I Wish
A Killer's Confession Lyrics

I scream into the void
I am letting out my pain and frustrations but have no one to listen and understand

Embrace the night
I find comfort in darkness and loneliness as it hides my emotions

To keep from falling
I do not want to give in to despair and crumble under the weight of guilt and regret

I stare into the light
I try to distract myself from the past and focus on something else, even if it causes temporary blindness

To blind myself
I do not want to face the reality of what happened and the pain it caused

From what went wrong and
I regret my actions and wish I could have done things differently

I hear you calling
I am haunted by your memory and cannot escape it

Your essence still remains
I cannot forget or let go of the impact you had on my life

I can't deny the way the pain
I cannot ignore the hurt I caused and how it still affects me

Escape my sight
I cannot fully process or deal with the pain and try to push it away

And i was wrong and had no right
I made a mistake and did not have the authority or justification to do what I did

I never meant to watch you die
I did not intend for things to end the way they did and feel guilty for not being able to prevent it

I wish i knew what you've been through
I regret not understanding or empathizing with your struggles while you were still alive

I wish i came around for you
I regret not being there for you when you needed me

I wish i could make things right
I wish I could undo my mistakes and repair the damage I caused

So you could still be here tonight
I wish you were still alive and that I could have prevented your death

I carry this by choice
I choose to live with the weight of my guilt, as a form of punishment and reminder of my mistakes

I could have tethered you to something
I had the opportunity to help you and keep you safe, but I failed to do so

This guilt divides my soul
The burden of my guilt and regret tears me apart internally

And in between i'm left with nothing
I am caught in a state of emptiness and regret, where nothing seems to matter

I cannot take this
I cannot bear the weight of my guilt and the pain it causes

I am a shell of myself through my empathy
My guilt and empathy for what I did has stripped me of my former self and identity

I let go to survive my own sympathy
I try to detach myself from the emotions and the past to avoid being consumed by them

Let go of me i'm just rotting away
My guilt and regret are slowly destroying me and my sense of self

With the thought of your memory
The memory of what I did and how it impacted you haunts me

Take it back
I wish I could turn back time and change what happened