before me for a long time. I still struggle with it to this day, but I'm getting better. Me admitting that in itself is such a huge step for me, because I've lived most of my life in denial that I could honestly be that bad of a person. I've always wanted to see myself as a caring person that is nice to everyone... but I'm not. I never had been... and it feels like I never will be.
I'm scared of messing up again. I'm scared of my next mistake being the one that makes everyone leave me. I'm scared of losing everyone I love because I can't move past my mistakes.
I'm scared of not being good enough. I'm scared of being looked down on as a disappointment that can't ever learn from their mistakes. I'm scared that everyone is here out of pity and avoid me because they don't want to make me upset.
I'm scared of my negative emotions. What if they overwhelm me? What if the flood drowns my friends and loved ones? What if the way I feel, letting it out, hurts everyone I've ever cared about?
I'm tired of my progress not being recognized.
I'm tired of having all my mistakes piled on me every time I mess up.
I'm tired of people not seeing me as the person i want to be.
I'm tired of all the negative things that come with my disorder.
I'm tired of all my effort feeling like it's for nothing.
I'm tired of feeling like I'm wasting everyone's time.
I want the payoff for once. It's all I really want. I want the effort to be worthwhile.
It just feels.. so pointless. Someone.. anyone.. please.... I just.... please let the pain end.
It's torture. Pure emotional and mental torture.
Please make it stop.
@ashie_127
[Long-ass comment alert]
This song got me through a really bad time in my life, when I had gotten into a falling out with my best friend. I always felt like I was the odd one out, but after this, I really felt like I was alone, and that there was nothing I could do about it, even if I tried, like I was always gonna be a Watcher, who could do nothing but watch the players, no matter how desperately I tried to participate. (Yes i put an EVO reference in here lol)
This song perfectly expresses how I felt that time (and still kind of does today).
And all of that was before i discovered the guys in 2023.
Even before I got into you guys, you've somehow, already gotten me through some of the hardest times of my life. That's amazing. No, really, that's freaking amazing.
So, from the bottom of my empty heart,
Thank you, AJR.
@pairofcarkeys9512
The intensity of the line "you say that I'm better, why don't I feel better?" hurts my insides a lot.
@RightBoyKA-POW
Professor Car Keys, yeah me too!
@user-fy9lj2bi8k
Same (
@RightBoyKA-POW
@Estar Kline and you're not wrong!
@elly4141
@@RightBoyKA-POW And you're right
@irenesbaes
@@elly4141 and you're right and wrong
@hojin1078
Hello, I am a man living in South Korea
I was diagnosed with depression a few years ago. I was getting suicidal thoughts from persistent self-hatred.
Now I'm holding on to taking the medicine.
But a few weeks ago, I was able to properly listen to your songs on YouTube, which introduces your songs.
Tears came to my eyes while listening to 100 bad days, karma
thank you i got my strength
Thanks to you, I have the courage to continue living.
thank you for everything
@jascasp2476
Wow this shows how impactful music really is. I hope you are doing well<3
@Catmoment67892
I hope you are doing better
@dumbmagpie2299
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