A Place to Bury Strangers was formed in 2002 by David Goffan and Tim Gregorio. Current frontman and guitarist Oliver Ackermann had moved to Brooklyn, New York, United States, following the disbanding of his previous group, Skywave to join the group and become the primary songwriter after the departure of Goffan. They played their first show at Luxx in Brooklyn in 2003. Jay Space and Jono Mofo, both from the New York City-based band MOFO, joined the band when Tim Gregorio left. In 2006, APTBS handmade three different untitled EPs with different color schemes; these later become known as the Red, Blue and Green EPs.
In 2006, the band gained some acclaim following its Webster Hall performance with The Brian Jonestown Massacre. The band returned to Webster Hall in 2007 to play with one of their major influences, The Jesus and Mary Chain.
Throughout these formative years, the band's live shows became increasingly chaotic which earned them the title of New York City's "loudest band" from various indie reviewers and bloggers, as well as "the most ear-shatteringly loud garage/shoegaze band you'll ever hear" by The Washington Post. The New York Times applauded their revival of "the ominous, feedback-drenched drones of the 1980s".
In early 2009, APTBS signed to Mute Records. The band also announced another European tour and appearances at the Coachella Valley Music and Arts Festival, Seaport Music Festival, Rock al Parque and Siren Music Festival. Their second album, Exploding Head, was released in October 2009. In early spring 2010, it was discovered that Jono MOFO had decided to leave the band for personal reasons (after recently getting married) rather than tour with the band during their US tour supporting The Big Pink. He was replaced for that spring tour by Dion Lunadon, formerly of the bands The D4 and The True Lovers.
On February 14, 2011, Ackermann stated that the band had begun working on their third full-length album. On January 10, 2012 A Place to Bury Strangers release the iPhone shot all Hipstamatic video for the first single So Far Away of the forthcoming Onwards to the Wall EP. On February 12, 2012, the band announced that Robi Gonzalez was taking over drumming duties for A Place to Bury Strangers. They also thanked former drummer, Jay Space, for his contribution to the band. On May 2, 2012, it was confirmed that the third album of the band, , was scheduled to be released on June 11 in the UK and Europe, and on June 26, 2012 in the US via Dead Oceans label. The band announced plans to support the release with a full North American tour in October 2012.
It was announced in early March 2013, that the band had recorded covers of songs from the Portland band, Dead Moon. They plan to release these covers on Record Store Day 2013 as an EP titled Strange Moon. In March 2013, the band began recording their 4th studio album. They recorded for several days at ABC Studios in Etne, Norway with Emil Nikolaisen of Serena Maneesh. Then, in May, APTBS released a 7" via Sweet Mistakes Productions, free with the Fractal Press Magazine, issue #135. The band also sold them without the magazine during their live shows. In late November, Ackermann and Lunadon had an interview with Drowned in Sound and said that there will likely be a tour following the 4th LP's release.
The band's fifth album, "Pinned", was released in 2018. The band also replaced Robi Gonzalez with drummer and singer Lia Simone Braswell.
In 2021, John Fedowitz (also a former member of Skywave)& his wife Sandra Fedowitz, both from Ceremony East Coast, replaced the rhythm section once again. Hologram EP was released July 16, 2021.
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I've Lived My Life To Stand In The Shadow Of Your Heart
A Place to Bury Strangers Lyrics
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To stand in the shadow of your heart
You make my dreams complete
And then crash them down
But every dream could breathe new life
Just like the memories you had with me
I want to take you down
But now
The way you lie
Sends an arrow straight into my heart
You make my dreams complete
And then crash them down
But every dream can breathe new life
Maybe that's just in my head
I want to take you down
But now
You want me dead
You want me back
But I don't care
I want you back
But you're not there
I've lived my life
To stand in the shadow of your heart
You make my dreams complete
And then crash them down
But every dream could bring new life
But the close you had with me
I want to take you down
But now
You want me dead
You want me back
But I don't care
I want you back
But you're not there
The song "Lived My Life" by A Place to Bury Strangers is a melancholic depiction of a relationship that has gone wrong. The singer has lived their life in the shadow of their partner's heart, meaning that they have always put their partner's needs and wants above their own. However, the partner has repeatedly shattered their dreams and made them feel unimportant. The singer still yearns for their partner to be a part of their life, but the partner seems to want nothing but death for them.
The lyrics suggest that the singer is torn between two conflicting emotions. On one hand, they want to take their partner down, to bring them to the same level of despair and loneliness that they themselves feel. But on the other hand, they acknowledge that every dream can bring new life and that they still cherish the memories they had with their partner. The repeated line, "You make my dreams complete and then crash them down," highlights the emotional turmoil that the singer is going through.
The final stanza of the song repeats the previous lines, "You want me back, but I don't care. I want you back, but you're not there." This line signifies that the singer hasn't given up on the relationship entirely, but they are also fully aware that their partner may never return. It's an emotional battle between their desire for love and their acceptance of a reality without it.
Overall, "Lived My Life" is a powerful and poignant reflection on a failing relationship, highlighting the complexities and emotions that come with it.
Line by Line Meaning
I've lived my life
I have spent my entire life
To stand in the shadow of your heart
Being in the presence of your love is all I have ever cared about
You make my dreams complete
Your love fulfills me in a way nothing else can
And then crash them down
But you also destroy my hopes and aspirations
But every dream could breathe new life
Still, I hold onto the hope that my dreams might someday come true
Just like the memories you had with me
Just like our past experiences together that I can't let go of
I want to take you down
I want to bring you down and make you feel the same pain you cause me
But now
However,
You want me dead
You are now completely done with me and want me out of your life for good
The way you lie
Your constant deception
Sends an arrow straight into my heart
Severely hurts me and damages our once strong connection
But every dream can breathe new life
Despite the toxic relationship we have, I still hold onto the hope of a better future
Maybe that's just in my head
Perhaps it's just a hopeless delusion in my mind
You want me back
You express a desire to reunite with me
But I don't care
However, I am indifferent to this sentiment
I want you back
I, on the other hand, want us to reconcile
But you're not there
But unfortunately, you are not emotionally available to make that happen
Lyrics © Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Written by: Oliver Edward Ackerman, Timothy T Gregorio
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