Wondering
Aaron Edson Lyrics

Sometimes I think about
Recalling a memory or a thought that crosses the mind occasionally.

The way things used to be
Reminiscing past already experienced and remembered instances.

Had it all figured out
Believed what they perceived was arranged logically.

When I was two or three
Referring to being naive and innocent at a young age.

But then I made some mistakes that I'd regret
Committing errors acknowledging the responsibility and remorse that comes from them.

Let some things in my mind I wish I could forget
Hoping to erase specific experiences that bring discomfort when remembered.

but I don't think I can erase these memories
Realizing that these memories can not be removed or eliminated.

that's why I'm down here on my knees
Praying to God using traditional Christian symbolic stance to have their issues cleansed.

I'm wondering...
Expressing the need to understand or figure something.

If you're listening to me,
Addressing an intended recipient to focus or pay attention to the following dialogue.

just wondering...
Reiterating the attempt to inquire and grasp a deeper understanding.

Who I'm supposed to be,
Questioning one's purpose and place in society.

I'm just wondering
Reconveying their curiosity to have a clarified meaning on the topic.

If there's more to life than what I see
Questioning the possibility of life having increased depth and meaning beyond their current understanding.

Just wondering...(wondering)
Emphasizing the earlier repetition of this phrase to solidify the singer's question.

Oh lord my God when I in awesome
Calling upon God to take notice of their current query and possible misunderstanding.

wonder about the man on that cross and
Thinking about Jesus Christ's crucifixion.

all the pain I put him through
Reflecting on their own non-righteous actions and how it could have affected Jesus.

and everything that I still do
Acknowledging that they still give in to sinful temptations.

which drop of blood do I make him shed?
Wondering which of their sinful actions could have led to Jesus shedding blood during his crucifixion.

did I put the thorns onto his head?
Asking if their past mistakes could have led to Jesus' suffering.

I try to do what the Savior said,
Attempting to follow Jesus' teachings and ways in their everyday life.

but I slip all the time on the path he led.
Confessing that they frequently fall short of the morals and principles Jesus demonstrated.

Just when I think these prayers are in vain
Conveying the feeling of hopelessness when prayers seem to not be answered.

I feel a power in my heart that relieves my pain
Acknowledging the little moments of God's love and comfort when going through hardships.

so please let these words get past your brain
Asking the listeners to open up their minds and hearts to understand what the singer is saying.

stop wondering, stop wondering
Encouraging to let go of doubts and uncertainties and have faith in God's plan.

'cause I know that our Father's love is real
Having a clear understanding of God's love's reality and existence.

open your heart and let it feel
Encouraging the listener to embrace the love of God's presence through emotional feeling.

'cause I've never felt this love before
Expressing amazement towards the extraordinary and unworldly love of God.

and I'm not wondering any more.
Having made contact with God's love, there is no need for the singer to question or doubt further.

Oh...
An interjection expressing amazement or wonderment.

I'm not wondering...(oh...)
Conveying a feeling of certainty and clarity on the given topic.

I'm not wondering, wondering, anymore. (3 times)
Reiterating the artist's conclusion that they have found peace in the knowledge of God's love and have stopped questioning.